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2009-08-31T09:36:00.000-07:00

M . O . V . E . D

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2009-08-07T07:24:00.001-07:00

FUUUUUCCCCKKING HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HAH!

hhmm. im just glad the storm is over.=))

Granny's back from the hospital and recovering..
the night we admitted her to the hospital, i felt so heart broken.
she lived on glucose for 3 days. no food. only water.
sheeesh. i wouldnt be strong enough.
but everythings better now =)

good news no. 2

MY AWESOME GROUPMATES AND I HAVE BEEN CHOSEN TO PRESENT TO NIKE!!!!!
YES YES YES YES YESSSSS!!!!!~
finally.
i feel so.... ahhhh~
my god... waoh... im still in a little bit of shock.
hahaha... waoh.. really...

good news no. 3

BANGKOK CALLING BABY!!!!!!!!!!
heading there to SHOP DUH! groupies said im going there for a sex change! PFFT.
yay yay yay! i have a good feeling about it.
travelling overseas with sam again! AWESOME.
and this time we have kat and liang too. =)
SAMANSARII PLEASE HOLD ME TIGHT TIGHT DON LET ME GET LOST!
my mother, father, granny, aunty, dog, friends, friends and friends will cry! =P
you're so gonna be my mother hen LAAAA! lol!

good news no.3
yay! you're gonna start teaching at a dance studio! =D you're good news is MINE TOO! buahahahhaa.
it'll be awesome.. but a step at a time.. you're AWESOME. =)

im just really happy how everything is going.
of cos i still have my test and theatre to worry about..
but for now, i'll just seep into the sweet serenity of my fruits of labour and you..

i wanna share my happiness with the world,
like i always do.
FREE HUGS AND KISSES everyone! =D

my weekend is packed with more happiness...
sat- register for o sch recital
chill out with andee CHUA.
sun- NATIONAL DAY!! MY FREAKING FAVOURITE PUBLIC HOLIDAY!
party with dancers at sentosa..
monday - HAVE A BLAST with mkt ppl at sentosa... (yes again..)

WEEEEEEEEE!!~~ =DDDDDDDD

2009-07-30T00:57:00.000-07:00

THE DAY DOESNT GET ANY BETTER! ARRGGH!

Reached school early today, to print out some of the bran lec notes that i don have.
so at the printers' i put in my thumbdrive and started printng.
first time, i over printed by a F$%^&* lot.
second time, i clicked once, but 4 came out..
i got worried..
so the 3rd set of notes i wanted to print i asked the lady for help..
she printed... and 4 fucking sets of notes came out again.
then later i said i nv say 4 sets... and she told me i must have set it to 4 sets.
in my mind i was like ' HELLO? you were to one who printed it??!?!'
so she said... let me show you again.
she did the same thing.
but then while it was printing she started fidgiting with the printing machine..
okay, so now only one set come out. LOL!
how the fuck you wan me to believe you didnt change the settings?!
aiya. heck la. screw this. i'll just pay.
so i paid for every thing...
7 DOLLARS AND 30 CENTS.

Before presentation i realised i forgot to bring the script i prepared the night before.
SIAN. must write again.
presentation went okay.
mrs wu said out group is short-listed to present to the client.
but. im not keeping my hopes to high on her after wat happened last sem. =/

Alrighty.. so i had no mood to see MRS PAIN-IN-THE-ASS at theatre. SKIP!

I wont deny i wasnt baffled by your texts..
sat and the bus stop, thought about it.
on the bus home, thought about it.
waited for the next bus, thought about it.
walked home, thought about it.
while bathing, thought about it.
IM CONFUSED. pfft.

Im screwed big time cos i cant find the dvd to return.
argh!
and the book wan yi borrowed for me is overdue AS WELL! hooooray!
screwed.

so tell me, when does my happy ending come?

pissed offff!!!
TAN MEI CHIN EFFING ORGANISE YOUR LIFE DAMN IT.

2009-07-26T09:55:00.000-07:00

i shall blog while waiting for your call.=)

my eyes are puffed and teary from all the yawning,
but i don mind=)

Went out with the dancers today..
it was a super random outing, i know..
but we had an awesome time! =D
im happy i initiated it=))
i hope yall enjoyed too..

My back hurts from today's back massage..
the uncle tried to massage my spine back into shape.
lol. can meh?!
now it feels sore... -.-

Anywae, the past week has been pretty eventful.
hhmmm.
bad stuff is...

theatre presentation got screwed up big time!
i talked back at the teacher cos she's just so EFFING RUDE!
yes. zain got the question wrong, SHUUTTUP and give him a chance to explain.
lol. ( i suddenly feel so fortunate for my mkting groupies! yall are DA BEST)
i was boiling inside. and wen i finally got the chance to speak,
i left the entire crowd with a silent blanket. woops.
awkward, but thankfully it didnt last long.
im just happy i did my part of the presentation well.
during our individual comments, suprisingly she didnt chide me, but praised my presentation skills.
THANKS! but you're still a pain in the ass. =x

sis left too.
awww=(
i'll definitely miss her...
one less company to crap with at home.
not like lucky can laugh at my jokes. -.-
COME HOME SOOON!

good stuff....

WE have come to the end of this semester's projects!!!
wooooooo!!

*fireworks spam the skiess!*

Brand presentation was awesome.
we ran over by 6mins. but it was just too interesting, she couldnt bear to cut us off? =P
and she did mention we're gonna be short listed to present to ben and jerrys!
LETS GET IT GROUPIES!!
we lost ours last sem. i really want it bad this sem!

i've secured my internship!! =DD
YEESAAH! and the employer feedbacked to our lectures,
they said they're pretty impressed with meichin and amanda!
WEEEE! blessing in disguise?
screw saatchi! here i come H&K!! =)
and i have my lunch time buddy too!

FRIDAY WAS SHHHWEET
heh.=))

i spent my saturday morning and afternoon giving back to the community!
how handsome is that! =D
scrubbed clean a freaking hell lots of croc shoes,
and played some big ass sorting/memory/creativity game with single-sided crocs.
and all would have been boring had my frens not been there.
CHEERS MARKETEERS! we are BEEEEEEYYASOME.

my handsss are wrinkly from scrubbing these shoes,
from scrubbing these shoes for CROCS...
the children are haappy from getting these shoes,
from getting these shoes from CROCS...
lol. =D

yeps.tts about it.

anywae, phone call's not comin nemoreee!=(
hahhaa.
poor boy... projects SUCK!

its alright, i suddenly feel i haven had a time for long thoughts in a long time.

life has been so hectice, i feel detached from my inner voice.

we were just talking about time for yourself the other day, and i said something which made so much sense..

if you don have enough time for yourself, eveything else may start to feel like a burden, and you'll start to push away all of them.

take for example an outing. somehow, you'll just have no feel to go.. it looks like JUST ANOTHER event, and you feel it'll be sian.. so you reject. but then, your other frens will be like having a shit load of fun.. just that you don see it happening to yourself. it applies to boyfrens too.. hahaha. too much of a boyfren makes you feel you don have time for your own, and you begin to find him irritating and you wanna push him away or not hang out with him... true? =)

talking about boyfrens... i really get turned off when couples live in their own world. its just unethical and not very gracious.. yea. i'll nv wanna lose my frens if i have a boyfren. afterall, they are the ones who you need if boyfren become jerkhole. hahaha.

to jump or not to jump?

i picture myself pacing up and down on the edge of a building.

below is just a depth of unknown, how long it goes?

maybe there's an enormous soft cotton candy at the pit,

but then wat if its a ground lined with curls of sharp thorns?

should i jump?

you shout from mid air, asking me to jump.

and i feel your stress.. but i cant decide. i ponder...

then again, wat if i don jump in time to catch up with you?...

wats gonna happen then?

i shout back' hey! im still here! hang in there... ppleaseee? =('

lol. DRAMA ONLY!

tireddd. sleeepy.

- peace out earthlings -

2009-07-22T08:13:00.000-07:00

For my dearest cousin,

"The strongest principle of growth lies in the human choice."
George Eliot

"The true test of character is not how much we know how to do, but how we behave when we don't know what to do."
John Holt

"Character cannot be developed in ease and quiet. Only through experience of trial and suffering can the soul be strengthened, ambition inspired, and success achieved."
Helen Keller

For my aunty,

"Patience and perseverance have a magical effect before which difficulties disappear and obstacles vanish."
John Quincy Adams

For mummy,

“The Family is the Country of the heart. There is an angel in the Family who, by the mysterious influence of grace, of sweetness, and of love, renders the fulfilment of duties less wearisome, sorrows less bitter. The only pure joys unmixed with sadnes”
Giuseppe Mazzini quotes

For my beloved serene Lim,

"When one door of happiness closes, another opens; but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one which has opened for us."
Helen Keller

For myself,

Life is only worth living, if you can make the ppl around feel that way.
TANNNNN MEI CHIN.

There's really nothing much i can do the salvage the situations.. but i hope this helps..=)

loves,
meichin

2009-07-19T11:12:00.000-07:00

Im disappointed.
i know its tough, but somehow my heart told me you're strong enough...
i just so miss the you last time,
strong and optimistic..
come back please?

i feel its my fault as well,
i cant help but feel the blame..
probably its because i didnt spend enough time with you...
apologised to your mum that day..
and she said ' its ok dear..'
damn.
i felt so raw and cut.
they must be feeling much worse..

So now with so much strain in the family
im really finding it dificult differentiate wats right from wrong.
and wats appropriate and not for me to say..
i wanna help, but the words just cant seem to come.
so i just spend so much time pondering over you.

grow up boy?
please? =/

2009-07-16T15:30:00.000-07:00

Its 6.30 in the morning!!!
DIDNT SLEEP THE WHOLE NIGHT. THANKS TO AVIS.
Well, its all done now, and we've spent the last drop of our energy on being cranky and crazy infront of nam's lappy. it is FUUUNNEEHHH i tell you.
HAHAHHA...
anywae, the boys are sleeping now,
gonna wake them up to print and submit the project later...

Projects are HELL and a PAIN in the shit hole.
but its really not all that bad with you, my groupies!!
WE'RE AWESOME. =)
one more project to go! lets pull through...

I suddenly feel so dependent on someone,
it feels weird.
and im rejecting this dependence.
wonder how i pulled through my tough times before without complaning and whining.
i liked that previous me... i like my independence. =)
and im gonna get it back. =)

Interview later..
oh dear, it haunts me.. =(
my previous was.. yea...
pray i get?
its actually singapore's top PR consultancy...
please please please don let down the teachers... =/

COME ON COME ON~
i can do it.
i've learnt my lesson, and therefore,
this time i'll shine.
hopefully amanda gets in too!
then SIP wont be lonely cos we'll be there for each other! =))

Im really exhausted.
but im not gonna sleep yet.
probably later...
lets watch sunrise together groupies. =)

2009-07-15T10:51:00.000-07:00

With not much words to express,

im just happy for today. =)

2009-07-14T08:13:00.000-07:00

i wish for the time, during night cycling, how roy tim badd nel didi, we faced away out from singapore and screamed our lungs out.

I want that now! i need itttt!!! =/

pffffft..

its been really taxing.

but anywae, i don wanna go dwell into all the stress,

look on the bright side, i realised how my frens made it all better in an instance.

On monday, i was in deep consideration of skipping dance to do project.

But in the end i decided to go for dance.

it was so funny how joyce and i kept forgetting steps everytime we looked at each other.

hahahahahhaa...

till now, it makes me laugh..

i was sad-

joey hugged me and spinned me around with her huge power popping arms! =D

joyce almost broke my ribcage with her massive crushing hug! =D

and THE phone call. heh. =))

i felt so much better after that.

I wish i could split myself into 5!

1 for sis/mum/dad.

1 for projects

1 for dance

1 serene LOVE

1 for myself

1 for anyone else who wantss meeee..... =)

woops! thats like 6 MEs... hahah.

aaaahhhhhhhhhhhh...

lets hope things get better.

thank YOU. =)

2009-07-05T01:11:00.000-07:00

Its time i say goodbye to all the sad posts!!!

K la, the past week has really been tough on me.
but, look on the bright side,
i 've brave through it! =D

Now with jim beam over and done with,
its gonna be projects projects and more PROJECTS.
hello to brand, sales and services subject.
i don like you, but i know you love me..
so im gonna give you a chance to hang out with me for the next 2 weeks.
and after that, im gonna dump you. LOL.

Getting to know you~
getting to know more about you~
do yall remember that song? haha. =)

Im a happy girl now.
and i like it this way.
spread to love and joy.
sounds like christmas! =P

2009-07-03T22:40:00.000-07:00

i wanna be a better dancer for myself.
i wanna be a better dancer for my team.
i wanna be a better dance for the audience.

Im even more determined to train harder now..
back to the mountains. =)

who's with me? =D

2009-06-30T23:50:00.000-07:00

Ive never felt so screwed in my whole entire life before...
this is probably the first time in my life an illness has made me so tensed.

I fainted for the first time in my 19 yrs on Earth.
i was brushing my teeth and all of a suddenly i couldnt see anything and i was ramping into stuff i have no idea wat..
by the time my vision was regained, i was already on the floor, and in my head...
i just kept wishing ' daddy don come in, don come in, don come in...."

They have already suspected that im not okay, because of my long naps and deep sleeps.
but thankfully everytime they touched my forehead it wasnt hot..
If my parents knew i was running a fever i would be OUT of jim beam...
and everything else..

to be frank, im really afraid as of now,
if my fever doesnt go down by tmr, im SCREWED.
i'll be a suspect for HINI.
its kinda like the feeling im gonna be a rotten apple and ppl are gonna throw me in the dustbin.

i know its selfish for me to move around the place being sick and all,
its just really sad..
and i don want to pass it to my frens either..

the though of today'a fainting still kinda scares me..
maybe cos its my first.
please please please please let me get better by tmr!
i don wanna end up in the hospital!!!! =(

Im stronger than this!
COME ONNNNN!

2009-06-24T10:04:00.000-07:00

This really made my day...=)
thanks suffi!

There's so much tension and stress building up..
to some point, i dont know when i might blow..

dance competition is friday..
we're not as good yet. just not.
i lost my double pirouette.. =(
i could do it. rite rite?
you guys saw! but its GONE.
i crashed so hard and so many times....
yeah. i laugh and stand up, but its quite sad. =/

IJ submission is also coming up...
haiz.. wat do i need to do to relieve the stress,
so i can chillax and do my work without the worries..
mum keep adding stress onto me.
she keeps saying this is my competition.
she keeps forcing me to say 'yes mum. it'll be my last.'
but no! i fred not! =/

so emomo posttt!!! i don like.
i wanna be happy! and cheerful.
its just difficult at times like this...
im sry...

