I'm here to load of some thoughts after an 'eventful' day..

If you've noticed my msn nick...
it says 'i've learnt something'.
Well. yesterday's night of clubbing was okay i guess.
yes i had alil too much to drink but you know wat?
i was actually thinking alot in my own world.

I've just read serene's blog.
and i love to read her blog before i post..
makes me calm.. encourages me to just write wat i feel..
cos she always does.. =)

Yep. a club is a place full of temptations.
and though i have to admit its fun dancing while being tipsy,
its actaully dangerous if you don have frens you can count on.
hint hint*credits to SERENE and iris=)

This place of temptation.. its easy to get guys.
just give.. the green light! and they'll come crawling all over you.
green lights need not be in words, i must emphasize..
and anywae.. i would only say you are cheating on your partner if you do stuff intentionally..
so ask your devilish nature looming under your skin.
were you?

o0o! i was fed cherries again!
by the saaaaame bartender..
i'm suprised. he remembered me..
BUT. don worry. the cherry part ends there. HAHAHA..

I've been watching gossip girl the freaking entire day.
and i got upset while at it. yes.
retarded. i know... well,
a) i felt fat slumping infront of the computer.
b)i had the most horrible apetite and tummy squirls of the YEAR.
and most importantly..
c) how frens can plot against best frens in a way to gain personal satisfaction.
i mean.. even if getting back at them makes you feel good.. that joy only lasts for 30 secs? wtf?

Mum and Dad were hiding their eagerness to know bout my AHEM, 'first' clubbing nite.
i could see it in their eyes!! haaha
acting like it was no big deal at all! hahaha.
NO WAY! you guys love me too much.

i also, spent the day chatting with nick..
who was deligently helping he's dad at work!
its hard to believe. hahaha.. well..
nv stops amazing me huh?

Anywae to end this post..
i'll probably be laying off the clubs for some time.
no more cherry, no more dancing, and hell, no more liquor.
good bye rebel. arena, attica and cherry bartender for the next 2 months!

I've been feeling eager bout driving these few days.

on fri, i completed my directional change and vertical parking, parallel parking.

i'm quite worried now, cos i have enough lessons to complete my course,

but i may have only 3 revisions.. =/






i've been very free lately, and hence have alot of time to think..

on fri i suddenly missed all my girls.

i text joey, joyce and serene =))

sometimes i dunno how i'd do without them...

exams end NOW! hurry!. i miss them.





once more a year has passed for me.

i still remember myself selecting marketing just a few months back.

and in my head, i was very much optimistic.

i remember entering the class on first day..

i first noticed suffian, then i sat with amanda. and... jenna! HAHAHA.

somehow later, i got to know suffian through amanda,

made frens with nam through suffi, and talked to sam becuase of nam.

hahahaha.. and we became a project grp. =))





intial stage of interaction was horribly weird for me.

first time i was outnumbers by guys.. not by 1, by 7!

when walking in school with them i was paraniod.

i bet ppl in TP would think imma butch, if not, imma flirt.

haha. slowly as we got accustomed to one another, we started forming cliques..

so my clique was very much my project grp.


i regretted a lil though, to not be able to interact more with the 3 other girls in my class.





The first event which brought all of us together was ccn day.

UNCLE SAM'S FRIED MARS BARS. hahaha. funny one.

the OILLL! eeewww!

then next we had our class outing at TM after mid sem.

watched NARNIA? hahaha.. i got to know tiff better than.. =)





During the hols i got to know jijie and jenna better. at osaka.

i also had loads of fun with daryl and wenjie at OSAKA UNIVERSAL STUDIOS!

their damn funny.





SIDE TRACK---

the sound of intensive training from 10am till late is SCARY.

i'm doubtful, if we can put up a good show.. =/

last year was 2 weeks of intensive and it ws draining..

i remember we only had 1 meal a day.. haha.

