[Verse 1]
Can you tell me
How can one miss what she's never had
How could I reminisce when there is no past
How could I have memories of being happy with you boy
Could someone tell me how can this be
How could my mind pull up incidents
Recall dates and times that never happened
How could we celebrate a love that's to late
And how could I really mean the words I'm bout to say

I missed the times that we almost shared
I miss the love that was almost there
I miss the times that we use to kiss
At least in my dreams
Just let me take the time and reminisce
I miss the times that we never had
What happened to us we were almost there
Whoever said it's impossible to miss when you never had
Never almost had you


Great Academic Scores
Better dancer


Sarah Goh

Melise Abian
Jing Yi

..:: SRJC::..
Yoke Meng

..::Temasek Poly::..
samantha DS
Joey <3
Jun Wei =)
Serene <3
Kathrene =)
Kai Wen =)


hosts:[x] [x]
designer: [x] [x]
font: [x] image: [x]

YWords Unsaid

Free shoutbox @ ShoutMix

150 px max width.

YThe Past

August 2006
September 2006
October 2006
December 2006
January 2007
February 2007
March 2007
April 2007
May 2007
June 2007
July 2007
August 2007
September 2007
October 2007
November 2007
December 2007
January 2008
February 2008
March 2008
April 2008
May 2008
June 2008
July 2008
August 2008
September 2008
October 2008
November 2008
December 2008
January 2009
February 2009
March 2009
April 2009
May 2009
June 2009
July 2009
August 2009


MySpace Playlist at


Zheng Professionals


events that happened
events going to happen

|Saturday, May 31, 2008

i woke up this morning and the first thing i did was go poo poo!
we ate till we exploded last nite at Gin's birthday celebration...
oh mann...
i feel guilty.
pictures will be up soon. =)

ANYWAE... pictures for gradustion ceremony are ready!

thatsss allll.=)

I have lots of stuff i wanna blog about.

but its kinda inapproriate..

i'll just have to keep it in lo...

Sometimes i wish i can be more stupid. more ignorant and more naive.

its better that way.

you can be happier...


you WILL be happier.

the garden in my heart.messed.
8:16 PM

|Monday, May 26, 2008

mine is like at boon lay alreADY...

there's ALOT more... haha

their kinda mean actually.. though its really funny. hahahaha...

the garden in my heart.messed.
2:22 AM

|Sunday, May 25, 2008

Life is harsh.
first you don make it into something you really want...
then you might get over it and think it ends there...
but then, you start to feel outcasted. you know that there are so many around just like you,
yet you still feel lonely and forgotten.
then you sit and wonder is it worth it...wen you know feeling so much will also not get you anywae better.
childish thoughts.

get out of my head!

i shall stop reading blogs to stop antognising my emotions.

the garden in my heart.messed.
10:06 PM

|Saturday, May 24, 2008


It was nice training together with the juniors... really brought back memories of wen we just started training under Gin. aww.. i sound OLD.

An An taught us.. we did basic bounce, grooving... haha i look stiff though. needa train in this aspect. the choreo was dope shit. the effect was damn nice especially wen we dance in a grp. i'm really excited for more.. BUT... she's not free for the next 2 weeks. so we're all gonna crash the juniors class. =) yay. i'm always happy wen we train under Gin... =))

tmr's a lazy day..
no latin cos melvin and sharon are preparing for some stuff.=(

oh! and ADIDAS is having a freaking-worth-to-go sale at EXPO!!!!!!!
go ppl! GO!! especially the guys... lots of stuff BELOW 50 BUCKS!
and they are real genuine adidas stuff...
tmr's the LAST DAY!

PPL are biased and judgemental..
its only human...
however, it really does get on ppl's nerves wen the favourtism is SO openly showed...
no one will dare to voice out though..=)
so... the solution is....
get to the GOOD side of the biasness.
if she's gonna be bias.. let her be bias towards you..
if she's gonna be unfair, let her be unfair to others. =)
RANDOM. but true yea?

i like lazy sundays..
feel like eating ice cream on waffle!!!


the garden in my heart.messed.
10:14 AM

|Thursday, May 22, 2008

something hit me today...
it just hit me...
you know i think alot rite..
i'm very very grateful tt i was given this thought:


it just hit me.. seriuosly... i'm still quite shocked.
i'm sure everyone has felt like a failure before...
especially wen we do not do well in things that we love...
so... if you feel you're a failure like how i feel sometimes..
lets take it as an opportunity for us to really improve.

the garden in my heart.messed.
7:52 AM

|Wednesday, May 21, 2008


my legs are giving way :(
oh wells, tts wat you have to pay for gettin opportunities to perform.

i learnt alot this performance..