2009-06-22T01:43:00.000-07:00

Your view on yourself:

are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on educationEducation is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

Quite true for me i feel? hahaha. =) i got this quiz from suffi's bloggg. here, you guys should try it. http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Some part of the quizzes are really spot on. the thingy about heart solving rather than head? right right? my girls will definitely agree. hahaha...
and yea. i don waste time on ppl i feel i wont be able to clique with! =) totally!

The Real You

1.You've got great self-confidence and you're full of charm. Most guys who get to know you will be attracted to you. You are far from sweet and proper; your intriguing personality fascinates them. Most guys find it easy to fall for a girl like you.

2.You really care about other people's feelings and are quite serious about the issues that affect your life. You are sincere, and your concern for the well-being of others makes many people want to be your friend.

3.You are a bright, cheerful and bubbly person. You are thoughtful and considerate, and like to have fun. Everybody feels comfortable around you because of your pleasant nature. When you walk into a room, people's eyes are likely to be drawn to you because of your charm.

4.Your peers think of you as a fun person, but sometimes you can be a little irresponsible. You can be somewhat childish, and can try to ignore the fact that you will one day need to really grow up and be a mature adult! Perhaps you could start reading good books; they might help you look at the world in a different light. You do want to be taken seriously, right?

5.Your boyfriend believes that you are a strong and independent person. Your confidence and cheerfulness make you an attractive person to be around, but sometimes you need to pay more attention to what other people, including your boyfriend, are thinking.

Anyhow, yesterday was the last day of the holidays...
hurrrrr.. wait can i say? was it even a holiday? i just felt like 2 weeks of no tutorials and skipped lectures. hahha. but since we're done with that, lets just move on.

i havent been updating the blog very much, should i?
all i can remember from the holidays was the sat night drinking, revogue training, expat scouting and class outing! yep. erm pictures next time? =)

The past 2 days were an absolute shocker for me... just totally saw through a person. lol! game OVER! i saw through you. so you can go on with your tiny game on other girls, i wont entertain you anymore! SUCK THAT! =DD feels good to win you know? =x

competiton is in 3 days, and submission for IJ is in 3 days, i have sooooo many things to do, and really really, just so little time... oh dear. there goes my sleep.
take care readers! swine is EVERYWHERE! =)

peace out -

2009-06-16T08:29:00.000-07:00

past week has been hectic.

i really really feel detached.
somehow, i dont feel myself?

probably due to the many happenings, and worries.
i cant seem to lay my mind off the projects even wen its not project time.
somehow, it lives in the back of my head.

thank god for frens and events that help lay off the stress.
actually, i dont know why im so stressed up this semester.
i dont remember being like this previously... *shrugs*

came across serene's poll on her blog.
in a situation that your bf/gf has cheated on you, would you prefer the third party to be of the same sex, or the opposite?
my answer was same. meaning he(my bf) has become gay.
and 64% had the same answers as me. im pretty sure those are girls..
haha... and why thats my answer?
i dunno... probably would think its a less painful truth of accepting that your love is gay than sick of you.

Went to MG to choreo our competition piece.
as of so far, the team has been well...
but wen the gruelling trainings begin,
i dont know if we can be so 'world peace' anymore...

tmr's gonna be craaaaaaazy.
hosting a focus grp for the first time.
should i revise my pilot technic notes? hahahaha...
and following that is modern dance!
and finally heading out with my yr2s.
the awesome bunch of ppl who made me wash my floor 4 TIMES.

few more days till school reopens...
be happy chin=)

2009-06-10T00:27:00.000-07:00

I've been so lazy to blog recently..
infact, i feel things are moving so quickly, i cant really recall wats been happening..

schools a pain in the ass.
for once i regret taking marketing..
while everyone else is havin their holidays and going overseas..
we're very much stuck here and have no freedom.
projects are tough shit.

some more with jim beam competition coming up,
i sometimes doubt is can cope.. =/

its such an emo blog entry to start of the holiday,
but seriiously, is it even a holiday?

yesterday was gabriel's p.o.p
its probably the first and the last im gonna attend...
becos... i have no brothers, or boyfriends going to the army.
hahaha. it was erm.. something to remember..

arrgghhhhh HOLIDAYSSSSS.
let the fun begin!! NOWWWW~
SIAN.

and just as i was beginning to open the doors,
i pulled back again.
it just seems, i cant trust the person enough.
i'll always have one foot on the ground,
falling and waiting to be caught just aint my type of game.

there's modern later!!
woooooo. its gonna be fun.

2009-06-01T01:20:00.000-07:00

WE're 1/3 way through with mid sems.
hang in there!

Have you ever felt a distant with a person wen you're with them?
how do you break the barrier?
cos i know we get along very well,
its just that in person, something feels different.
how ah?

This morning i handed joey the money from our work.
it felt like mummy giving her daughter money.
hahahaha. ok.
random.

i feel like eatin the beancurd tart at bencoolen street.

3 more days 3 more days.

I hope our talk will solve things.
we wouldnt be talking i we didnt cared.

i know you readers probably don have a freakin clue wat all this about.
you what,
me too...

bye!

2009-05-27T03:47:00.001-07:00

I've finally picked myself up to start sourcing for SIP..
i called companies, and searched the net for good companies..

But at the back of my head,
i knew i was still sad from my previous.
all this time ive been surpressing and avoiding it..
and now the cut feels fresh.

to those who dont know,
i screwed my interview with saatchi & saatchi.
it hurts.
i don screw up! i hardly do!

and for all things, why must i screw up for the thing i want the most.
Saatchi & Saatchi is like THE ADVERTISING FIRM.
every student wants their internship there..
and i was short listed for an interview.
but i screwed up...

i cant really forgive myself because,
the stuff tt i screwed were all in my control.
i was late.
my portfolio was messy.
i didnt sell myself to the employer.
ARGH.
meichin you are so dumb.

it hurts...
i'll remember this for life.
i hope this mistake saves me from future job opportunities.. =/

i need to let go and forgive myself.
its not easy though..
i might need more time. =(

2009-05-26T05:53:00.001-07:00

2009-05-24T02:00:00.000-07:00

Dont you ask yourself sometimes, 'why me?'

i need answers...

2009-05-17T20:25:00.000-07:00

I DON WANNA GO SCHOOL MUMMYYYYYYYY! =((

i'm having a primary school fit.

school sucks and i just wanna stay at home and watch cartoon!

Im running away...

school is so distant for me. i dont know wat to do for project,

and i feel like a complete asshole for not doing my part.

if only i could just stay off and chill at sentosa everyday... =(

huurrrrrr=((( i don wanna go schoolllll..

mummy help me write letter to grpmates?

i have an interview later but i just called to cancel it.

someone approached me to do freelance modelling.

but after serene told me bout the paying 500 bucks to let them do your portfolio,

i guess im not going anymore.

i trust serene, and i also heard from my tutor's daughter before.

i'm not tt pretty, my body is like pui. they don wan me to model,

they want my portfolio making cash.

Yesterday was soooo nice.

i don wanna come back to reality,

i just really wish to stay like yesterday for as long as we want.

2009-05-12T21:22:00.000-07:00

HEllo! i havent been blogging for sometime..

i dont really know why actually..

in fact, time is passing so quickly, i cant even keep track of the things ive been doing.

Emotions over the past week has been rather on the down side...

i guess it all started with my screwed up interview.

i was late. don ever be fucking late for an interview...

and you guys know hos much i value punctuality. so not only did i disappoint the interviewer, i totally feel like a shit hole loser till now. =/

I've been very much alone too..

i mean, not physically, but mentally.

havent really been sharing with my loves about stuff and all.

i really cant wait for sunday.

i need some private time off, and some good ass sun tanning.

Night-working Coffee Boy as called by cherie has got me into a hell lot of thinking.

i really dont know if i should continue the game.

half of me wants to pull back due to many many reasons.

while the other half feels that maybe there's more to come..

side track--

caught STAR TREK with my groupies.

im not a trekkie fan, but seriously, the show was AWESOME.

i tot the storyline was really good. and of cos the graphics are stunners.

catch it.

Anywae, it was fun wwatching with them..

afterall the stress we accumulate over the week, its also fun to have destressing time together.

thank god for my groupies. i'm so grateful.

LONG AND PROSPER. *do the hand sign* hahahahahha

Also on saturday, i called the girls out for drinks.

they were so on! =D thanks babes.

i really needed to get out of the house.

i had my very first cup of FLAMING LAMBOGINI!!!

so did sam. hahah who got a lambogini hang over the next day.

its niceeee. erm. the ending part especially. milky milky one. =)

then we camwhored alot.

and went to a LATIN CLUB. omg. so fun!

went to china one. and last stop was MG.

first time there. =) andddd the jaquzzi looks tempting but i wasnt appropriately dressed.

anywae, it a really nice place for couple.

sky view comfortable environment....

I like guys who are witty you know?

some times i just find it irritating that i read past their mind too quickly.

i'm not saying that i'm smart of wat,

its just that their words, and actions,

makes things too obvious.

i hate to thhhhiiiiiinnnnkkk so much!

argh.

someone!

occupy me with something!

i feel so gone with saatchi.

not replying my calls. there goes my sip...

and i have not motivation to source for more...

i was jus describing to ian the feeling is like..

you just got rejected by a girl..

and you don ever wanna fall in love again.

ha. good analogy he said.

okay. i'm ranting.

i'll stop. buhbye!

2009-05-03T10:58:00.000-07:00

xJ says:
vitasoy is nice
haha
ya
kids sometime dont think
anyway baby
i mean babe
wahhaha
i go slp already
MEI CHINNNNNNN says:
hahahaha!
xJ says:
gd nite
MEI CHINNNNNNN says:
gd nite BABY
hahahahahahaha
xJ says:
the y is too near the e
whahaha
sweet dreams

hahahahaha. i cant stop laughing.
SHOCK ME TO HELL.
tt ons my fren HOR.
don mistaken..
damn funny.

OKAY! GD NITE PEOPLE!

2009-04-26T21:03:00.000-07:00

Monday afternoon and i have nothing better to do.
So here i am blogging about almost anything i can talk about.
If only i had cable tv.
then i can be a couch potatoe...
and learn stuff from national geographic or animal planet..

Realised something about myself...
erm, if i don trust someone, i hold back alot about myself..
and that also got me to understand something joey said some time ago..
' Because she's more open ma.. so guys tap into her easily..."
ohh... ok. now i understand.
dont you agree?
if you are more open with someone, the process of knowing each other speeds up.

random craving for char kway teow.
hhahahaa.

ok. yaa. back to being open...
being open requires you to not fear tt a person should know you too well before the time is ripe.
so i should classify my distrust in a form of fear,
that would lead to a result of holding back.
wen you close off the person to certain topic, the conversation ends there..
and time later, you both feel there's nothiing much to talk about.
wen actually there is. its whether you want to or not. =)
such a boring topic rite.
CHANGE!...

Ever did something or said something with intentions to uncover the opposite party's personality?
hahahaha.. i bet YES.
ever been on the receiving end wen you feel a certain phrase was put out to test your reaction?
so wat was your move?

i came across this CHEESY PICK UP LINE.
here it goes...
' For every pimple you have on your forehead, a man i thinking of you... See all those pimples you have? thats meeeee.... *wink wink*'

HAHAHAHAHAAHAHHAHAHAHAAHA. OMG.
SLAP HIS FACE. -.-

----

ok now is MONDAY NIGHT..
hahahhaa. yes.. i am taking quite some time to finish this entry...

We met our client just now..
they are pretty cool ppl i would say...
we'll see how it goes..

SIP is a PAIN IN THE ASS..
and fyi. it has not even started...
finding a good place is so tough! =(
bad economy.. bad times.. =/

i just finished watching MARLEY & ME...

You know, several times, i've woke up half way to put my hands on my dogs chest to see if he was still breathing...
and there was this once, i didnt feel anything..
i sat up and shoook him so hard so that he would move again..
and thank god he did..
he opened his eyes and starred straight into mine...
i let out a sigh of relieve and my heart began beat normally again..
Lucky is 12... its about his time..

After the show i ran to his bed, picked him up.
and hugged him so tight..
tears started falling again...
i'm so afraid of that day.. =(((

Its hard for others to understand how much you can love a dog.
And if i remember correctly, this isnt the first time i'm saying this here..
maybe only a handful of you would feel where im coming from...
i dunno. lucky is family.. =) and i love him so very much.

i shall end today's post here...
its almost 12 now...
goodbye readers. =)

2009-04-23T07:07:00.000-07:00

It thursday!
Week 1 of school flies past just like tt..
hhmm.. i dont know if i should be happy or sad?

This semester we're having 3 clients!!! omg!
AVIS.
NIKE. (weeeeeee!)
BEN'S & JERRY.
i personally feel the avis one is pretty out of place.
i mean cars don appeal to our age grp.
or maybe YOU ALL! cos i have my license! HAHAHAHA.
i'm enjoying the stunned faces on ppl now wen they now i have a driving license.
YEA BABEH.
but i'm still on parents probation. so don envy me at all. -.-

------ and i didnt text yet.
not for the whole of today....
i'm actually ok with it.
take it slow. =)

Joycelyn Chew Jing Yi!
i have yet to update you.
hahahaha. SUNDAY SUNDAY.! =D

Anywae. today's performance was bad.
bad bad bad.
you dont have to tell me, i will know.
sad. and affected. tmr will be better.
tmr MUST be BETTER.

Serene sent me a text today..
'My friend says one of he's friend likes you. A guy from engine. i dunno who. haha'

So......
i said: he doesnt like me. he likes my face.

WTH RITE?!
it just reminds me of the movie i just watched. HANDSOME SUIT.
ppl are so practical...
yes, i do agree the law of attraction plays a great role.
but i don feel its right to say you LIKE A PERSON wen you dont even know her?
wat you like about me?
my boobs? my eyes? watever it is, its everything EXCEPT MY PERSONALITY.
ok.. i should eat a chill pill. and not get to worked up.
just say she's hot la. hahahahahahahaa. =x

2009-04-18T01:15:00.000-07:00

HI! i'm finally back to blog.

hhahahaha. ive been so busy and so lazy...

IN SHORT,

the last 2 weeks of my holidays has been really fulfilling and full of emotions.

something which i will treasure very much.

and also because of that, i feel i've lived enough of the holidays,

and is im ready to go back to school.

hhmm.. where should i start?