YAY! can lose weight. hahaha.

i cried like 3 times on the second day of the concert... hhhmm. no one knows.


i question.. will there be a process to look back on?

will it be like dreams? where we learn the choreography on the day on the performance?

will my juniors babies be able to take it?

is it fair for them?

will i cry agaiin.?=/


so much running through my head.. so much to worry.

we've not been given an ans for even the most basic question of the concert.

how can we not worry...

when can we stop doing this?





on a lighter note,

i went to club with serene, steph and kat on wed.

got all the fustration out. =)




met nick too. hahaha. =)

and kat's fren gave us a lfit home in he's sports car! cool stuff.

i was worried for kat cos she was the last one.



And i had to take care of serene who was awfully drunk and was saying my funny things.. HAHAHAHAHA! XD

towards the end there was open circle!!!

wtf. i couldnt go cos i was in a dress.!!



it was different somehow.. i was eager to go out.

usually in class i'd avoid. but tt one was diff... hhmmm...

nicky went out LA. so HAO LIAN.

anywae he won best dancer for hip hop 1 course. proud of you! =D


oo0o! this bar tender at arena was like flirting with me LAAAA..

THANKS for the compliment! and the CHERRY. hahahaa. xD





END OF SIDE TRACK----



Marketing yr 2 has ended now..

sam suddenly said ' ok. good bye 2M02!"

there was an awful silence..

yea.. its suddenly occurred to us it was probably our last time as a class.



The next few days...

i need to get on my feet and do my freakin resume and cover letters!

hurry before all the biz students start. hehe

KIA SU RITE!. oh well. business is like that.

you gotta FIGHT for it. agree?

i hope i can get serene's one.. =(



my holidays are gonna end soon!

yea. sucky..

since wen did dance becom such a chore?

wat process you want us to have?



*slap myself!*

CANNOT. must be optimistic.

its a concert. and its gonna be a good one.

Its been a long post!

SORRYYY! heh.

for awsomely bored and mugging ppl.. don worry.. SMILE!

Hey peeps.
its been 2 days without worries. =)
i'm enjoying it.

Lets start with Celebration of learning?
its was fun. surprisingly.. hahaha..
i tot its be some boring shit.
but as markerters, we bring the fun!
haha..
I LOVE JENNA'S DSLR!!!
she was nice to let me play with it the whole day..
haha. pictures soon!

Anywae, that night after dance,
i talked a hell lot with fatty sheep.
the stuff he said made alot of sense...
Actually i realised py is not all irritating.
i guess he doesnt say this stuff to people because he cant.
in his passage of dance i guess its similar to mine? like we both like to tell ppl things straight.
and some ppl cannot handle that, so we always become the bad guys.
so, it has forced him to just shut up?
i can understand.. and my time will come soon..
wat for you try to help the person and get chided in return..
not worth the pain and effort.. not worth... =(
he also explained to me how much you level of skill plays a part.
its like people will always deny that they will not be angry wen a lousy students tell them tt they suck.
but its not true. we humans are like that, we just cannot accept!
mean. horrible.. but yea.. lets admit it.
i've had it before. =X
i slapped myself hard after that.
like wtf was i thinking.
people will not respect the things you say if you cannot perform better than them.

Than i talked to tim..
and the most educational sentence of the night from him was...
its doesnt mean that if you can accept ppl telling you straight in the face, means ppl can handle that too...
i figured we all work in different styles..
and we should respect that..
so now if you learn a person cannot take it we cannot force them too..
its just how you wouldnt want ppl to force you eat a cockroach!
eeeeeeeee.
i would hate that person too if they made me do tt!
i would hate them to the core..

i felt so much more enlightened.
less worried and more motivated...


Went to rebel to have fun with my girls last night.
its was cool.
i didnt have much alcohol.
mei qi was super nice la..
she took care of all of us. =)
thanksss... and the rest of us, we helped each other keep an eye too.
i would go with them again too.
they are safe clubbing frens. HAHAHA!