i somehow realised how impt was it to control your energy output..
dance routines may drag up to 5mins... and usually, 30secs of dance in studio can leave us panting already... talk about 2.4km runs mann... tt one at least 10mins before you start to pant. this is like 30SECONDS!

i was very tired of dance becos of this perfformance.
but then jean told us, if you find something new to do/improve everytime you do the same routine again, yu'll NEVER get tired of it..
Nicole taught us how we should not stay in the comfort zone... we should explore other things we can do... yep.

then i also tried out alot on my expression..though they still feel its not convincing enough, i think i'll try harder expecially since i'm given a new chance. =)

talking bout new chance, the results for vibes6 are out=))
i'm in girls hip hop, opening item, and CHARACTER! whooooo.
happy with all of them (i really wanted reggae though..)

i'm super broke already la...
spent sooooooo much!
and i haven and wont be gettin my pay cos i wont be tutoring in june. -.-
left like only 1 lesson to pay day lo...

ryans' crazy kid choreo is really crazy.
i tried to hard tro control, i forgot to breathe...
so after that 28secs of choreo i'm desperately gulping for air..
damn! gotta stop tt.

i decided to go anywae... thanx to tim...
i was really scared tt i will not be able to cope with crazy kids perf and EXAM!
but then he said... we should all try to push ourselves to the maximum..
if you feel you can only study in this time then you must not. you need to learn how to use watever time you have to do things.
and hence, i've decided to take up this challenge..
i'm gonna do well in studies AND dance=)
thank tim!

havivng said tt, instead of going to rest after an OH SO TIRING day...
i'm gonna go do some FAOM and BOE.

the garden in my heart.messed.
7:40 AM

|Sunday, May 18, 2008

Sick ppl!!!

This is like dope shit... its breaking + pardadoz.

the garden in my heart.messed.
8:40 AM

|Saturday, May 17, 2008

and i indeed i've been very happy the whole day.. from the moment i woke up.
went shopping with joey today..
i or we, were fully willing to spend to make our day happy.. yep.
we had loads of fun..

we went to watch movie..
its called the accuracy of death..
it was meaningful i should say, plus the story line is unique.
we both agreed that ppl who wanna commit suicide should see the show. =)

There's was this girll..
she was super noticed cos she was having a FC! FASHION CRISIS!!!
she wore light green dress.
white auntie heels..
and carried a pink bunny bag.
somehow, we were very fated with her...
saw her like 3 times in suntec! faints...

moving on...

it was the highlight of the day..
we bought quite alot of stuffs.
mainly accessories..=))
i bought 2 fox tops a handphone strap and earrings...

dinner was sawsome..
i had tom yum chicken soup..
yum yum.. not bad. very shiok.=D

i'm HAPPY..
like waoh..
after so long!!!
pray tt i'll stay this way.. =)

the garden in my heart.messed.
8:59 AM

|Tuesday, May 13, 2008

we went through this piece for APEL last friday..
A message by George Carlin after his wife passed away...
The paradox of our time in history is that we have taller buildings but shorted tempers, wider freeways, but narrower view points. Wespend more, but have less, buy more, but enjoy less. -------more conveniences, but less time.--------- more experts, yet more problems, more medicine , but less wellness.
Do you start to feel how realistic all those are.. so many problems are caused by ourselves... sometimes i wonder why cant the world be more simple..
We've learned how to make a living, but not a life. We've added years to our life, not life to years. ------ We've conquered outer space, but not inner space. We've done larger things, but not better things..
We've cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul.----- We've learnt to rush but not to wait. We've build computers to produce soo much more, but we communicate less and less.
the entire essay id just brilliantly written... it describes almost every aspect in life, on how so much of the problems is just self created.. people rush too much, wait to little, get too tired, relax too little. its cold and lonely in the world...this is MY sentence....
the world has heated up, but has lost its warmth..
we should start enjoying the things in life.

the garden in my heart.messed.
9:54 AM

|Saturday, May 10, 2008


today was tpde's orientation..
i was a fake freshiee...
haha. my name was MEI SOK.
everytime i introduce myself ppl react with a split second of either shock, or laugh.
wa lao..
wat if someone's name is really mei sok?!
anywae. pls refrain from calling me tt... i don like the name.

being the fake freshie..
there are good and bad experiences...
good would be i got to know the juniors at tt level. ( it was kinda my main objective.. i didnt wan my newly upgraded statues to cos a barrier)
well. bad was quite alot. personally. not for them.
its really suprising...
i felt hurt. and suffocation...
it kinda felt like a verbal constipation throughout....
really tiring!! like cant breath...
the other things were the responds from the freshies.
they siad stuff like ' wa lao. i feel cheated' 'wa. very irritating eh. can the person just admit?'
very xing ku lo...
i tot i was the only one... till i asked bei bei..
then she said she already asked didi if can reveal us early cos she felt the same too... i was shocked. i really thought it was only me..
i'm still kinda taken aback tt these emotions would arise...
none of us expected it! haha..
we tot it'll be fun...
its so hard to be someone you're not..