Yesterday as JAM n HOP.

i remembered last yr, few incidents happen during this event which was really awful.

and also because of that, it was my goal to do this year's JAM n Hop.

However, i guess things changed. and even though i was given the opportunity to perform.

i chose to watch by the sidelines. i still dont know why,

but i was following wat my heart said. =) one of the few times i didnt use my brain in a decision.

Wednesday was a very fun and exciting day.

i was one fo the 2 guys and 3 girls chosen.

basically, we had loads of fun.

One of the organisers, KARINA. she's awesome.. very funny. haha

Aspire to fly!

i look kinda dellusional and in my own world here. HAHA.

The bus we performed on... The hardest stage i've experienced so far.

Shawn and Roland, 2 other organsiers.. THEY ARE ALL MARKETERS! like meeee!

This is one of the happiest performance done so far..

with my loved ones all beside me.. =))

its fun just all because of you all. =)

Experience gained was pretty dope.

to dance on a bus. with only a space of 50 cm, height of 2m? i couldnt even stretch my hand up stright.

with poles to swing around and a distance of less than 7cm with the audience!

hahha.i could sense the excitement in the audience. i know you wanna scream and shout! but its okay.. your image is more impt! =D

I'm in dead neeed of a shopping trip!!!

my closet has not been upgraded since last semester.. =(

i'll porbabbly be hitting bugis later...

Today is the last day of the holidays...

i'm glad that for the past 2 week it has been fulfilling and i can say tt im ready for school!

BRING IT ON BABY.

2009-04-11T05:25:00.000-07:00

PANDA EYES BIGGGG TIMEE!

shit. i look like crap..

hahaha...

We had night cycling!

will post pictures and stuff soon=)

Went back to school for a talk...

we kinda knew it was coming already.

and i'm glad it has happened...

as we grow as dancers, gin grows as an instructor?

so we should be there for each other..

my goodness. the though of me becoming an alumni next year is.....

tear jerkingg!!

will i even get to be an alumni?

as most of you all may know, my parents wanna send me abroad.

i cant imagine if i have to leave all these things behind..

so much i've went through and i may have to completely let go.

and my friendS? my loves? oh dear.... =(

I had several goals for dance this yr.

of which one is TBG, and it cannot be attained..

i didnt make it last yr.. was hoping to redeem myself this yr.

oh wells.. i'm sure something better will come up.

I'm changing..

and as much as how we don like changes,

joey and i are learning to embrace it.

JOey: 'its right in my face already.. how to deny it?'

yep. i agree...

Past few days i've been going out pretty late and stuff.

and... i just realised, i'm really quite ok without sleep.

ahhaha. i was still quite ok until today 3pm!.

and on wed.i only had 3 hrs of sleep.

schoooool is starting sooooon.

WO DE FUO! i don wannnnnn =(

So many thoughts goin through my head.

feel like clubbin again.

wanna FA XIE!

hahhaa. but i cant.

my dog has been giving me so much trouble cos he cries wen i'm not home at nite.

the whole house cannot sleep. =/

smelly dog. if not i might just wanna go again tonight. =x

Let me sing you a random songggg

i wan nobody nobody but YOU YOU! ~

hahahahahahaha

-peace out-

2009-04-09T00:23:00.000-07:00

i'm still feeling very lazy to blog or even do anythingggg..
last night's partying was.. partyful. haha.
yes. i'm brain dead.
zirca'z alcohol is soo strong my goodness!
3 cups and i was gone for the rest of the night.
i reached home at 6 plus. and woke up at 10 plus. had only3hrs of sleep?
my eyes feel sore.. but i cant sleep..
tummy feeling oozy and weirddddd.

And i think we dancers are damn good at opening circles..
heh. heh. its always us who opens the circles at the clubs!

why was i so shy?
i still don get it..
cos i usually am not...
maybe cos its like my first experience?
so weird rite?
cant help but keep asking myself questions.
so is this wat they call moving into a different phase of life?
fuunny and confusing all together...
someone telllll me wats going onnnnnn!

feeling lovey today..
the aftermath of partying..
ahha! wen you've had enough fun yourself, you'd wanna pass it on?
going for this easter play later..
with BEIBEI. she was kind enough to take joey's place..
COS JOEY WANTS TO SPEND TIME WITH JAMES.
SO JAMES IF YOU'RE READING THIS.. SHE ABANDON ME FOR YOU OKAY!
SHE LOVES YOU PLENTYYYYY!! =DDD
hahaha. so funny how couples do their things.

i'm still very lazy to blog bout concert.
haven really sit down and reflect..
i actually waiting for my air freeze photo! =)
next up is invert, and by next concert, 2000.
waoh rite? watch me. i'll do it!

I miss dance oh so much.
and i cant help but admit i'm sooo keen to pass on wat ive learnt to the new batch.
hopefully i'll get the opportunity to do tuesday classes..
my motivation for improvement and strengthening basics.

a very funnily confused TAN MEI CHIN is gonna end here.
wish me good luck in finding the answers! =)

2009-04-07T23:04:00.001-07:00

i'm soooo lazy to bloggggggggg.

gonna be a good girl and pack my room today..

party time tonight!

CANT STOP
WONT STOP! HAHAHA
=D

2009-04-05T03:34:00.000-07:00

Its done.
yesterday's performance totally blew the audience.
i knew... cos i felt it on stage.
its hard to explain..
and only wen you're there and then, you can understand...
i smiled. i cried so much. cos i knew it was a success...
i just knew.

Now that concert is done..
i'm not gonna say that i feel empty.
no way!
last 2 weeks of holiday..
and its gonna be full of fun fun FUN.
I have so many things to do on mind, so much enjoyment to redeem.
its only mine since i've accumulated all of it for the past 1 month.
and wat more the share it with frens and family.
i smiled once more.

Dad and Mom are out of town this weeeeek!
so its PARTY TIME! WOOOO.
if only i could drive the car!
they hid the key la... -.- neh nehhh...

ive got so much to recap and review on for this concert..
but i tot it would be more meaning full and interesting with pictures.
so.. till then..! =D

2009-03-29T03:07:00.000-07:00

4 more days to concert.
how are you guys feeling? =)

i'm fairly eggggggcited.
extremely anticipated..
and also kinda worried.

this year's one will be better than lasts'.
provided we can pull off the second half.
we know. to this point. audition items are all kinda crappy.
4 more days. Wat are you gonna make out of it?

I feel we as performers shouldnt be selfish.
if you cannot commit. its obvious, you wont be as good as the rest.
i mean. just compare the practice time..
for me,
i told Hazrul at the start of breaking..
if i cannot put up a freeze. i'll drop my solo.. get the bboys to replace me.
and wen gin didnt wan us to do bboy audition scene. i totally understood. so did kat steph and badd.
It all boils down to team work.. they work so hard!
and BECAUSE OF YOU. the whole fucking item will be pulled down.
why be so selfish?
if you can compare yourself to someone in the same position of you,
don forget to compare EVERYTHING with the person. EXAMPLE - TECHNIQUE.
well. you've only got yourself to prove now.
so don make us disappointed. and don pull your team down.
JIA YOU!

Its just a piece on my mind i have to say.
through so many performing experience,
we learn to compromise.
if ppl cannot do front roll, nvm. do side role. rite? =)

i'm gonna be changing my blog add..
its gonna be a diff name.. dozeoffnow. is so SEC SCH! hahahahhaa..
i've changed. =)

2009-03-25T09:26:00.000-07:00

i changed my song! =D
its OOOOOOLLLLLDDDDDD SCHOOL OKAY!.
hahaha..

this isnt the real post i typedd.
i suddenly felt that it was kinda inapproriate for blog.
hahaha.

still in doubts.
i hope it'll clear.
tts all i can say here!

-peace out-

2009-03-24T08:31:00.000-07:00

yes. my hand is like crap.
didnt expect for such a thing to happen..
but.. shit does happen i guess..
its okay... i'll heal by next week.. and i can start kissing the floors again.
as for now.. chill it. it'll heal..

I miss you.
we've not talked for like since last last sat.
i dunno wats goin on..
but i still want this friendship.
so tell me wat i should do..
cos i really dont know wats happening..
and i cant help but admit that i do think about us everytime i take the train home. =(
it hurts me..
this is all so crappy..
its bothering me..

i now it sounds silly thinking that i'm sad for being chucked at the back for almost the entire dance. cos we all know maybe its not.
but.. its not bout them.. but more bout me..
am i really tt lousy?
i cant help but doubt my dance.
wat have i got to do to prove myself?
i agree. i don shine on stage.
i feel like there's this invisible box around me.
why cant i get it off?
i need to break out of it.. yea?

i wanna take some fresh air..

2009-03-21T09:23:00.000-07:00

i don get it.
how can you still not full out when instructions were given that its a run down?
so when do you want to wait until before you all start giving your all?

everytime you practice your step.
don just stupidly do it over and over again.
dance smart!
everytime you redo your steps..
aim on something to improve on..
there are so many things!
-extend you lines
-bigger movements
-sharper
-more precise
-more expression
-what feel?
-correct alignment?
-how much more can you push froma step etc etc.

The problem with everyone now is that..
for every step that we're doing..
its all passing steps.
what happen to the accent, control, sharpness? tightness?
so many things to do..
so so little timee.
one more week left dudes.
what are you gonna make out of it?

still wanna mark steps?
people have the luxury of 6 months.
but we. TPDE. DONT.
so wake up. we need to pull it together.

PUSH. BREAKOUT OF YOUR STUPID COMFORT ZONE.
STOP BEING LAZY.
STOP THINKING YOU'RE GOOD ENOUGH.
COS WE ALL KNOW. SO FAR..
NOT A SINGLE ITEM CAN BE PRESENTED ON STAGE.

its just me scolding me.
and sharing my point of view.
if it has impacted you. good.
if not. than walk it out.

-peace out-

2009-03-20T07:50:00.000-07:00

my god. its friday again..
i cant believe how time is flying..

so im sitting in my chair now.. listening to my sis's complain.
its good at times like now.. i'm effing bored.

party night on wednesday was slightly different.
ok.. slightly was an understatement.
anyhow, hahaha. we had fun.
and thanks for the dare of having to get a guy buy us a drink.
steph and i were in such awkward situations! hahaha.
but fun la.. something new. =x
my popularity rate was also unusually high. weird.
and to think i was sticky and smelly and was in puma shoes.

Anywae. thursday was an off day from dance.
i basically spent as much time as i could with dad and mum.
i later accompanied mum to expo.
the Robinsons sale is going on..
its good stuff. cheap and nice!

2 weeks to concert.
sheesh. and i haven been able to fully absorb all the choreo i've learnt.
i'm also sure i'm not the only one..
ppl are constantly forgettin steps.
will gem4 be like gem 3 again?
you abit of mistake, i abit.. add together is a fucking hell load of SHIT.
so.. on my part. i'll clean up all my parts.
how bout you? =)

somehow things are changin..
erm.. it feels my world is rotating in a different direction..
sooo... i should go with it?
hmmm.. i dunno..

would you judge me i if told you wat happened?
is it right for you to judge?

CHECK THIS OUTTT
omgggggg

2009-03-19T02:35:00.000-07:00

TPDE presents to you an all new dimension to a popular disney favourite, CINDERELLA. This drama/comedy musical with a zest of sexiness will be all thats worth doing on the 3/4 of april. We tell our story through dance, a lil bit of acting plus songs composed specially for this production. Its really one of a kind! Tickets are going out at $15 and are already selling fast. Make your way down to Temasek Polytechnic Auditorium 1 to be awed by us! SEE YOU THERE!

2009-03-16T06:13:00.000-07:00

Yo peeps.

i stole these PEEKTURES so yall can see.

dope shit stuff. sick moves.

enjoy! =D

The 13 yr old air-flare boy. dope.

ouch! that rist is gonna hurt.

Wooo! go FUYO baby! i love you! hahahhahahahahaahhaha.

The man behing it all. =)

2009-03-14T09:27:00.000-07:00

HELLOOOO OHK!
i just came back from Radical Force jam.
DOPE DOPE SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT SHITTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT!

ITS LIKE OMFG.
seriously those who didnt go missed out.
the winners won hands down flat mann.
their combos were like bombs that set the entire zouk on fire.
and their individual freestyles were granites and machine guns!
from technic to power moves to musicallity...
it was in tip top standard.
i kinda tot that by the semi they would have already taken out their best moves already but i WAS WRONG!
the finals was like madnesss!!!!!!!!!!!
sorry! i sound so dramatic BUTTT
no.
word.
can.
describe.
it.
felt.
truely... i feel different now.
the impact it had on me...wow.. *jaw hangs loosely below the nose*

as for now...
my body is aching..
and my elbow hurts.
thank god, its friday..
i'm gonna get my full rest tmr.. and on mondayyyyyy
yes. mondayyyyyy...
its my TP test.
wish me good luck.

2009-03-11T11:35:00.000-07:00

EVERYONE READ THIS.

thank god its peace making time..
and i know i'm not in this alone..

so yes.
my heart is finally willing to put down all the unhappiness accumulated..

it hs been tiring.
and i miss the fun times we've had.
so lets call it to an end.

i've let go..
and i will shut out all other bad gossips.
from today on. its only SPREADING THE LOVE.
good night

2009-03-10T08:34:00.000-07:00

The world is a funny place.

as you get more exposed to it, you see so many things you choosed you rather not.

then again, you love the feeling of reality.

randomly talked about melissa today.

steph was saying how much she admired her for her straight forwardness.
true true. i really admire her too..

but diff ppl got diff personalities...

if you are one that values affiliation toooo much.

you wont be able to enjoy her freedom.

how nice.. if we can just not care bout wat ppl think sometimess..

makes us as individuals so much more lively and truthful.

i was down today during dance.

randomly my dance mates walked up to me with concern.

i really appreciate it =))

thanks.. its just that pampers in between my legs.

darn irritating. if a guy is willing to wear that and DANCE for one day i give you 50 bucks.

HAHAHAHAHAHAA.

breaking was fun. i'm really getting into it.

i'm gonna get my air freeze and elbow up ASAP.

the bboys are damn nice too.. they nv look down on us.

RB, HAZ, PUZHONG, LESLIE, KEVIN were all very very helpful and encouraging.

thanks BBOYS. =D

i miss clubbing and alcohol and cherries. HAHAHAH.

time to get some load off the shoulders mannnnnnnnnn.