I was asked by py to think back wen i first started dancing.
and... the only thing i can remember from there was..
how fun it was.
with joyce and melise.. sometimes frankie..
we would go for studio wu classes.
how we always felt we needed to dance bettter.
how elation would overwhelm when we got picked out.
i feel jsut becuase i've hit a pass-able level as a dancer i slacked back.
and i got too worried over things which are not even at all impt.
so i guess now its back to training.
i'm not good in dance at all.
no where near good.
good= gin, ryan, kate, mazlan, ashley, an an, gi gi torres, jun..........................
i'm. no. where. near.

hello hello hello!

i'm sill very refreshed and inspired by yesterday's FUYO INTER SCHOOL!

AND GUESS WAT?

TP WONNNN!!!!!!!

temasek me.. temasek you.. we are a teammmmmm.

hahaha. awesome stuff.

though i felt it was a waste nel, harris and hazrul didnt get to through to the semi.

justtt because. they had a girl. and and and.

irony is.. she helped them get to the finals..

but also because of her, the team couldnt win.

ahah. recruit me next time YO!

fuyo is dope shit too mann.

bbgirl I WILL BE!.




Anywae, i'm sick. =(

down with slight fever...

panadol is my survival pac now.

=( i had to pass the visiting with all my dance babies..

oh well. =(



Nvm then..

i'll just stay at home and study my a n p.

last paper later!!!!!

weeeeeeeeeeeeeee...

and after that its fun fun FUN!

A RANDOM NOTE

many a times, i've been pointed at for being too honest.
say it in a nasty way, i'm insensitive to other's feelings.
but try to understand my side.
i am not the type who enjoys stabbing ppl or making them feel hurt.
talk about constructive critism!
i may not be the best at it..., but i'm trying. really.

wat is NOT constructive critism?

- It is intended to not help the reciepient
- It's primary uses include to hurt someone, shred them into peices, create guilt, destroy their self esteem and humiliate them.

Well, i need to stand up for myself on this one because intensions of such are non existent. Help me here.. Maybe... just maybe.... its was the opposite party who could not take critism.

How to recieve constructive critism?

- Recognize the value of such critisms. It will only improve you.
- Try to understand the perspective of the person offering the critism. Also known as role reversal.
- Acknowlegde critism that is focused on your behaviour.
- Listen actively before you begin to hate the person.
- Work hard to avoid becoming defensive.

Yay. looks like i'm prepared for my comskills test.

and yes. i finally got a chunk of deep buried stuff off my chest.
it took me a long while plus plenty of courage to type this.
cos i wouldnt want it to hurt anyone like how that post hurt me.
so just see it as general knowledge for future use.
i'm not pointing at anyone. i say againnnnnn....
i'm not pointing at anyone.


bye!

I had my first waaking class today!!
fun la!
i waack you, you waack me.
seriously..
you need to be more aware of your space TAN MEI CHIN.
stop waacking ppl!!

Anywae, i wasted 69 bucks today.
so gay so gay so gay.
loser.
i shall not continue. -.-

On the lighter note, im really quite pleased with the tuesday class..
its kinda the first time me taking one big class with many ppl!!
though i wasnt my choreography, i put my heart and soul into making it nice.
as instructed by didi, just clean and standardize first.
i guess i felt naggy and i taught certain steps really slow..
i just didnt have theeeeee wat you call it? like..
experience on how to explain the steps?

but overall feedback was positively encouraging=)
i said before i wanna start teaching choreo and this could just be my first tiny step!
i wont give up and i'll work doubbly hard.

it was so suber uber duperly scary at the beginning.
pardon me all.
=)

Tmr is ftt AGAIN.
hahaha. pls don ffaaaaaiiiillllllllllllllllllll.
and i've marked out my driving schedule,
i am super women.
dance and driving.
i dunno how =/

Something on the sideline,
i realised that, its often the case people forget you, vice versa.
so i guess its ok.
just that now i know who's really there for me...
and who just says they'll be there for me.
its sad to think we've known each other soo long.
but i dont know you at all.
bye!

i'll enjoy myself with waacking instead.
WOOOOOOOOO =)

This was an emo post.

didi and ah foong read it right after i blogged.
yes. infront of meeeee!
so pai sae..
hahaha


no more emomo.
no more for you all to read!
hahahha
BYE!