the freshie's are good. some DOPE.
i see some with alot of potential...
hopefully most of them will stay. =)

he said' you neeed to surpass yourself. your enemy now id yourself'
i have to get rid of my ego...
even more scared now, since the freshies are in..
i cannot be seen as arrogant again.
i don wan tt to happen! =(
i must change!

i cleaned off my nail polish and realised i have a huge blood clot in my big toe.
and my last toes' nail 'dropped off'. its hard to explain...
itS sick!

good nite =)

the garden in my heart.messed.
9:40 AM

|Thursday, May 08, 2008

this is the 4th time i've visited blogger...
i have lots of things to say...
but i dont know how to put them yet..

becos i've been misunderstanded... so i've gotta be more careful with my words now..
do pardon me if i take like 3 mins to reply in a conversation k.
haha... my brain needs to process wats right and wats wrong.
i don wanna be mistaken as arrogant or insensitive again.. =(

i got my lappy today!! weeeee!
though its not the prettiest thing, but i trust tt it'll be good to me.
time to shop for a nice bag to carry it! =)

talking bout shopping, i wanna shop!!
i need some retail therapy.
i've been moody this few days.
esp wen night falls...

the world can really get so damn irritating sometimes.
ppl can get super annoying.

i finally got back my mp3!
damn.. i felt so bored and lost without it for the past 2 weeks. =(
but i glad its back now =))

There's grad performance training tmr...
i'm gonna work hard.
i wanna be the top of gin's list the next time she chooses ppl for a performance.
i envy those doing big groove.
make good use of the opportunity guys..
and to those who feel you arent as good as the rest, jia you!
you must must must prove to all of us, non chosen ppl you're worthy of tt place.
or else....
its gonna make us damn pissed!
but i'm serious... it will..

oh wells, bye bye TBG.
i wanna do vibes. hope tt i can be chosen to choreograph..

i keep ending my days sad!!! aarrgghh..


the garden in my heart.messed.
11:27 AM

|Sunday, May 04, 2008

Monday today..
no school! =)
i'm still suffering from the after effects of my latin class.
my back hurts...
i guess cos i constantly forced myself to stand upright, point toes, straight legs..
i'm not sad about it...=)
i just wanna improve on my latin now.
june is coming... in other words, competition is soon..
no partner.. =( ANYONE INTERESTED??
i have this urge to write a big poster then walk in TP..

ok.. thats lame.. i know.. -.-

A question suddenly hit me..

wat are toe nails and finger nails for??

finger nails > 1. painting!

>2. dig your nose (hahah!)

>3. Scratch yourself.

Toes nails >1. Painting!

>2.DANCE! ( imagine if you didnt have toes nails.. it'll hurt especially when you dance on your toes.. or drag your feet across the ground.)

> 3. erm.. actually i cant think of anything else.... you cant use your toes nails to dig your nose rite. haahha!... maybe royston hilton can! =X oops!

NExt issue!

i checked my google ad account and guess wat?

i have....









$0.21... =(

com'on ppl... we've gotta work harder before i can get my $100! me click k? click already then close also can. hahaha...=D

the garden in my heart.messed.
11:13 PM

|Friday, May 02, 2008

In the world.. everyone is insecure =)

I realised that many ppl wan power and status to minimize that insecurity...Hence, wen a board of directors are taking in new chair members, younger, fresher, they tend to upgrade themselves.. for example call themselves 'mentor something something' .. ppl can say.. you don need status to lead wat... but we all know its superficial.. we all need the extra back up to supress our insecurity and its perfrectly normal.. However, wouldnt it be better if the grp of older and more experinced grp can open their minds and except the new ones as part of them rather then still below them? Afterall, its all about team work rite? =)

Its damn funnny!

the garden in my heart.messed.
8:03 AM

|Thursday, May 01, 2008

i accomplised something today!
kat me and raaz re-did our tpde blog...
it rocks so much more now. =)
check it out --->

i read the new update on the blog!
o0o00o got vibes 6! =)
i remininsce the time we RHR had in vibes 5 =D
i wanna be the choreographer!!!
i've always wanted to choreo a piece and let ppl do it.
oh mann.. haiz. later i don get it again =(

there are 12 suzuki parked at my estate...
this guy is having some party...

my neighbour msged my dad.
' hey! suzuki show room at harvey close! interested to go?'
HAHAHAHAA! i laughed like mad!

the garden in my heart.messed.
9:01 AM