PEEEEKTURES

totally missed out on clubbing nite with 2m02 laaaa!

they went zouk.

but i'll soon! RF jam coming. =)

i miss YOU for the whole of today..

mostly the fatty shoulder that will pop once in a while. ha!

we talked a lil last nite..

i wished i could tell you more! but i needed the sleep.

if only you could come for the production....

Anywae. just so you know.

GOSSIP KILLS YOUR CIRCLE OF FRENS.

so if you think you have many frens to spare. then gossip till your balls burst.

anywae. for guys to bitch. you're already ball -less.

and girls, we were ball less from the beginning.

2009-03-04T07:36:00.000-08:00

Today as we were watching the juniors train,
raaz commented about them...then,

MC: hey. if you see your team mate doing something wrong what do you do?
R: just tell them ah!
MC: but you know some people they cannot take it right? and they might even gossip bout you after..
R: well. to accept or not is up to them. its their problem. but you should tell them..
Pris: i've changed. i don really do that anymore...
R: me also. cos some ppl dont know me wat...and they will think that i'm very rude wat.
MC: yea... its not appreciated by all.

I realised the 3 of us had something in common.
we were the frank ones in tpde.
i know pris and raaz... they'll just say things straight.
and yep. i do that too..
its not like we want to be the bad sometimes.
its just that we have more courage to tell...
and we've been losing since then...
so?

-

Breaking has been awful..
obviously gin does not need us anywhere...
and yes. i feel we're in the way..
its not fair sometimes to think that you want us to breakthrough in 1 month.
some things.. you need more than one month.

And in all this sadness,
you'll also find who are really there for you..
and who are you effing fair weather frens.

i need a hugg.
its been only the 3rd day of training...

2009-02-26T09:29:00.000-08:00

I'm here to load of some thoughts after an 'eventful' day..

If you've noticed my msn nick...
it says 'i've learnt something'.
Well. yesterday's night of clubbing was okay i guess.
yes i had alil too much to drink but you know wat?
i was actually thinking alot in my own world.

I've just read serene's blog.
and i love to read her blog before i post..
makes me calm.. encourages me to just write wat i feel..
cos she always does.. =)

Yep. a club is a place full of temptations.
and though i have to admit its fun dancing while being tipsy,
its actaully dangerous if you don have frens you can count on.
hint hint*credits to SERENE and iris=)

This place of temptation.. its easy to get guys.
just give.. the green light! and they'll come crawling all over you.
green lights need not be in words, i must emphasize..
and anywae.. i would only say you are cheating on your partner if you do stuff intentionally..
so ask your devilish nature looming under your skin.
were you?

o0o! i was fed cherries again!
by the saaaaame bartender..
i'm suprised. he remembered me..
BUT. don worry. the cherry part ends there. HAHAHA..

I've been watching gossip girl the freaking entire day.
and i got upset while at it. yes.
retarded. i know... well,
a) i felt fat slumping infront of the computer.
b)i had the most horrible apetite and tummy squirls of the YEAR.
and most importantly..
c) how frens can plot against best frens in a way to gain personal satisfaction.
i mean.. even if getting back at them makes you feel good.. that joy only lasts for 30 secs? wtf?

Mum and Dad were hiding their eagerness to know bout my AHEM, 'first' clubbing nite.
i could see it in their eyes!! haaha
acting like it was no big deal at all! hahaha.
NO WAY! you guys love me too much.

i also, spent the day chatting with nick..
who was deligently helping he's dad at work!
its hard to believe. hahaha.. well..
nv stops amazing me huh?

Anywae to end this post..
i'll probably be laying off the clubs for some time.
no more cherry, no more dancing, and hell, no more liquor.
good bye rebel. arena, attica and cherry bartender for the next 2 months!

2009-02-21T08:44:00.000-08:00

I've been feeling eager bout driving these few days.

on fri, i completed my directional change and vertical parking, parallel parking.

i'm quite worried now, cos i have enough lessons to complete my course,

but i may have only 3 revisions.. =/

i've been very free lately, and hence have alot of time to think..

on fri i suddenly missed all my girls.

i text joey, joyce and serene =))

sometimes i dunno how i'd do without them...

exams end NOW! hurry!. i miss them.

once more a year has passed for me.

i still remember myself selecting marketing just a few months back.

and in my head, i was very much optimistic.

i remember entering the class on first day..

i first noticed suffian, then i sat with amanda. and... jenna! HAHAHA.

somehow later, i got to know suffian through amanda,

made frens with nam through suffi, and talked to sam becuase of nam.

hahahaha.. and we became a project grp. =))

intial stage of interaction was horribly weird for me.

first time i was outnumbers by guys.. not by 1, by 7!

when walking in school with them i was paraniod.

i bet ppl in TP would think imma butch, if not, imma flirt.

haha. slowly as we got accustomed to one another, we started forming cliques..

so my clique was very much my project grp.

i regretted a lil though, to not be able to interact more with the 3 other girls in my class.

The first event which brought all of us together was ccn day.

UNCLE SAM'S FRIED MARS BARS. hahaha. funny one.

the OILLL! eeewww!

then next we had our class outing at TM after mid sem.

watched NARNIA? hahaha.. i got to know tiff better than.. =)

During the hols i got to know jijie and jenna better. at osaka.

i also had loads of fun with daryl and wenjie at OSAKA UNIVERSAL STUDIOS!

their damn funny.

SIDE TRACK---

the sound of intensive training from 10am till late is SCARY.

i'm doubtful, if we can put up a good show.. =/

last year was 2 weeks of intensive and it ws draining..

i remember we only had 1 meal a day.. haha.

YAY! can lose weight. hahaha.

i cried like 3 times on the second day of the concert... hhhmm. no one knows.

i question.. will there be a process to look back on?

will it be like dreams? where we learn the choreography on the day on the performance?

will my juniors babies be able to take it?

is it fair for them?

will i cry agaiin.?=/

so much running through my head.. so much to worry.

we've not been given an ans for even the most basic question of the concert.

how can we not worry...

when can we stop doing this?

on a lighter note,

i went to club with serene, steph and kat on wed.

got all the fustration out. =)

met nick too. hahaha. =)

and kat's fren gave us a lfit home in he's sports car! cool stuff.

i was worried for kat cos she was the last one.

And i had to take care of serene who was awfully drunk and was saying my funny things.. HAHAHAHAHA! XD

towards the end there was open circle!!!

wtf. i couldnt go cos i was in a dress.!!

it was different somehow.. i was eager to go out.

usually in class i'd avoid. but tt one was diff... hhmmm...

nicky went out LA. so HAO LIAN.

anywae he won best dancer for hip hop 1 course. proud of you! =D

oo0o! this bar tender at arena was like flirting with me LAAAA..

THANKS for the compliment! and the CHERRY. hahahaa. xD

END OF SIDE TRACK----

Marketing yr 2 has ended now..

sam suddenly said ' ok. good bye 2M02!"

there was an awful silence..

yea.. its suddenly occurred to us it was probably our last time as a class.

The next few days...

i need to get on my feet and do my freakin resume and cover letters!

hurry before all the biz students start. hehe

KIA SU RITE!. oh well. business is like that.

you gotta FIGHT for it. agree?

i hope i can get serene's one.. =(

my holidays are gonna end soon!

yea. sucky..

since wen did dance becom such a chore?

wat process you want us to have?

*slap myself!*

CANNOT. must be optimistic.

its a concert. and its gonna be a good one.

Its been a long post!

SORRYYY! heh.

for awsomely bored and mugging ppl.. don worry.. SMILE!

2009-02-19T22:53:00.000-08:00

Heehhhh LOK oohhhhhh! =D

many pictures to load.

ps if it hangs your comp! hahaha.

here goes!

my class BBQ.

CAKE SMASHING!!!!

BEST PEEKTURE OF THE NIGHT!!!!!!

We played musical chairs. i stil cant believe it. HAAHA.

WENJIE is like VICIOUS AT MUSICAL CHAIRS!

SEE! he DON GIVE CHANCEEE!

3 MAN.

1 CHAIR.

WHO WILL BE THE SURVIVOR?

THE VICIOUS WENJIE.

It was a night of fun, laughter and joy.

Probably one of the best BBQ i've had. =)

We all dont wanna change classss =(((((

and i know hell lot of mkters out there are freaking jealous of us.

hahah. neh ni neh ni poo poo!
I LOVE MY CLASS.

2009-02-13T22:30:00.000-08:00

HAppy VALENTINEs'! =)

Im home today =)

with my aunt, mum, sis and sis's bf.

their all playing mahjong

hahaha! wat a way to 'date'.

Me, Jenna and JiJie!

MY beloved class! =D

Left 4 dead version! hahaha. guess who is who. =D

Mr Gary is like PRO. hahaha

Me and Amanda!

Regina Koh is our fav la. =)

Nicky and his SXD shirt! RICH ASS.

Spot Serene!

hahahaa.. WEN JIE'S nice ass. HAHA XD

dARYL retarded as ever!

Something awesome to smile about,

MY GROUP WILL BE REPRESENTING MARKETING TO SPEAK TO FOOD REPUBLIC!

HOW FREAKIN AWESOME IS THAT?!?!!??!!

it was further complimented when regina koh told us, she also wanted us to do AnP, but since we had IMP1, she'll give the chane to another grp. ahahhaa..

to know that we were the choices for AnP subject and CRM.. makes me really happy.. But becuase Joyce wu insisted on having our grp do her subject, the other subjects had to choose other grps. HAHAHA.

i'm so happy you know?

i really am.. =)

and i love my group alot.

we work hard and play hard. and achieve results. =)

it'll be an experience!

i'll share it here soon. =)

2M02 class party is gonna at my place!

we gonna have an awesome bbq!

i CANT WAIT! =D

2009-02-12T03:39:00.000-08:00

Hey peeps.
its been 2 days without worries. =)
i'm enjoying it.

Lets start with Celebration of learning?
its was fun. surprisingly.. hahaha..
i tot its be some boring shit.
but as markerters, we bring the fun!
haha..
I LOVE JENNA'S DSLR!!!
she was nice to let me play with it the whole day..
haha. pictures soon!

Anywae, that night after dance,
i talked a hell lot with fatty sheep.
the stuff he said made alot of sense...
Actually i realised py is not all irritating.
i guess he doesnt say this stuff to people because he cant.
in his passage of dance i guess its similar to mine? like we both like to tell ppl things straight.
and some ppl cannot handle that, so we always become the bad guys.
so, it has forced him to just shut up?
i can understand.. and my time will come soon..
wat for you try to help the person and get chided in return..
not worth the pain and effort.. not worth... =(
he also explained to me how much you level of skill plays a part.
its like people will always deny that they will not be angry wen a lousy students tell them tt they suck.
but its not true. we humans are like that, we just cannot accept!
mean. horrible.. but yea.. lets admit it.
i've had it before. =X
i slapped myself hard after that.
like wtf was i thinking.
people will not respect the things you say if you cannot perform better than them.

Than i talked to tim..
and the most educational sentence of the night from him was...
its doesnt mean that if you can accept ppl telling you straight in the face, means ppl can handle that too...
i figured we all work in different styles..
and we should respect that..
so now if you learn a person cannot take it we cannot force them too..
its just how you wouldnt want ppl to force you eat a cockroach!
eeeeeeeee.
i would hate that person too if they made me do tt!
i would hate them to the core..

i felt so much more enlightened.
less worried and more motivated...

Went to rebel to have fun with my girls last night.
its was cool.
i didnt have much alcohol.
mei qi was super nice la..
she took care of all of us. =)
thanksss... and the rest of us, we helped each other keep an eye too.
i would go with them again too.
they are safe clubbing frens. HAHAHA!

I was asked by py to think back wen i first started dancing.
and... the only thing i can remember from there was..
how fun it was.
with joyce and melise.. sometimes frankie..
we would go for studio wu classes.
how we always felt we needed to dance bettter.
how elation would overwhelm when we got picked out.
i feel jsut becuase i've hit a pass-able level as a dancer i slacked back.
and i got too worried over things which are not even at all impt.
so i guess now its back to training.
i'm not good in dance at all.
no where near good.
good= gin, ryan, kate, mazlan, ashley, an an, gi gi torres, jun..........................
i'm. no. where. near.

2009-02-07T21:04:00.000-08:00

hello hello hello!

i'm sill very refreshed and inspired by yesterday's FUYO INTER SCHOOL!

AND GUESS WAT?

TP WONNNN!!!!!!!

temasek me.. temasek you.. we are a teammmmmm.

hahaha. awesome stuff.

though i felt it was a waste nel, harris and hazrul didnt get to through to the semi.

justtt because. they had a girl. and and and.

irony is.. she helped them get to the finals..

but also because of her, the team couldnt win.

ahah. recruit me next time YO!

fuyo is dope shit too mann.

bbgirl I WILL BE!.

Anywae, i'm sick. =(

down with slight fever...

panadol is my survival pac now.

=( i had to pass the visiting with all my dance babies..

oh well. =(

Nvm then..

i'll just stay at home and study my a n p.

last paper later!!!!!

weeeeeeeeeeeeeee...

and after that its fun fun FUN!

2009-02-05T11:19:00.000-08:00

A RANDOM NOTE

many a times, i've been pointed at for being too honest.
say it in a nasty way, i'm insensitive to other's feelings.
but try to understand my side.
i am not the type who enjoys stabbing ppl or making them feel hurt.
talk about constructive critism!
i may not be the best at it..., but i'm trying. really.

wat is NOT constructive critism?

- It is intended to not help the reciepient
- It's primary uses include to hurt someone, shred them into peices, create guilt, destroy their self esteem and humiliate them.

Well, i need to stand up for myself on this one because intensions of such are non existent. Help me here.. Maybe... just maybe.... its was the opposite party who could not take critism.

How to recieve constructive critism?

- Recognize the value of such critisms. It will only improve you.
- Try to understand the perspective of the person offering the critism. Also known as role reversal.
- Acknowlegde critism that is focused on your behaviour.
- Listen actively before you begin to hate the person.
- Work hard to avoid becoming defensive.

Yay. looks like i'm prepared for my comskills test.

and yes. i finally got a chunk of deep buried stuff off my chest.
it took me a long while plus plenty of courage to type this.
cos i wouldnt want it to hurt anyone like how that post hurt me.
so just see it as general knowledge for future use.
i'm not pointing at anyone. i say againnnnnn....
i'm not pointing at anyone.

bye!

2009-02-04T07:59:00.000-08:00

I had my first waaking class today!!
fun la!
i waack you, you waack me.
seriously..
you need to be more aware of your space TAN MEI CHIN.
stop waacking ppl!!

