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Can you tell me
How can one miss what she's never had
How could I reminisce when there is no past
How could I have memories of being happy with you boy
Could someone tell me how can this be
How could my mind pull up incidents
Recall dates and times that never happened
How could we celebrate a love that's to late
And how could I really mean the words I'm bout to say

I missed the times that we almost shared
I miss the love that was almost there
I miss the times that we use to kiss
At least in my dreams
Just let me take the time and reminisce
I miss the times that we never had
What happened to us we were almost there
Whoever said it's impossible to miss when you never had
Never almost had you


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|Thursday, July 30, 2009


Reached school early today, to print out some of the bran lec notes that i don have.
so at the printers' i put in my thumbdrive and started printng.
first time, i over printed by a F$%^&* lot.
second time, i clicked once, but 4 came out..
i got worried..
so the 3rd set of notes i wanted to print i asked the lady for help..
she printed... and 4 fucking sets of notes came out again.
then later i said i nv say 4 sets... and she told me i must have set it to 4 sets.
in my mind i was like ' HELLO? you were to one who printed it??!?!'
so she said... let me show you again.
she did the same thing.
but then while it was printing she started fidgiting with the printing machine..
okay, so now only one set come out. LOL!
how the fuck you wan me to believe you didnt change the settings?!
aiya. heck la. screw this. i'll just pay.
so i paid for every thing...

Before presentation i realised i forgot to bring the script i prepared the night before.
SIAN. must write again.
presentation went okay.
mrs wu said out group is short-listed to present to the client.
but. im not keeping my hopes to high on her after wat happened last sem. =/

Alrighty.. so i had no mood to see MRS PAIN-IN-THE-ASS at theatre. SKIP!

I wont deny i wasnt baffled by your texts..
sat and the bus stop, thought about it.
on the bus home, thought about it.
waited for the next bus, thought about it.
walked home, thought about it.
while bathing, thought about it.

Im screwed big time cos i cant find the dvd to return.
and the book wan yi borrowed for me is overdue AS WELL! hooooray!

so tell me, when does my happy ending come?

pissed offff!!!

the garden in my heart.messed.
12:57 AM

|Sunday, July 26, 2009

i shall blog while waiting for your call.=)

my eyes are puffed and teary from all the yawning,
but i don mind=)

Went out with the dancers today..
it was a super random outing, i know..
but we had an awesome time! =D
im happy i initiated it=))
i hope yall enjoyed too..

My back hurts from today's back massage..
the uncle tried to massage my spine back into shape.
lol. can meh?!
now it feels sore... -.-

Anywae, the past week has been pretty eventful.
bad stuff is...

theatre presentation got screwed up big time!
i talked back at the teacher cos she's just so EFFING RUDE!
yes. zain got the question wrong, SHUUTTUP and give him a chance to explain.
lol. ( i suddenly feel so fortunate for my mkting groupies! yall are DA BEST)
i was boiling inside. and wen i finally got the chance to speak,
i left the entire crowd with a silent blanket. woops.
awkward, but thankfully it didnt last long.
im just happy i did my part of the presentation well.
during our individual comments, suprisingly she didnt chide me, but praised my presentation skills.
THANKS! but you're still a pain in the ass. =x

sis left too.
i'll definitely miss her...
one less company to crap with at home.
not like lucky can laugh at my jokes. -.-

good stuff....

WE have come to the end of this semester's projects!!!

*fireworks spam the skiess!*

Brand presentation was awesome.
we ran over by 6mins. but it was just too interesting, she couldnt bear to cut us off? =P
and she did mention we're gonna be short listed to present to ben and jerrys!
we lost ours last sem. i really want it bad this sem!

i've secured my internship!! =DD
YEESAAH! and the employer feedbacked to our lectures,
they said they're pretty impressed with meichin and amanda!
WEEEE! blessing in disguise?
screw saatchi! here i come H&K!! =)
and i have my lunch time buddy too!


i spent my saturday morning and afternoon giving back to the community!
how handsome is that! =D
scrubbed clean a freaking hell lots of croc shoes,
and played some big ass sorting/memory/creativity game with single-sided crocs.
and all would have been boring had my frens not been there.

my handsss are wrinkly from scrubbing these shoes,
from scrubbing these shoes for CROCS...
the children are haappy from getting these shoes,
from getting these shoes from CROCS...
lol. =D

yeps.tts about it.

anywae, phone call's not comin nemoreee!=(
poor boy... projects SUCK!

its alright, i suddenly feel i haven had a time for long thoughts in a long time.

life has been so hectice, i feel detached from my inner voice.

we were just talking about time for yourself the other day, and i said something which made so much sense..

if you don have enough time for yourself, eveything else may start to feel like a burden, and you'll start to push away all of them.

take for example an outing. somehow, you'll just have no feel to go.. it looks like JUST ANOTHER event, and you feel it'll be sian.. so you reject. but then, your other frens will be like having a shit load of fun.. just that you don see it happening to yourself. it applies to boyfrens too.. hahaha. too much of a boyfren makes you feel you don have time for your own, and you begin to find him irritating and you wanna push him away or not hang out with him... true? =)

talking about boyfrens... i really get turned off when couples live in their own world. its just unethical and not very gracious.. yea. i'll nv wanna lose my frens if i have a boyfren. afterall, they are the ones who you need if boyfren become jerkhole. hahaha.

to jump or not to jump?

i picture myself pacing up and down on the edge of a building.

below is just a depth of unknown, how long it goes?

maybe there's an enormous soft cotton candy at the pit,

but then wat if its a ground lined with curls of sharp thorns?

should i jump?

you shout from mid air, asking me to jump.

and i feel your stress.. but i cant decide. i ponder...

then again, wat if i don jump in time to catch up with you?...

wats gonna happen then?


i shout back' hey! im still here! hang in there... ppleaseee? =('


tireddd. sleeepy.

