[Verse 1]
Can you tell me
How can one miss what she's never had
How could I reminisce when there is no past
How could I have memories of being happy with you boy
Could someone tell me how can this be
How could my mind pull up incidents
Recall dates and times that never happened
How could we celebrate a love that's to late
And how could I really mean the words I'm bout to say

I missed the times that we almost shared
I miss the love that was almost there
I miss the times that we use to kiss
At least in my dreams
Just let me take the time and reminisce
I miss the times that we never had
What happened to us we were almost there
Whoever said it's impossible to miss when you never had
Never almost had you


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|Friday, November 23, 2007

Today was fun =D

Although i know i totally ruined my reputation in the process. HAHA.

Some how i kept saying wrong stuff today.. Started of at POM tutorial... Teacher was talking bout the opportunities and threats section... then it came to the part about product subsitutes. she asked " wat is one very close substitute in the market?' MEichin shouted " coke and Pepsi!" some how everyone heard it as COCK n pepsi. AAAHHHHh! they were laughing none stop for super long. even my teacher! SOOOOOO EMBARRASSING. =( After lesson they used it to irritate me -.- .. damn i'm stcuk with this for the next few weeks already. hahahahaah

Later during project work my frens and i were doing about a budget accomodation. We Were writing bout our intro then i contributed a sentence. " we are cheap and affordable" HAHAHA. think about it again... sounds wrong rite? >.<>

It didnt end there... continueing with the project, we had to write the company's vision and mission. then there was one sentence " we provide extra services from the bottom of our hearts" i was like.. " doesnt that sound we are -making love-??" hahaha. my frens laughed. again.

damn mann... i said coke. i swear!


the garden in my heart.messed.
8:20 AM

|Wednesday, November 21, 2007

Mum came home from marketing.. and found out that some of the prawns were still alive! so we quickly took out the live ones and put them in a basin. Then My dog was amused by those grey swimming things. he started to play with them

HAHA! my dog is so cute rite. the way he plays with the prawn...

hahaha. silly dog...

the garden in my heart.messed.
12:35 AM

|Tuesday, November 20, 2007

today is tuesday...
time past so quickly...
i'm getting busier and busier as the day goes by..

monday was 'exciting'.
went to my mum's centre to help out in her annual gaduation ceremony. my sis and i were in charge of the audio and lightings..
There was this one kid.. he's diagnosed with adhd.( hyper active) he literally punced on me a few times la. -.- Some of the kids tried to get my attention. HAHA. shows tt i'm attractive. hahahaha.

lAter at night i had my guzheng exam..
my heart beat went like 500 per min. its was really scary cos wen my fren came back from the exam room she was telling her mistakes and how freaky pressuring it was inside. aaahH!!!!!! i was gonna like faint.
ok. so it was my turn..i went in... bowed then immediately looked at the guzheng... i screwed up a little.. play the same paragraph twice. -.- Made a few minor mistakes here and there...
dunnoe la. just hope i passed can already. =/

i currently drinking milk of a carton. haha shouldnt be doing tt cos i can feel my throat becoing rusty.. and i havent been able to breathe in peace for the past 48 hours.. but thankfully left abit. i think i can finish it. =)

Went friendster hopping just now..
i realised i have alot of ppl in friendster whom i don really regconise. =/
i gues they just added me so that their friends count can be bigger..
i miss some of my frens. and i miss those who almost become part of me.. but i guess life goes on.. look ahead. =)

i GAINED WEIGHT. aaaahhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! damn it damn it damn it damn it damn it.
i need to control my diet mann.. stupid fatty mei chin.

Anywae, this is my dance musical for the children's home. hope you guys will like it. =))

bleah. tired.

the garden in my heart.messed.
8:00 AM

|Saturday, November 17, 2007

Some things.. you just cant DIY. get it? =)


Today totally sucked.. i'm on the edge of my tolerance with my mum. i can burst into flames any time now if she makes me angry again..
First it was about the table i'm gonna get from my room.. i already know wat i want from ikea. but she just insist that its not nice.. must go katong shopping mall and see cos over there nicer... i already like the one at ike.. the measurement fits, its cheap (below 300 for 2 tables) and it has the colour and dimensions i'm looknig for... Just becos it doesnt suit her taste she keeps pressing on me to go see another place. then i say you buy for me la. then she say no you must chose... i chose for wat? in the end she also keep going against wat i want. wats the point rite. i really don have so much time and hence i'm already easily contented with the one at ikea. so ok. i go to make her happy.. then go there so dissapointing la. not a single one can fit the measurement. and she's over there saying that it can it can. aarrgh.. watever la.. your room or my room. and the price there not cheap lo. L shape tables at least 300 already.. then still need to add on one more table if not its too short.