Anywae, i wasted 69 bucks today.
so gay so gay so gay.
loser.
i shall not continue. -.-

On the lighter note, im really quite pleased with the tuesday class..
its kinda the first time me taking one big class with many ppl!!
though i wasnt my choreography, i put my heart and soul into making it nice.
as instructed by didi, just clean and standardize first.
i guess i felt naggy and i taught certain steps really slow..
i just didnt have theeeeee wat you call it? like..
experience on how to explain the steps?

but overall feedback was positively encouraging=)
i said before i wanna start teaching choreo and this could just be my first tiny step!
i wont give up and i'll work doubbly hard.

it was so suber uber duperly scary at the beginning.
pardon me all.
=)

Tmr is ftt AGAIN.
hahaha. pls don ffaaaaaiiiillllllllllllllllllll.
and i've marked out my driving schedule,
i am super women.
dance and driving.
i dunno how =/

Something on the sideline,
i realised that, its often the case people forget you, vice versa.
so i guess its ok.
just that now i know who's really there for me...
and who just says they'll be there for me.
its sad to think we've known each other soo long.
but i dont know you at all.
bye!

i'll enjoy myself with waacking instead.
WOOOOOOOOO =)

2009-02-02T23:56:00.000-08:00

This was an emo post.

didi and ah foong read it right after i blogged.
yes. infront of meeeee!
so pai sae..
hahaha

no more emomo.
no more for you all to read!
hahahha
BYE!

2009-01-28T08:27:00.001-08:00

Its been a day...

You know how is like when you often tell ppl to not do something,

and then you do it yourself?

and then you feel like a ultra loser?

well, i cabbed to cdc today.

cos i was late.

the feelin sucks.

loser loser loser. =/

I went to driving half awake, still tired from the previous nite,

and i think i kinda got my instructor into trouble..

there's a chance we are getting a saman. (fine)

i dunno.. i saw he got quite worried.

and i mounted curb like 2 times during my crank course.

so gay.

School was awesomely UNPRODUCTIVE
we met up for IM.. talked a lil..

and went for RM.

BUTTTT there was no rm. -.-

so we all waited for almost half hr outside the container class.

and she drove past us in her convertable.. -.-

sooooooo gay so gay so gay. zzz.

I went home and tried to nap..

but mum's inconsiderate noise and movements left me in a subconscious realm for 1hr.

tt makes you more tired you know?

so i finally dragged myself out of bed and went to do some studying.

tmr's CRM exam is kinda cranky.

its like. hello? still CNY you know?

and we're having a paper.

waaaat the hell.

Anywae, i met nick to study at starbucks for a while.

i saw he's sis.

haha! look like vmay not at all like him! bahaha.

i Had many thoughts of 'if i were a guy' today..

if i were a guy...

i would probably aim to be like the girls' fav guy. eg. zac efron.

HAHAH! funny. but yea mann. i think i can especially since i'd know girls to well..

and of cos i'd be a gentlemen, and also be dashing and handsome. HAHAHA.

call me a playboy. i dont mind. =p i'd change my girls like how they change their clothes! but trust me i'll still be mature and sane. hahaa..

being a buy is fun! you get to do many stuff girls cant do.. like... burping out loud and sitting with your legs wide open. =p winking at the girls and sending electric waves through the AIR! haha.

ok.. its getting retarded... i'd wanna be a guy in my next life. =)

Cousins have left SG yesterday..

i didnt feel as sad as i thought.. probably cos i know i'll be seeing them soon again.

But in this one month that they were here, i really really had alot of fun.. somehow they opened up my liveliness again. i feel more cheerful than usual...

with my cousins i can laugh and speak without fearing to be judged.

this is family.

and even wen they say stupid things i'd laugh along too. hahaha..

its just endless laughter..

and with sarah, we went to pubs did DEVIANT stuff. ahah and had heart to heart talks. =)

i really wonder how will things be like in the future..

Uncle from canada is leaving mr morning.

and that kinda marks the end of this new year i've been so looking forward to..

i'm happy and contented.

i love you guys =)

i love my family.

thank you Buddha for this blessing.

CHEESY PICTURE COMING

hahaha. okok. bye folks!

2009-01-26T09:04:00.000-08:00

GONG XI FA CAI!!

in hainanese : Goong Yi Wat Sai! =D

bahhahahhaaha..

today was good =)

errr.. we did the usual annual routine,

had breakie together, dresses up and went to uncle's place.

then after lunch and a little prayer, we headed to the eldest generation of my family's house.

as usual it was packed with all my dad's generation ppl and some of mine.

there were a total of 4 BABIES!!!!! tt forms the start of the next generation! =D

lucky was NOT very well behaved..

he kept barking at people.

but cannot blame him, cos they were huge and talked really loud.

it intimidates him.

Then home is was and i went to bring chester over.

we take care of him every year wen he's owners needs to go back to malaysia.

he's cute.. just a little toot. and not so good at tricks.

hahaha.

lucky was damn tired. he didnt even bother to play with chester.

Later dinner at ah ma's place and then i wne tot andreas house to join my dance babies.

gambles a little, laughed alot.

hahaha.

tmr's gonna be a long day..

MANY MANY ppl coming..

and both lunch and dinner is also on us.

we have 3 families coming at night!

woooooo!

it'll also be cousins and frens from aussie's last day tmr.

after dinner at my place, they'll go stright to airport.

oh well.

let's enjoy with the time left.

=))

2009-01-21T02:38:00.000-08:00

Phewwww..

i was so suffocated today.. it really wasnt funny.
i could see the stress in my groupies too.
and i knew by crm presentation we were all dead flat.
i swear.. if you guys ever have 2 presentations in one day, prepare ealier..

i met serene today..
i miss her sooooo much!
we didnt even get to celebrate her birthday cos she's got soo much work.=(
poor girll. she's sick. her voice sounded sore.
HUG HUG HUG SERENE LIM!

anddd.. i met bei bei yesterday..
i miss her also..
she bought economic chicken rice for us and we had dinner together.
hahahaa.. =))

everyone is so lost in the mist of projects submissions and tests.
i feel detatched from my lovesssss.
hurry come holidays..
then we can have time together. =)

Anywae, this song playing,
is from the show BEETHOVEN.. super old show.
but something i really love since the first time i've watched.
the plots are much purer and truthful..
watch it. its niceeee..

lucky boy boy is sick =/
tts why i'm blogging here in my garden..
cos he's lying on the grass.
and i just wanna accompany him here..
hope he'll be fine..
nelson's dog is sick too.. coincidence.
and he's so worried..
i guess most people cannot understand the amount of love you can share with a dog.
a dog is always home waiting for your return,
they become to happy and excited over the things you do..
and they stay by your side when you just want to be away from people..
they dont ask for much..
just a shelter, some food and to accept their loyalty.

Tts all for today..

i'm quite happy. =)

*beeemmss =)

2009-01-18T01:36:00.000-08:00

Hello.
its bloggin time! =)

past few days have been less hectic ( less doesnt mean not. haha)
with 2 projects down, life seems a little lighter. =)

Dance was fun shit on sat!
the new o sch is super small for the 70 of us?
but it was only for a while..
thank god gin plucked out the seniors to another room.
that room is kinda scary, cos its open to the public to see..
so pai sae!
and gin was funny enough to stand outside and pretend to be a passer-by.
YA RITE. we all faced her and danced.
hhahaha...

Anywae, she also taugh us the choreo 1 eight by 1 eight.
it sounded scary at first..
but wen we could do it,
we were all happyyyyyy!
don stress ba.. don waste your mind space on thinking how you cannot do it.

Anywae, chinese new year is just round the corner.
have i mentioned how happy i am this CNY?
if only sis was here..
but she's also happy la..
in ROME NOWW.. tsk!

Learning to Recieve
Quoted from John Gray

Setting limits and receiving are two very scary things for women. She is commonly afraid of receiving too much and then rejected, judged or abandoned. Rejection, abandonment and judgement are most painful because deep insider her unconscoius, she holds the belief that she is not worthy of recieving more. This feeling is probably formed and reinforced during her childhood times when she had to suppress her feelings, needs or wished.

A women is very vulnerable to the incorrect belief of not being worthy of love. If as a child she has witness abuse or have been abused, she is then even more vulnerable to finding worthiness of recieving love. These in the unconscious generates fear of needing love from others. A part of her imagines she will not be supported.

Becuase of this fear, she pushes away the support she needs. When a men receives the message that she does not trust him to fulfil her needs, he feels turned off. .................................. As such times, women assumes that having needs turns him off when in truth it was her hopelessness, desperation, and mistrust that has done so. .......................... Needing others puts her in a vulnerable position. Being ignored or disappointed hurts even more cos it affirms the incorrect belief that she is unworthy.

Women would give and give, but deep inside, they did not feel worthy of recieving. They hoped that by giving, they would become more worthy of recieivng. They thought that compulsive giving would solve the problem howevere, it only made them exhausted. Then through long gradual giving, they saw that others were worthy of receiving and they were too....... People will only give when you are ready to receive.

Something i've learnt and identified with recently..
i'm sharing it with you girls out there =)
take time off to think bout it! =D

2009-01-16T03:29:00.000-08:00

Pictures of the Family shoot is out!! =))

There were like 800 pictures all together.. haha

those are just some of my favourites =)

Anywae, Uncle from canada just reached home! =D

i'm really happy this CNY. everyone is back =)

Really looking forward!

gtg now!

2009-01-10T19:42:00.001-08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SERENE!

girl, i love you many much more. =)

we'll stick through yea?

thanks for always being there..

If i had one wish..

i would wish for Saturday to happen all over again.
it started well, ended sweet to the last bit.. =)

FINAALLLYYY. a good day in 2009.

Thanks to dance. I love you so much you know?

its a bitter sweet relationship we have.

you make me so happy and then you can make me so sad.

but nevertheless, i'll not let go.

i've been inspired. and i wanna step up to choreographing soon.

i think i have a new skill!

i know how to make smokey eyes in different colours!

hahahaha. so retarded rite.. oh thanks to my 2 guinea pigs who let me experiment on them.
hahaha. oh and my miricle make up 'eraser'. haha.

i need for colours! joyce's palette is the BOMB. so nice!

anywae, saturday's performance was good=D
higher satisfaction for me cos i had more negative emotions than usual.

i was actually feeling really scared before the show.

i had moths and houseflies in my TUMMY. major buzzing.

But when it was on stage.

i just totally forgot bout being scared.
it was a totally different feeling...

i guess tts why i'm happy.

This would probably be our last few performances..

sighhh..

our time is nearly up.
lets enjoy it. =)

Ok this part is funny.

Bimbo Roy was suppose to help us camwhore then he suggested he just continuos take 10 shots..

Here are the results...

Shot 1

Shot 2 (so blur! photographer lo..)

Shot 3 (was spent frantically running)

Shot 4 ( joyce and joey unintentionally showed their butt. i dunno wth serene is doind. haha!)

Shot5 ( finally. something decent. )

Shot 6 (HAAH!no comments..)

shot 7

Shot 8 ( from this picture joey gets lazy.. hahahaa. )

Shot 9 ( she's still sitting.)

Shot 10 ( joyce and serene UNINTENTIONALLY did the same action while i just recovered from a fall and joey meering changed from sit to stand. HAH.)

OKkkk. NOOoooo Mooooree.

it was hell funny.

Anywae, past few days have been hectic.

Project submissions are not fun.

I'm worn out and pushing my limits..

mid-sem tests are back as well... erm. results are less than desired.

This semester is flying past once more.

didnt we just start school not long ago?

2009-01-08T03:43:00.000-08:00

Hello..
its been sometime since i last blogged.
frankly speaking things have not been going well for me lately..
its been like that since the start of 2009.
but, i'll keep optimism on my side..
i dont believe that dwelling in self-pity will do any good.
and so i shall not.

Having said that, i've noticed slightest happy thing thats has been going on..
and thus have made it through the days without pulling a long face.
PatSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS on my back. =)

Todays performance is as usual SO-SO..
i dont know wen we'll ever give an impactful performance.
usually since its a school performance we often take things easy.
and we're always not given sufficient time.
i'm sick of that.
but whats the use wen i'm the only one feeling this way.
this are just personal thoughts which may not be exactly true,,
so my dearest dancemates do not misunderstand!!!!

i cant wait for gems 4.
i probably will not tkae up anymore performances in school till then..
i wanna train in my mountain.

Anywae school stuff are coming along not so good.
RM teacher PANG SEH us.
yes. PANG SEH, ABANDON, DITCH, LEFT us.
and wen we asked the new teacher if she could check if we're on the right track she said she doesnt mind.. but she's not the one marking the paper in the end..
so wat if she says the wrong thing. and so.. we asked is that @#$%^& discussed with her about any consultation stuff.
she said no. and she said the #$%^& probably wont want to see our entire report. the most we can do is highlight some stuff and email her.
i WILL COMPLAIN if she doesnt reply the emails.

i also got a freakin 79/100 for my assignment.
1 EFFING MARK AWAY FROM A!!!!!!!!!!!!
and no sympathy was shared.

I shall stop here today.
pray for us tat saturday will be a AWESOME show. =)
peace out.

2009-01-01T01:31:00.000-08:00

first day of 2009 SCREWED BY YOU DAD.
FCUKING THANKS.

i dropped the tears.

FCUK YOU.

bye.

2008-12-30T08:04:00.000-08:00

Hello all.
2008 may not be ending in a good way..
so many projects to complete so much to improve...
i don remember 2007 being so stressful =/

Anywaes, for me, 2008 is actually the worst year in my life so far..
but, i guess, it was also the year i learnt and changed so much..
i'm still in the process of changing and sorting out my identity..
so pardon me if i've done anything wrong to you in this years..

In 2008..
i was criticised of my leadership.
i was constantly chided for saying hurtful words.
i hurt a lot of my friends.
i lost my confidence.
i lost alot of money..
i often scrutinise ppl's bad points.
i couldnt do well for my GPA.
i didnt get TBG.
i didnt get JAM N HOP (march)
i had my walls surrounding my heart freeze still.
i did not love any guy (im serious)
i was scattered and pride-full
i was ego-istic
i made many ppl unhappy...
i probably cried more than i usually do in a year.

In 2008,
i had new friends i really cherish.
i was given good opportunities in dance.
i learnt so much about team work.
i pushed over my limits in dance.
i'm cleaner and have more character in dance.
i learnt from my dear friends things which i probably would nv have learnt on my own.
i understood that people have their differences.
i lowered my ego and pride.
i've become more flexible.
i learnt that working is not easy and treasure money more now.
i've opened my eyes to the world..