- peace out earthlings -

the garden in my heart.messed.
9:55 AM

|Wednesday, July 22, 2009

For my dearest cousin,

"The strongest principle of growth lies in the human choice."
George Eliot

"The true test of character is not how much we know how to do, but how we behave when we don't know what to do."
John Holt

"Character cannot be developed in ease and quiet. Only through experience of trial and suffering can the soul be strengthened, ambition inspired, and success achieved."
Helen Keller

For my aunty,

"Patience and perseverance have a magical effect before which difficulties disappear and obstacles vanish."
John Quincy Adams

For mummy,

“The Family is the Country of the heart. There is an angel in the Family who, by the mysterious influence of grace, of sweetness, and of love, renders the fulfilment of duties less wearisome, sorrows less bitter. The only pure joys unmixed with sadnes”
Giuseppe Mazzini quotes

For my beloved serene Lim,

"When one door of happiness closes, another opens; but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one which has opened for us."
Helen Keller

For myself,

Life is only worth living, if you can make the ppl around feel that way.

There's really nothing much i can do the salvage the situations.. but i hope this helps..=)


the garden in my heart.messed.
8:13 AM

|Sunday, July 19, 2009

Im disappointed.
i know its tough, but somehow my heart told me you're strong enough...
i just so miss the you last time,
strong and optimistic..
come back please?

i feel its my fault as well,
i cant help but feel the blame..
probably its because i didnt spend enough time with you...
apologised to your mum that day..
and she said ' its ok dear..'
i felt so raw and cut.
they must be feeling much worse..

So now with so much strain in the family
im really finding it dificult differentiate wats right from wrong.
and wats appropriate and not for me to say..
i wanna help, but the words just cant seem to come.
so i just spend so much time pondering over you.

grow up boy?
please? =/

the garden in my heart.messed.
11:12 AM

|Thursday, July 16, 2009

Its 6.30 in the morning!!!
Well, its all done now, and we've spent the last drop of our energy on being cranky and crazy infront of nam's lappy. it is FUUUNNEEHHH i tell you.
anywae, the boys are sleeping now,
gonna wake them up to print and submit the project later...

Projects are HELL and a PAIN in the shit hole.
but its really not all that bad with you, my groupies!!
one more project to go! lets pull through...

I suddenly feel so dependent on someone,
it feels weird.
and im rejecting this dependence.
wonder how i pulled through my tough times before without complaning and whining.
i liked that previous me... i like my independence. =)
and im gonna get it back. =)

Interview later..
oh dear, it haunts me.. =(
my previous was.. yea...
pray i get?
its actually singapore's top PR consultancy...
please please please don let down the teachers... =/

i can do it.
i've learnt my lesson, and therefore,
this time i'll shine.
hopefully amanda gets in too!
then SIP wont be lonely cos we'll be there for each other! =))

Im really exhausted.
but im not gonna sleep yet.
probably later...
lets watch sunrise together groupies. =)

the garden in my heart.messed.
3:30 PM

|Wednesday, July 15, 2009

With not much words to express,

im just happy for today. =)

the garden in my heart.messed.
10:51 AM

|Tuesday, July 14, 2009

i wish for the time, during night cycling, how roy tim badd nel didi, we faced away out from singapore and screamed our lungs out.
I want that now! i need itttt!!! =/

its been really taxing.
but anywae, i don wanna go dwell into all the stress,
look on the bright side, i realised how my frens made it all better in an instance.

On monday, i was in deep consideration of skipping dance to do project.
But in the end i decided to go for dance.
it was so funny how joyce and i kept forgetting steps everytime we looked at each other.
till now, it makes me laugh..

i was sad-
joey hugged me and spinned me around with her huge power popping arms! =D
joyce almost broke my ribcage with her massive crushing hug! =D
and THE phone call. heh. =))

i felt so much better after that.

I wish i could split myself into 5!
1 for sis/mum/dad.
1 for projects
1 for dance
1 serene LOVE
1 for myself
1 for anyone else who wantss meeee..... =)

woops! thats like 6 MEs... hahah.

lets hope things get better.

thank YOU. =)

the garden in my heart.messed.
8:13 AM

|Sunday, July 05, 2009

Its time i say goodbye to all the sad posts!!!

K la, the past week has really been tough on me.
but, look on the bright side,
i 've brave through it! =D

Now with jim beam over and done with,
its gonna be projects projects and more PROJECTS.
hello to brand, sales and services subject.
i don like you, but i know you love me..
so im gonna give you a chance to hang out with me for the next 2 weeks.
and after that, im gonna dump you. LOL.

Getting to know you~
getting to know more about you~
do yall remember that song? haha. =)

Im a happy girl now.
and i like it this way.
spread to love and joy.
sounds like christmas! =P

the garden in my heart.messed.
1:11 AM

|Friday, July 03, 2009

i wanna be a better dancer for myself.
i wanna be a better dancer for my team.
i wanna be a better dance for the audience.

Im even more determined to train harder now..
back to the mountains. =)

who's with me? =D

the garden in my heart.messed.
10:40 PM