Later at night i complained about going to help her in her sch rehearsal. first of all it doesnt really concern me. second of all i got 2 tutorials. and most importantly i got guzheng exam tt nite. i really not in the mood already lo. then i jsut complain abit she get so f#$%^&* pissed off. she slam every door and window in the house. f$%^& la. set a good example can? After that she come scold me. say she's very dissapointed... even her own daughter don want to help her do her concert. so embarrassing.. ERM. hello? embarrassing wat? if you don have the resources.. DON DO! And if i really not doing then i go apply LOA, convince my cp for wat? i jsut complain abit only lo... wa lao. you already ma fan ppl to skip sch and stuff, the person complain abit you jsut swallow rite? tts wat i'd do lo... but she's diff. cos when its her things its very very impt. she said its an honour for me to come help her. -ROLL EYES-

sry. i'm justing ranting here cos i'm gonna explode soon. aarrgh.... just ignore this post.

the garden in my heart.messed.
7:55 AM

|Tuesday, November 13, 2007

Its nice to have a super close fren. one whom you can relate everything to.. talk without worrying wat she'll think of you. Being super close to someone, there's no right or wrong... But you must consider how others will feel. I did some thinking and realised that it was really that your frens around you would feel neglected. its that they feel they are INVISIBLE. their presence is non existent. YEA.. if i created the aura i'll put in the effort to take out that aura... we all at least 16.. there's a level of maturity we need to have. =) (anywae i'm not saying in an angry or sacarstic tone... i'm just reasoning. =] )

My darling frens and i went to TM yesterday cos we had a 3hr break and there was freakin nothing to do in sch.. haha had lunch at pizza hut. YUM. and then we went cam whoring at toys'r' us.. stupid blogger cant let me post the picture now. something wrong. arrggh. next time ba. =)

i see some of my frens wearing clothes from MNG, top shop etc. yes, they are clssified as middle class only... i can afford them. i know... but i'm not buying them... in fact i'm super cheapo. i was quite confused with myself.. like i know of ppl who's parents arent earning as much but yet they are able to bring themselves to buy branded stuff. i know i can easily afford but i just don seem to do so though i know then branded goods usually have nicer design etc.
i found the answer.
My parents earn quite alot... but i don see them spending their money on those branded goods... they themselves don pamper themselves... wat rite do i have to pamper myself with branded goods... the money also not i earn one... the monet that they earn, they bu she de yong.. if i use for them very bad rite? yea.. i found my ans. my mind at peace now. =)

tired. tmr got tprawks.


the garden in my heart.messed.
11:49 PM

|Thursday, November 08, 2007

It was a rocky day...

but i'm glad everything is sorted out. i feel more bonded to you guys now... Only through conflicts we understand each other better... this is our growing stage. its where we make mistakes and get ticked off by our frens... then only we'll learn and we'll grow together...

We'll all have diferent priorities... wen working in a grp on must know tt. To one if dance is most impt, studies chui also nvm. To the other if he's studies cannot hit a good grade, he don have to think about dance already... For me i have my studies, dance, guzheng, parents and granny. Without any of them will be a lost part of me.As much as i wanna commit sometimes i cant. Same for every other ppl out there....So the next time you wanna scold the person about not being able to commit, maybe we should think a little deeper. be more mature. (for project work diff case. scold tt member all you want if he cant submit the draft on time. XD)

This song nice rite? its my latin song. we used it to dance rumba.. i seriously don understand wat it means. but if you ask me to interprete it. i'll guess its a love song... and the guy must be thinking why the girl has to go with this other guy who doesnt treat her well?? haha... too much drama shows. =X

Its sad to not do the performance we wanted to do this sat. Many obstacles. so many... If we were gonna do the performance and not enjoy it then there's no meaning anymore. joey's rite... don do for the sake of doing... i believe many other opportunies will come by..

and sry.. i know my last few post all havent been good ones... i'll be optimisstic from now on. =D

gd nite.
i love my dope gang. =)

the garden in my heart.messed.
9:40 AM

|Wednesday, November 07, 2007


Thats all i've got to say. don bother to tag me to cheer up. i will somehow... thanx anywae.

the garden in my heart.messed.
9:02 AM

|Friday, November 02, 2007

current mood: SAD!

soobbz. i going through the youth culture of 'EMOness'...
I've really started to fall in love with latin dance... however it just always seems that heaven goes against my will. Just wen i tot we could have a youth class for latin its looks like all of them don wanna go now. =( In that case we will have to be dancing with the lao pei pei again... not that their not good, but of cos we would prefer to dance with someone of our age. its sad.. i really tot we could have a youth class for latin.. =( =( =( mum and dad are also not supportive of my new interest. cos its at joo chiat. and its so late at night... =(

While others are having probs about their boy friends, i'm wondering why i don even have one. Everyone startnig to pair up one by one.. and i realise all the girls have a common characteristic... haha. blur, naive and vulnerable. oo. and petite.
so i guess tt is wat makes them attractive? (sry, don mean to say you don have other attractive points)
So do we all have to be that in order to get attached? haha.. then i guess i'm sinlle forever cos i seem to have almost all opp characteristics from those mentioned. bleah. fine lo! haha.

I haven't been doing my tutorials.. =( =( i vowed to do so but have failed. and its only the first week can? wa lao.... aarrggh.

my 'camp' yesterday nite was quite disastrous. sry to my dope gang. =( sry for making you guy waste your time and money... actually the music and environ ment was good.. just that there were sooooo few ppl! the guys wanna buah girls also don there lo. haha. everybody can see. diaoz... looks like have to go another time already. but the another time will be a long long time more...

tired.. bye bye.

the garden in my heart.messed.
7:23 AM