In 2009,
i will learn to foccus on people's positive points.
i will try to love.
i will sort out my identity.
i will love my friends more.
i will not stinch on sharing and giving.
i will continue to make ppl around me happy.
i will continue to work harder on dance and studies.
i will accept love.
i will be more forgiving and forgetting.
i will be a better person. =)

its been tough...
so it'll be better.. rite?

i hope so =)
2009 here i come.

2008-12-26T01:17:00.000-08:00

Yes. i spent my christmas eve being totured by these lil black fishes who hard sucked up any of my dead skin.

its ticklish beyond description.

omg.. i'll probably nv do that again.

hahahaa.

Christmas eve was fun cos we bought a 10 bucks DIY cake shop.

well.. which of cos ended up in turmoil.. it looked more like the ruins of an ancient building.

hahaha.. the 10 bucks toy didnt provide good glue and thats why things kept falling apart.

hahha! so funnily ridiculous..

And so we laughed and stacked the miniature bricks till 4am..

Christmas day was spent shopping at METRO EXPO SALE.

waaaaaaaaa. soooo many ppl!

the que to the cashier was crazy.

it was from one end of the exhibition hall to the other, and then you make a U turn to continue the line into the barricades. on my TIAN!

We spent a WHoooooPing 3 digit amount there.. =/

err... i bought mum this ARMINI CODE body cream. awesome stuff.

she loves it so much i could see it in her eyes.. its just 20 bucks anywae. HAHAH. so i got it for her. =)

Later that evening we had a christmas dinner at my uncles place.

my lil cousin kicked a big fuzz. made the atmosphere kinda up tensioned.

thank god my other cousins and i had the TV!! we could pretend we didnt see anything. HAHA.

And yesterday... i spent the ENTIRE DAY doing my A&P project.

done done. =))

Went to JOEY'S house to surprise her at 12! hahaha.

she's so happy. =)

i love it when she smiles and beeeemss!

Pictures soon! =)

2008-12-23T06:42:00.000-08:00

christmas shopping in TIRING!!!
i've started way tooooo last minute anywae...

Shopped around with my cousins today..
from peninsular to dhouby..
and we were at dhouby for freakin long!!!
dunno why we take up so much time there..
anywae, i've mostly settled my aunts and lil couz's prezzie.
but the rest ar NOT DONE.
die die die die die die die...
tmr we're meeting up already!

anywae, there's still time for more shopping tmr?
bahh.. i bought presents for my close friends too..
sorry its cheap stuff.. =/ broke mann. =(

i've received some presents already! =)
one from AH LEE LEE!
two from my both aunts, and one super unexpected one from a fren.

my gooooood fren alvin met up with him yesterday.
its been EFFING 2 YEARS since we last met.
he's pretty much the same but he says i look more mature now. haha.
AND SLIMMMER. *beems*
he's like super nice la.. i just old him i got a new nano, and the next thing i know,
he got me a nano 'condom' blue some more. =))
we drove to pick up some other olddddd frens.. KENNETH and XIAO JUN.
awww.. miss them too..
then we went to this super nice place at tanah mera.
next to the beach. super romantic la..
but there were like 5 of us.
but HEY. we're not the worse. there we 2 man on the next table.
HAHAHAHA.
its was a fun night. full of joy and laughter.. hmmm
happy happy. he's so nice la..

i feeeeeeel the christmas mannnn
kinda remember how some time ago my groupies used brandon's bag to blast chrsitmas song in biz school!
well guys. its here already!! so fast huh?
i was walking in orchard just now. soooo BEEEE-E-A-UTIFUL.
awww. i love the feeeling of christmas.
the love, the joy and the sharing =)

YEANYWAES... i'm gonna start wrapping whatever present i can wrap now.
tmr i have no idea how i'm gonna be passing all the gifts around.
oh dear.. =/

2008-12-21T23:23:00.000-08:00

Back from camp!
super tired..
drained and all..
but i can say camp was fulfilling.

we did many things we probably wont really have the chance to do!
so to those who didnt attend.. TOO BAD! hahahha..

Well, quite coincidentally, all the groups i was in won all the prizes that was available!
hahaha.. cool stuff!

we slept in the dance studio..
danced there, slept there. =))
but the floor seemed extremely cold hard and dirty.
i missed my bed and boster and bath robe. =(

i'll post up some pictures soon mann.

i love tpde!!! =D

ppsst! the theme for gems 4 is MTV!!!! watch out. we're coming on STRONG.

2008-12-16T04:48:00.000-08:00

I met nelson yesterday to session! =)

so i learnt to float, tried to learn to do a freeze from 6 steps, cleaned my top rock, and salsa step and 6 step. quite a load within 2 hr plus.

We were goin home when that guy wanted to eat DONUTS. awesomely FATTENING food.. AND i got dragged into commiting the sin. hahaha.. but thanx to the donut and 2 cups of bubble tea, we had 3 hrs of quality talk.

basically talked about life, relationships and personal preferences. o0o! and some insights on guy issues.. haha.. kinda started with.. do you think guys should always initiate? i've asked around quite a few ppl la.. funny thing was.. most of them said depends.. and wen i asked, ' so which kinda things shulds girls be the ones inititating?" manyy of them kinda took a loooooonnng time to ans. oh well. men are from mars and women are from venus!

i had my driving today! and I FREAKIN DROVE ON THE ROADDD!! omg. so FUN! hahaha. but a lil scary though... and i had this subconscious thought of ppl cursing and swearing behind me.. my instructor damn funny tooalso.. he kept scolding those ppl who tried to overtake me, and make my life difficult. hah! so nice la.. i like being protected. =) he's married and may be having a baby soon! he said he's gonna name her odesse? i dunno how to spell tt. it sounds like a car. haha!

i got this picture from Wan ting's blog. haahha. funny eh?

yea. fuck you.

i wish i could say that whenever i feel so.. but as we alllllllll know, we cant. =/

i Used to think strongly bout that way. (say wat you feel) but ever since poly, you realise that ppl do not accept such behaviour, nor would they conform to it. and thus, we all say good bye to this.

I've unintentionally hurt ppl many times with my words, and in return got hurt harder when they blow it all back at me in one breath. but then again, i only got myself to blame. I can say that i talk much less now. i wanna reduce chances of spitting knifes from my mouth accidentally, and in a nutshell, yes. i do feel afraid to say what i feel. Probably only the closet people would understand me. If not, the others would probably just be scolding me back for hurting them. To some point, avoiding such issues do save alot of trouble.

on a lighter note.....

My cousins are returning home toooooooooomorrow!!

i'm super EGGGGGGGGGCITED!

its BBEEEEEEEEEE-AWESOME.

hahaa. (i miss bolt. i might wanna watch it again.anyone in for it? hhahahaa =])

and my cousin who just left for HK is now MSN-ing me asking if i wanna get anything for myself.

i told him sweat pants for dance. then he went to gave me this wikipedia link to see if he's getting the correct idea. HAHAHAHAAH! funny funny.. anywae, they call it trackies there.. he's a great guy. will make a good boyfriend. GIRLS. he's 17 and going to be in singapore for 2 yrs. TIME IS RUNNING OUT! =)

okok. i MUST MUST MUST do at least half my IMP1 ij by tonight.

tata! =)

2008-12-13T22:57:00.000-08:00

hello!

i'm feeling supa happy today. =)

probably cos of last night.

I'M SHOCKED.

i didnt get lost ok!!!!!

suprising... seriously.

how was it that i could remember the way so well,

when we were playing and all during the previous night cycling,

and i cant even remember my stupid CRM notes given full attention?!

HAHA. still amazed.

my sis is like astounded.

HAHAH... xD

anyhow, we had a good time and butt freakin hurts.

oh oh. the sneaking home part was exciting too!!

thanks to my aunt and maid for helping us.

let me confess. i didnt bathe before i sleep cos there's only hot water downstairs,

and my granny would probably suspect if i had bathed like 7 am in the morning..

but. BUT... i got use towel to clean my entire body 2 times la... and abit of soap on legs and hands.

hhahaah.. i'm not THAT gross ok.. i had my difficulties getting to the shower.

HAHAHA..

i slept alllll the way until 1.30?

woke up, got scolded for sleeping till so late by granny.

and then i went to make noodles.

i'm really happy.

bonus happy was the text i recieved! =)

so sweet la.

thanks =)

Anywae, last latin class later..

i'm trying not to feel sad and stuff now.

i'll focus on the positive!

i can say I'VE FULLY COMPLETED BEGINNERS FOR LATIN!!!!

now i can move to advance beginner?

AWESOME =)

where to advance? i dunno. but we'll think of that later. =)

SERENE LIM THIS PART IS FOR YOU.

YOU. spoil my reputation cos i kena feature on your blog.

HAHAHAHA.

nvmmmmm.. wen hey gorgeous ppl ask me wat you're like i'L SAY....

you like the CYBER SEX.

BWAHAHAAHAAHH. MUUAAHHHAAHAHAH. BAHAHHAHA.

Oh. i better not forget.

FB production was COOOOL stuff.

nice stage lights! wats wrong with TP! AARRGH.

anywae, i loved their pop/lock, the chap teh concept.

the LAME was also funny shit! espeicailly this tall guy.

hahah! i couldnt take my eyes off him! so funny.

gemsss 4444444444444444.... nowwwwww

NOW NOW NOW NOW NOW NOW!

anywae kids, thats bout all for today.

i'm really happy.

share my happiness with me k?

poor janson probably would never wanna ride a bike for the next 5 yrs.. HAHA.

2008-12-12T06:05:00.000-08:00

YAAAAAYYYYYYYYYYY
it overrrrr!=)

i'm so relieved now..
finally, i can catch my breath for say 2 days?
hahaha..

i'll start my ijs on monday=)
my projecting will begin soon.
well. lets not talk about those!
RECESS TIME!

Today after the paper, sam miao miao and i went to have lunch.
then we went to watch BOLT.
awesome show.
freaking funny.. especially the hamster!
hahahhaaa.. i think we laughed pretty laughed.
it was kinda random watching it with 3 other ppl i dont really know..
they are.. rachel, adriel and marcus.
but. i know them now! =)

Now thaat exams are over i have so many things i wanna do..
i was thinking, i probably need to think of 2009 new year resolutions.
truth is. i cant even remember wat this yr's was.. haha!
well that means i need to pen it down somewhere..
Also, i wanna organise my life..
i've already bought my 2009 notebook.
and.. i also wanna look back and read up on my 2008 posts..

frankly, i feel 2008 is the toughest year of my life so far..
i learnt quite a fair bit la..
and i think i've changed.. good? bad? i dunno.. but i know i'm different.
but there also goo stuff to smile about and to hold on for years to come.

i'll talk more bout that some other day..
as for now...
how bout 8 things that you guys probably dont know bout me?

1. I don like hamsters.. and they are probably the only fury thing i dislike.
2. I would love to do overseas SIP and is waiting for the opportunity.. anyone interested?
3. I super cannot stand eating the fats beneath the chicken skin.
4. I don eat chicken feet cos i think they look like baby fingers. =S
5. I talk much less now as compared to the me in secondary school. hahahah!
6. I think guys who can play the piano are super sexy. =DD
7. I get paranoid very easily with lao ah peks around me.. HAHA. =x so shameless rite?
8. I wanna do a broadway production at least one time. its my life dream. i'll become a ghost if i dont. hahaha.

YEP. thats about all.
oh. i also found a colour i'm really fond of.
its TURQUOISE! =))
its gonna be my new baby from now.

Latin is ending soon.
this sunday...
hai...
wat should i do?
=/

tmr is FBODZ concert.
its gonna be freakin nice!!

i was sooo planning on goin to club or do some late night activities today.
cos mum is in Malacca, dad went to work, and exams are OVERR!
but everyone not free. =(
oh wells..
next time..

i'm on a shopping mood lately!
sis and i bought some stuff from FOREVER21 yesterday..
and i got more make up from E.L.F =)
i cant wait for all of them to come! =))
cousin got me my NANO tooo!!!!!!!!!! BLUEEEE!=))

okok. i'm ranting alot of crap here.
i WANNA DANCEEEEEE!

Fuzzy feeling is back..
i dont quite like it.. the whole suspense feeling.. =/
reply my messages you assholeeeeeee! haha.

2008-12-09T22:20:00.000-08:00

hello peeps

O SCH RECITAL IS DOPE SHIT!

i'm so motivated to dance now.

now now now now NNOOOWWWWWW..

i cant wait for FB concert and DANZATION.

i wannna daaancceeee =(((((((((((((((((((((

2008-12-07T23:34:00.000-08:00

Yea.

thats my new boyfriend.

his name is Blake. =)

isnt he's butt awesomely sexy?

oh. did i metion dad got me a new car?

with my face spray painted on it!!

o00o0oo0o..

hahhaa. this guy...

he loves me..

he permenantly wants me on him. ..

and i shouldnt forget Randy as well.

he was a sweet one. (:

yes. i'm bored of studying..

2008-12-05T21:27:00.001-08:00

We can be superheros if our mind allows us to..
Past week has been hectic like hell.
and i think i can become very blur and stupid sometimes.
is that the way i crack under pressure?

i handed in my RM ij LATE.
cos i tot it was 5 pm. but submission was at 12..
-.-
so gay..
feeling kinda screwed.
ouh well.
i can only blame myself.

Mum came home with lots of name cards? and ribbons?
a 100 of them..
my sis and i did the deco till 5 plus.
haiz...

Suddenly so many things happened in the past week.
its not very nice.
i don really like chasing after the world you know?
and sometimes i wish i had 36hrs in a day.
or maybe just more discipline to sit down and do my work.

i had a nightmare the other day..
dreamt that our government was using things we built to bomb ourselves.
like... a satellite dish. and rocket ship.
lee kuan yew spoke over some loud PA system saying all the best good luck. -.-
he was unhappy with the way humans were becoming.. and thus the attacks..
its was scary..
i concluded that the dream was a mixture of events that was happening around us.
the ingredients are: bangkok political issues + india bombings + 9pm show little nonya + AnP climate change project.
did i mention in the dream we suddenly had super powers?
like we can run in air.
hahaa!..
evolution of mankind in times of troubles..
it may happen..

Been thinking of my new year resolutions..
truth is... is cant even remember wat i ahd in mind for 2008.
looks like i gotta pen in done somewhere.
one of them is to decide on a course i wanna do and in which uni.
more to come!

as for now..
its back to studying..
oh mann...
bring the holidays closer!

2008-12-02T21:53:00.000-08:00

HELLO!

i took some time off my busy busy busy schedule to blog a lil.

firstly, here's why i have time to blog..

COS THE F#$%^&* RM TUTOR IS ON A HOLIDAY.

AND WE HAVE SUBMISSION THIS FRIDAY!!!

ON A FREAKIN HOLIDAY?!!?!??!

AND SHE CANCELLED TUTORIAL!!!

SUCK YOUR OWN BALLS MANNN....

WTFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF.

ok. i feel better.

i just hope she feels bad for being so irresponsible.

okokokok.

now to the goood stuff.

i've actually been postponing all my blog entries cos i just aint got the time to load so many pictures... so i'll just load one for every happy event which occurred recently..

and the most recent would be...

i had dinner with my sis cousin and he's aussie fren on monday.

i had a really great time. =))

spent alot too.

thankfully mum is subsidising it. heh. =P

Me and my apple martini

my koo koo cousin

we walked round almost the entire city hall district that night, then chilled at timbre.
awesome place. i'd love to go there again =)

the live singer was good. too good. =)

she sang me my favourite christmas song!!

and we had a good laugh teaching the aussie fren SINGLISH LESSONS 101.

he was spontaneous enough to embarrass himself for the sake of our enjoyment! haha..

last fri was my sec sch peer leader gathering last friday.

we talked quite abit.

and i'm happy to see all my frens looking good. =)

The OSAKA ppl also had a lunch get together..

DIM SUM WAS AWESOME.

and we had a good time laughing as well.

hahaha.

Latin on sunday was freakin good.

we finished the first highlight of the paso doble.

i think i make a great partner for mike! hahahaha.

we like to explore new things and try crazy stunts.

Sharon also made us a mockery by playing the music at -0.5 which is faster then original speed.

she kept laughing as we frantically stomped round the dance floor. haha. -.-

and.. yep.

thats all.

with so much fun happening,

i now have to catch up twice the amount others had already covered!

booohoooo!!! =(

but its ok.

i enjoyed myself soo much.

thanks friends. =)

2008-11-26T04:42:00.000-08:00

Aloe vera yorghurt tastes great!

its gonna be put on my list of favourite food!

i miss dance.

i wan latin, hip hop and... hip hop.

hahaha..

Ok.. i'm still a lil surprised i actually went for my peer leader reunion!
i'm usually not a fan of reunions cos you know...
you gotta look gooder then great and greater than best..
yea.
but it turned out fine..
we really had some nice chats infact. =)
talked about relationships, school stuff, and of cos... THE OLD TIMES..
haha.
it was fun seeing our teachers also..
the only teachers you can irritate without worrying that they'll mark you down!
hahahhaaha..

Besides that, the OSAKA ppl had a get together today!
we had DIM SUM BUFFET!
awesome stuff.
really worth the money too..
we had a really good time la..
laugh and laugh, eat and eat, laugh and eat..
hahahah..

i'm glad i went for both gatehrings today..
i'm usually quite afraid of disappointing meet ups.
but NAHHHH. both gaterings were far from disappointment.
its good! we should do this again. =))

Now that all the enjoyment is over,
i've gottta start grilling my brains.
- IMP1 DRAFT
-INT MARKETING DRAFT
-RM IJ
-COMSKILL DOCUMENT
all to be handed in in the next week
plus, studying for mid sem tests!!
oh dearrrrrrrrrrr...
the tot of it worrys me too much.

Now, i'm just friggin tiredd
and i wanna sleep.
dance pls chase away my blues tmr!

tata.

2008-11-24T08:59:00.000-08:00

I'm quite happy these few days.

Today's 2M02 was awesomely united.
we planned to boycott CRM tutorial and in the end did not and all went together..
hahaha.
We also reminisce the old songs from sec 2/3 while waiting for class to start..
hahaha.. so fun..
we blasted christmas songs with brandon's built-in speakers on his bag!
the sound is DOPE.
and yea. if you heard those christmas songs.. ITS US!! =D

Ever wondered like between you and a friend to how much is your friendship?
close? long-term? superficial? aqquaintances?
i've been thinking..
sometimes i wanna share some things with the person..
but dunno whether they wanna hear anot.
hahah..
thank god i have this expert advisor who seems to be able to start heart to heart talks with most types of ppl, her name is SERENE. hahaha..
i miss my girls too.. we ought to hang out next sat. we owe serene that!

The week started of good thanks to latin on sunday i guess...
finally we had class.
and to those who backed out. HA. HA. losers! it was damn fun. =D
i learnt both guys and girls part! **pat on the back!
it was funny how i anyhow throw iris around. hahaha...
i'm not that good a leader after all..
Sharon was really nice to help me practice my girls part wen the others had to go..
smiles**
i dont know why i get so easily happy when it comes to latin. *shrugs

I wish to be myself as much as i can..
who doesnt rite?
but well, occasionally here and there we forget who we are, especially wen we're trying to fit in?
so.. face it. if you dont fit in, then don force it... you wont be happy anywae.
and with that, i've plucked up my courage to be WHO I WANNA BE. =)

Well in this coming week, there's so much to catch up on.
i realised that i have 2 submissions next week!
and i also need to study for my BTT this thurs.
wish me good luck kay?

i need to sleep now.
goooooooood nites. =)

2008-11-20T00:20:00.000-08:00

And once more.. its overr...
=)
it was tiring..
much stressful than i expected.

i had fun doing it=)
enjoyed the dance floor like HELL.=D

It funny how we have the ability to talk and PERFORM at the same time now.
coooool rite.
on tuesday is was BADD. he made a step too early, and 2 ppl beside him were like . 'Badd..."
and the rest of us heard. it SO FUNNY! but we didnt show it out la.. just laughed so hard bout it after we got off stage!!!

then for JAM n HOP
during krump i set my eyes on one girl for a move.
she looked shocked. then she laughed, and i smiled back. hahhaa.. =))
So thrilling. joyce and i aslo talked during the dance. we complained about the flicker lights.
it made it so difficult to dance!. i felt so giddy. and joyce and i fell on one move.
AT THE SAME TIME. thank god! it was synchronised fall. hahaha.
and we both had the 'YES ITS A STEP' face on... phew. plus we were standing on the same side.
haha.. its fun..
thats why..
the 10 million never ending hrs of training for that 10mins on stage is worth it.

for now i wanna go back into my mountain and train. =)
who's in to train together??

i learnt quite a few stuff in this training..

erm, i should say this is one of the trainings we didnt had to do much last minute.

it is better i feel..

oh. my make up skills improved nehh...

thanks to youtube.

hahahahaaha.

i also learnt how and wen to criticise. no point doing it wen the person is not ready to accept.

true?

and also wen criticising, its always good to backup with a suggestion. doesnt make things so nasty..

and....

its time to go back to study tooo.

mid sems are in 2 weeks time!

i heard its gonna be tough. =/

I'm looking forward to FB and NRA's concert babehhh!!!!

its gonna be good. =)

I was walking home alone yesterday..

kinda thought about HSM.

ts soo.... fantasy huh?

it seems so perfect.

nice hair, nice babe, cool hobby, cool moves..

i wish.

its like.. once the music plays, things you cant do, also can do liao.

if only things really happened like that in real?

hahaha.. oh well.

i really wonder how disney does it sometimes..

they make such impossible things sooooo believable..

its really makes you drift into your perfect fairy land..

disney is awesome..

if i can, i would love to be in a cartoon, where everything seems so much more fun.

haha! not happy with you fren just blow up TNT in their face..

haaha... so funny. they their face black black. and in the second, their fine already.

no beared grudges, just do wat you wanna do, express wat you wanna show.

ohoh. this dog i saw on my home one dayy,

he smiled at me.

it made my day.

funny huh?

hahaha.. stop laughing. he really smiled at me.

GOOD NEWS! sis is coming back earlier then planned.

guess when?

TMR!!!

woooooooooooooooooooooooooooo.

Groupies and i went to food republic today.

it was fun..

and i got to know samuel and brandon better too.

3 of us had dinner together while the rest headed for their own activities.

talked alot.

on many different issues..

they told me lots bout their boy-school stuff.

hahaha.. thank god i'm a girl. =)

thank you brandon's fren for sending me home! in a merc!

i also had my VERY FISRT CARL'S JUNIOR meal.

shared with manda.

we also went shopping together while the guys went their way..

helped her look for a dress.

it kinda my first time realy shopping at zara and top shop.

expensive. i didnt buy anything. i wouldnt bare too..

samuel has a hidden talent.

he can make music by clapping his hands infront of his mouth.

brandon has a hidden talent.

hecan sing the ' lonely.... i'm mr lonely...' song in that pitch!

These stuff has been making me laugh so hard in the past week!

thanks for chasing my blues away though yall may not realise it.

oh. nick was BEAUTIFUL to buy my orange juice even wen it was out of his way..

Christmas is coming!!

i absolutely love christmas.

especially when its with someone you love.

anybody wanna date me?

NAHHHHHH.

i've got my cousins with me this year.
next year ok?
ahahahaha....

dance LATERR.
happy happy!
cant wait. =)

2008-11-15T23:15:00.001-08:00

Imgaine class is cancelled because there are only 3 out of the 5 can make it.
you are one of the 3,
and it happens 3 weeks in a row.
how would you feel?

i got no comments anymore.
i just think they suck.

TMR IS...
the first test of the semester.
i gotta do it well.
i need to pull up my gpa!!

i havent got the mood for anything lately..
i just wanna do nothing.
sit, stone, and give up.

SRY mann...
i got nothing happy to write about..
you can click the close button up there now if i'm spoiling your mood.
go away..

Jam n hop as usual is not very fruitful.
everyone has their own more impt commiments..
just pray we wont screew up.

its really tiring to mix the music sometimes.
everything i do, seems to be bad to someone.
yall can tell me that i shouldnt care wat others say,
but contradictingly some of you are the ones who say so much...
Why not try suggesting something next time instead of just criticising?
you know everytime yall criticise, i'm left there with no help, but just instructions to redo it.
yea.
say i'm sensitive or watever..
yall probabbly dont understand anywae.
i'm not saying that yall cannot feedback..
but feedback with more heart?
i dunoo..
give up.

my arm hurts.
its inside the joint.
i dunno wassup with it.
-.-

I hate it wen friends come to you wen they need you.
then wen you're not needed, you don exist.
its hard to constantly put up with this behaviour.
and its even harder if you've already put up with it for so long..
give up.

Losers are those who give up.
maybe i should let myself be a loser for this once.

i cant have that dance.
it doesnt seem to belong to me.
give up. give up. GIVE UP.

2008-11-14T08:46:00.000-08:00

Hello! back blogging...

lack of sleep has really made me cranky and stressed over nothing.

i apologise to those who have been victimised by my atrocious mood swings.. =/

i feel that i've lots of things to doo.

i need to sort out my life.

i need to stop and TAKE A BREATH.

suffocated.

its killing me insidee..

aarrghh.

thank god i find comfort in chatting with serene. =))

Its friday. once more..

it feels like yesterday was monday.

haiz. time speeds faster than the F1.

pls STOP!!!

i'm really on the brink of sanity..

SSTTTTOOOOOOOOOPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

LAst saturday we went to SP for their dance concert!

i would say it s good efffort put in. well done guys! =))

Their freakin huge auditorium.. (tp really kinda sucks)

THey really made my reminisce GEMS 3.

now i freakin cant wait for it!!
i remember..

how i hid in the toilet and cried to myself,

but also how much i miss having fun on stage, BEAT IT!

WEllllllll, it'll come soon, at the rate this world is spinning..

Thinking back, last night was really funny.

i scolded fuck and pointed countless middle fingers at my computer.

yar right. like it works!

hahaha..

haizz.

i neeed a CHILL PILL yo.

tired.

GOOD LUCK TO JOEY AND JUNWEI FOR FTL!!!! =D

Goodbye my almost lover..

Goodbye my hopeless dreams..

i'm tryin not to think about you

and cant you let me be...

so long my loveless moments.

my back is turned on you

should i known you bring me hurt ache.

almost lovers always do..

2008-11-09T09:12:00.000-08:00

IN class cam whoring!!

Stress symptoms kicked in today =/

i suddenly gorged on a hell lot of guilty pleasures..

haiz.. fatty fat fat i'll be once more.

Feelin so lost with my retail mng project now..

wat if we make a wasted trip tmr?

how do we make it fruitful?

are we on the right track?

Feeling worried for TPrawks.

i think we're gonna screw it up..

i mean.. seriously.. look at our current standard.

and we don even have full atttendance.

COMPLACENCY!

i'm i the only one worried?

I'm quite sad bout my freestyle..

i know i didnt do good.

and i feel bad, cos i know myself i've been procrastinating..

it takes courage to step out of your comfort zone..

you know?

Latin didnt happen again last sunday.

utterly sadd..

sometimes i feel god doesnt want me to progress in that dance.

and i'm so close to giving up.

as much as i feel things are goin against my will,

my other half also tells me that there's something i can do about.

wat can i do bout it? wat?

In the midst of all the happiness i have with my friends and families, i have such problems to worry about too.. so which do i wanna channel my focus on?

Some stuff my babies made for me!!

i enjoyed teaching you guys as much too =))

The place which made TP all so worth coming..

Pang yang said a hell lot of meaningfull stuff that day..

nv tot i'd hear such stuff coming from him. tsk! hahaha

well. its true.. and i'm happy my parents didnt spoil me soo much.

i need assurance, just like everyone else. and for me a simple ppraise would do the job.

unfornately, living in singapore, you don hear many good stuff.

girls like to comfort and sympathize with each other..

then within themselve, they manifest in all the sympathy and pity, and become too comfortable to move out of their comfort zone.

cos they'll feel, nvm, they understand me and agree i need time to change, i'll take it SLOW.

but then if we didnt feed on so much pity assurance, we'd probably be hitting rock bottom, and then, the only way will be to move UP.

assurance exist in many forms.

assurance from pity, assurance from positive reinforcement, assurance from love, assurance for achievements.

we tend to feed on assurance from pity. eg. ' huggs. you'll be fine one day. you're not bad at all.. you just need time' these type of assurance do help, but it doesnt last. its like an overnight drug.. cos the next thing you know, you'll be facing the same prob again and wen you have no courage to break through, you go back to the pity assurance. the cycle continues, it becomes like a drug. addictive and soothing.. you cant stop having it. and ppl wont stop giving you...

something i learnt over the weekend.

i wont procrastinate NO MORE!

pick up your courage stupid girl.

step out of your comfort zone.

NOW.

2008-11-04T00:22:00.000-08:00

Day 1.5 of refrainment from dance.
i dunno..
kinda miss dance,
yet at the same time enjoying the free time i get without dance.
but then i again, i miss dance...
baahhhhh.
watever.

I contemplated serious time today about going to school.
i'm on MC. and it was hot, and i was late for project meeting already.
i watched bus 5 go pass me..
still thinking..
in the end i decided to go.
SCH IS IMPT!

Have you ever seen a sunshine guy?
not meaning those hunks chillin at california beach la..
as in those ppl where you can really feel the happiness bursting out of them?

i saw my first today..
he first caught my attention when he gave up his seat for someone..
then as he alighted..
the way he walked... had a certain energy in him..
kinda "saw" butterfiles fluttering all over him, blue birds chirping..
then suddenly a bycycle almost bumped into him.
he held the shoulders of the cyclist and they both exchanged words of concern..
then he continued he's sunshine parade down the street.
hhaaha..
i felt a surge of happiness.
cool eh?

btw. the stop he alighted is just outside changi hospital.
probably you're thinking similar to me now.. =)

Today is granny BIRTHDAY!! =)
she's really funny..
she hinted for KFC.
welll.. maybe i'll get her a piece later=)

mission: refrainment from cold drinks failed today..
it too hot.
how can you not drink cold water when you're leaving in singapore?!?

i've been filling in all my calender again!
so many stuff to writee.
woo. i like.

okie. gotta help with the preperations.

Happy birthday popo!

you know, we all love you so so much.

even though you can really be a difficult person, somehow we just learn to forgive.

i guess it comes down to the word KINSHIP.

you taugh dad the correct principles of life, and dad taught me them.

you went through so much hardship to give dad who he is today and for that i am so grateful.

i know you're living bonus years in this world now, and i hope you'd enjoy every single bit of it.

its irritating when you have to constantly remind me to bathe and eat and stuff,

but i like it.. espeically since probably these words may not be heard anymore in a few yrs to come.

some times the thought of you leaving brings instant tears to my eyes.

and such, i've learnt to treasure you so much more when you're with us now.

enjoy your 80 something birthday=)

mei loves you!!!!! =D

2008-11-03T01:16:00.000-08:00

Today wasnt a good day to start a week.
i got some bad stuff from the doctors'.
oh well, i'm ok. i feel..

I wanna BLOG about last week.
i enjoyed sat the most!
DUH! its best to just enjoy life sometimes..

We watched the RECORDING!!
kinda freaky... and also made me extremely nausious.
not cos of the images, but cos the entire movie was like filmed with a handheld cam?
so everything was SUPER SHAKY.
i didnt enjoy the movie as much as i enjoyed the company of my frens!

of cos it was awesome funny how we screamed over not-so-scary stuff..
and i swear i don scream in cinemas. i jump in my chair at most.
SERENE TAN made me and bei scream like crazy...
there was one i had to take short breaths in between the screams.
HAHAHA.. it went like.. 'AAHH. AHHHH... AHHHH. AAH. AAHHHHHH..."
i don scream like tt on normal occasions. seriously..
so guys. continue to date me. i wont embarrasse you one..
HAHA.

Ok. i also watched HSM3 with iris!
super random.
we met at the bus stop. then both of us were planning to shop alone.
coincidental.
but wen we reached tm we decided to watch HSM.
thing was..
i was thinking of doing tt alone too.. same with iris..
haha!
its freakin drama la the show..
but i really liked the choreogrphy..
and i would also like to run my fingers through zac efron's haiR.
soooooooooo HOT!

sunDay was disappointing...
no latin! =(
i was a lil pissed off wen my fren wanted to postpone class just becos she herself couldnt make it.
like wat kinda reason is that?
i don get it?
i still don get it..
but in the end we cancelled.
cos 2 others couldnt.
AARRGHHH. i wanna imrpove fast.
but so many obstacles.. -.-

i wanna dress nicely..
where nice clothes.
but got no occasion to do so.
even going out also done in dance wear.. -.-
eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

My IRRITATING SISTER is coming back end of this month!!!!!!!
AND my COUSIN!!
freakin miss them =(
come home like NOW.

i feel scared.
like lost.
its time to get used to juggling dance and school again.
wat if it becomes like last sem..
last sem, all my grp mates got As for their subjects and even Z.
for marketing. your project probably will be your final grade.
and i got Bs.. in others words, my end sem test which was during suntec,
was badly done. =(
bye bye As...
i really wanted you. for mum and dad, for myself.
i'm gonna catch you this sem no matter wat.
sry dance.
sry..

On the lighter note, i think for the past week, i've been OVER ENJOYING!
HSM3, RECORDING, SP concert ticket, hair cut, food, food, more FOOD.
and there's more ahead.
i'll probably dedcut all that from my birthday ang bao.
i wanna go shopping again. heee.

Some times you just wanna be yourself.
but your peers disallow you to..
but its ok.
i always know who i am with my besties and my family.
thats why their soooo impt to me.

Yesterday i accompanied mum to joo chiat to get cloth.
after that we went to geylang to eat.
it was my idea cos i heard lots of good food there..
well, it became an educational trip.
after dinner mum drove around the area,
she showed me like where all the prostuition was located.
its easy to spot them.
just find the red laterns..
hmmm.. now i know.

kinda sad isnt it?
sell your body..
and the said thing is the men buying it..
don look a single bit like justin timberlake or brad pitt.
their fcuking gross and horny.
=(
they have my sympathy.
i really need to thank god for blessing me soo much.
good family, good food, good frens. wat more you want?
Buddhism teaching: contentment is the key to happiness.

2008-10-30T01:10:00.000-07:00

Its been a week for me.
exhuastion.
mental and emotional exhuastion..
i'm just so tired.

i was really looking forward to friday.
but i guess we're all tied up. so its gonna be home for me.=)
maybe it wont be a bad thing. i get to rest more.

Mel commented on my dance yesterday..
she say i look better now wen i dance..
i GLOW.
hahahahh! wat a way to describe..
well, i guess dropping so many performance wasnt the wrong choice then.
tts assuring. thanx =)

well, i do feel tt life is going slower now..
i breathe better and my cough is starting to get better.
rest.

I was suppose to do my song mixing now..
but well i cant.
cos wen i went to check my e mail
i had nothing!!!!
so with no song, no timeline mix wat?
hahaha....
ok la.. also good. i can go sleep =)

i hope the next few days will be happier.

who says a heart of metal cannot feel pain?
i think just takes longer tts all.
it like acid corrodes the doors slowly and then finally reaches the heart.
but while it seeps in, all you feel is anger.
thats my conclusion.

Today's client briefing was interesting..
DID YOU KNOW.. food republic, JCO, Din Tai Fung, toast bread are all under bread talk?
i bet the chair person is freakin rich!
i wanna be like tt someday.
or maybe my husband..
hahahaah!

School is really starting to catch up.
i aint dreading it yet... i kinda like it.

kk! meeting my HH3 later.
its time for me to sleep now.
GOOOOODD NITES!

2008-10-26T08:28:00.000-07:00

Hi! i'm back bloggin for the second time today!

hahha. i'm bored. and i actually have alot to say. =)

Firstly, PASO WAS AWESOMELY DOPE.
=) hope iris and beau enjoyed as much as me.
but for now, my back needs some rest. so soreeeeeee -.-

I watched the news today...
nothing but continuos strings of bad news..

i asked myself randomly the other day.

how would you picture this world in the far future... sayy yr 3000?
i somehow, could only see red skies and a devasted land,
with no living humans.. probably too hot for any to survive.

i believe the world has stages. just like how dinosaurs perished.
it'll happen to us too.
i hust hope for now, we can learn how to love the earth.
STOP WASTING PLASTIC.

i'm really feeling the effects of global warming and i'm sure you all do too.
dont you wish it can all stop?

Also on the news there were soo much food scandal stuff.
now in japan as well!
oh no.....

then it was the financial crisis part.
alot of singaporeans aint feeling it yet i guess..
we're just alarmed. tts all..

i wanna hear good stuff on the news..
soo much bad stuff is just too overwhelming.
i'll just turn it off.

Anywae....
i was flipping through all the pictures and i saw many pictures of my dog wen he was younger.
you can tell the difference. he looks diff now compared to last time.

this was when he first entered our lives..

this is probably he's FATEST point in life...

he loved to wear that shirt to sleep every night. no fail whenever we wanna put it on. =)

Every chinese new year i'll make him take funny shots. here are some...

Yea. every year he gets new clothes. just like us. =))

Probably eveyrone who comes to my place will not like this fella here, but tts only cos yall see the angry side of him. he's doing he's duty rite? hahahha.

funny thing is yall probably wont expect him to be very insecure. but he is extremely insecure.he cannot stand not following someone. and he chooses who to follow. primarily dad me and sis.he does not like mummy cos mummy is the most irritating master. HAHAHA.

This is him more recently..

That was taken yesterday..

hahaha. he still looks young actually. but he's really old now.

cant hear. cant really see.

but he can still EAT ALOT.

hahahahaha.

there's dance tmr.

gotta get some rest now.

LUCKY BOY BOY WILL SAY GOOD NITE TO YOU!

2008-10-25T22:46:00.000-07:00

woah.
first week of 2.2 flew past like that.
its really freaky some times...
to think i''ve done half my poly education.

i should say the first weeek was kinda fun.
i really missed my classmates. and funny lectures..

prolonged sickness helps you lose weight!
hahaha.
BUT. i wouldnt reccomend it.
god give me a new pair of lungs mann..
i pant so easily while dancing now. =/
it aint good at all...
i need to recover.

4 performances in 3 week?!?!?!
i dunno.

i wanna blog more about my osaka.
still waiting for thr pictures..

dad bought a new cam.
its kinda for me.
my god.... i feel damn bad.

dance was fun yesterday. =)
cos it was an an's class. ahhaha!
my calves hurt like shit now...
and my back get sore everytime i change my body position.
oh wells.
its the price you pay?

dad's been funny this few days...
i think he's trying the lighten up himself.
i told him don unlock the car door wen he's standing so far from the car.
wat if someone goes in and tries to steal things.
he said..
'then i lock him back in again lo!'

HAHAHHAHHAA.
wa lao. damn funny.

2008-10-22T10:30:00.000-07:00

its 1.30am and i still wanna blog. =)

i'm really happy today!
cos i went shopping!!!

thnks kat for the company..=)

i bought lots of stuff mann..
but i still spent less than 100.
we shopped at china townn.. wooohoo!
cheap stuff! i got....

-a dress
-2 necklace
-a bracelet
-2 belts ( self made! )
-hair oil essence ( the aunty gave me lots of small samples with it. )
-a scarf

i was also very tempted to try the DR. FISH therapy they had at ppl's park complex.
you know the one wear the fishes will eat your dead skin cells?
i was actually quite keen to try.
especially cos dancing has made my feet corse and hard.
but i scared pain!!
hahaha...
nvm.. next time!

i also wanna show off wat i got for my birthday!

- a gypsy skirt
- a bangle
-oil burner from the body shop
- green tea oil essence also from the body shop super nice! i tried it today.
-strawberry exfoliater also also from the body shop.
-an eye shadow kit
-3 paris of earrings from my maid.. ( so sweet rite)
-cards! ( all i like alot)
-a fancy mask. haha!
and cash from mum granny and aunty.

cant wait for dad to be home then we can celebrate my birthday with THE ICE CREAM CAKE.=P
and my new phone too.
=))

october rocks mann!

ok.
got sch tmr!
CHEERS!
GD NITE.

2008-10-20T07:54:00.000-07:00

day 1 of 2.2 wasnt that bad...
i was happy to see all my frens.
i've been going to sch everyday for the holidays and its really boring!
so... wat i'm trying to say is..

FRENS MAKE SCH A WHOLE LOT MORE FUN TO GO TO! =D

today was kinda a sad day for me?
cos i was suppose to get fired for my tuition officially.
but thanx to my frens in school..
and dance babies for the movie after school...
it got my mind occupied.
so wasnt too caught up with feeling sad. =)

sometimes wen you put your heart and effort into something,
you'd expect good returns. or to be appreciated at least.
i guess its different this time..
pampered girl.. sacked me cos i gave her 'too much' homework.
i'm not angry.. i'm just sad. cos i really commited to her.

bei said ' some times we shouldnt put too much of ourselves into other ppl's biz'
i guess i really understand it now.

i was on my way to her place and i was feeling lots of stuff.
but mostly just sadness?
i jay-walked, and almost fell into a deep drain.
i smiled. like... 'hey! i'm blessed! i didnt fall in. =)'
somehow tt incident turned my feelings around.
like i should be happy. cos they are at a loss? like which tutor will try so hard for her student?
hahahah! and showing them that i'm happy probably would twitch their nuerons and make em think more.
i knocked on her door and passed her the answer sheets, then i told her to study hard and walked away ( happily)
when i reached the bottom of the stairs a slight breeze blew past me but it felt goooood.
i suddenly felt to relieved and so free from exhaustion.
damn, i should have done this earlier! =D

i really grateful for my birthday this yr?
like.. i've always pictured my 18th birthday to be a splash. the party of the month! etc.
but truth is.. few days before my birthday..
i just felt nothing. i didnt feel excited. i wasnt even looking forward to it.even until the day before...wierd huh?.
but.. thanks to my dance babies once more.
they made it so fun... so much more then i ever wanted.
surprising me in my KITCHEN?!?! hahahhahahaa
and ganging up with my MUM?!?!? wat were yall thinking mann! HAHA!
my dad laughed soo hard wen i told him over the phone on sunday...
nelson asks me to tell mum she's dope.
she says thanks nel.
hahahahah!
thanks guys.
plus. all the wishes from frens frens frens.
just made me happier. =)

after they left. i went to mum for a huggg.

MC: eyy mummy. how does it feel carrying me like since the day i was born and like now?
mum: -didnt reply-
MC: feels big rite?
MUM: yar. you see la.. last time can carry within my chest. now your butt and lower half is like hanging out from my chair.
MC: hhaahahha..
MUM: but you'll always be my sweetie pie. =)
MC: yea. =)
MC: eyy.. can i go clubbing?
MUM: NO.
MC: why... i'm legal already!
MUM: no.
MC: wa.. fine.. i shall be childish then............eyyy. when can i go??
MUM: -no reply-

hahhaaha!