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Can you tell me
How can one miss what she's never had
How could I reminisce when there is no past
How could I have memories of being happy with you boy
Could someone tell me how can this be
How could my mind pull up incidents
Recall dates and times that never happened
How could we celebrate a love that's to late
And how could I really mean the words I'm bout to say

I missed the times that we almost shared
I miss the love that was almost there
I miss the times that we use to kiss
At least in my dreams
Just let me take the time and reminisce
I miss the times that we never had
What happened to us we were almost there
Whoever said it's impossible to miss when you never had
Never almost had you


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|Sunday, April 26, 2009

Monday afternoon and i have nothing better to do.
So here i am blogging about almost anything i can talk about.
If only i had cable tv.
then i can be a couch potatoe...
and learn stuff from national geographic or animal planet..

Realised something about myself...
erm, if i don trust someone, i hold back alot about myself..
and that also got me to understand something joey said some time ago..
' Because she's more open ma.. so guys tap into her easily..."
ohh... ok. now i understand.
dont you agree?
if you are more open with someone, the process of knowing each other speeds up.

random craving for char kway teow.

ok. yaa. back to being open...
being open requires you to not fear tt a person should know you too well before the time is ripe.
so i should classify my distrust in a form of fear,
that would lead to a result of holding back.
wen you close off the person to certain topic, the conversation ends there..
and time later, you both feel there's nothiing much to talk about.

wen actually there is. its whether you want to or not. =)
such a boring topic rite.

Ever did something or said something with intentions to uncover the opposite party's personality?
hahahaha.. i bet YES.
ever been on the receiving end wen you feel a certain phrase was put out to test your reaction?
so wat was your move?

i came across this CHEESY PICK UP LINE.
here it goes...
' For every pimple you have on your forehead, a man i thinking of you... See all those pimples you have? thats meeeee.... *wink wink*'



ok now is MONDAY NIGHT..
hahahhaa. yes.. i am taking quite some time to finish this entry...

We met our client just now..
they are pretty cool ppl i would say...
we'll see how it goes..

and fyi. it has not even started...
finding a good place is so tough! =(
bad economy.. bad times.. =/

i just finished watching MARLEY & ME...

You know, several times, i've woke up half way to put my hands on my dogs chest to see if he was still breathing...
and there was this once, i didnt feel anything..
i sat up and shoook him so hard so that he would move again..
and thank god he did..
he opened his eyes and starred straight into mine...
i let out a sigh of relieve and my heart began beat normally again..
Lucky is 12... its about his time..

After the show i ran to his bed, picked him up.
and hugged him so tight..
tears started falling again...
i'm so afraid of that day.. =(((

Its hard for others to understand how much you can love a dog.
And if i remember correctly, this isnt the first time i'm saying this here..
maybe only a handful of you would feel where im coming from...
i dunno. lucky is family.. =) and i love him so very much.

i shall end today's post here...
its almost 12 now...
goodbye readers. =)

the garden in my heart.messed.
9:03 PM

|Thursday, April 23, 2009

It thursday!
Week 1 of school flies past just like tt..
hhmm.. i dont know if i should be happy or sad?

This semester we're having 3 clients!!! omg!
NIKE. (weeeeeee!)
i personally feel the avis one is pretty out of place.
i mean cars don appeal to our age grp.
or maybe YOU ALL! cos i have my license! HAHAHAHA.
i'm enjoying the stunned faces on ppl now wen they now i have a driving license.
but i'm still on parents probation. so don envy me at all. -.-

------ and i didnt text yet.
not for the whole of today....
i'm actually ok with it.
take it slow. =)

Joycelyn Chew Jing Yi!
i have yet to update you.
hahahaha. SUNDAY SUNDAY.! =D

Anywae. today's performance was bad.
bad bad bad.
you dont have to tell me, i will know.
sad. and affected. tmr will be better.

Serene sent me a text today..
'My friend says one of he's friend likes you. A guy from engine. i dunno who. haha'

i said: he doesnt like me. he likes my face.

it just reminds me of the movie i just watched. HANDSOME SUIT.
ppl are so practical...
yes, i do agree the law of attraction plays a great role.
but i don feel its right to say you LIKE A PERSON wen you dont even know her?
wat you like about me?
my boobs? my eyes? watever it is, its everything EXCEPT MY PERSONALITY.
ok.. i should eat a chill pill. and not get to worked up.
just say she's hot la. hahahahahahahaa. =x

the garden in my heart.messed.
7:07 AM

|Saturday, April 18, 2009

HI! i'm finally back to blog.

hhahahaha. ive been so busy and so lazy...


the last 2 weeks of my holidays has been really fulfilling and full of emotions.

something which i will treasure very much.

and also because of that, i feel i've lived enough of the holidays,

and is im ready to go back to school.

hhmm.. where should i start?

Yesterday as JAM n HOP.

i remembered last yr, few incidents happen during this event which was really awful.

and also because of that, it was my goal to do this year's JAM n Hop.

However, i guess things changed. and even though i was given the opportunity to perform.

i chose to watch by the sidelines. i still dont know why,

but i was following wat my heart said. =) one of the few times i didnt use my brain in a decision.

Wednesday was a very fun and exciting day.

i was one fo the 2 guys and 3 girls chosen.

basically, we had loads of fun.

One of the organisers, KARINA. she's awesome.. very funny. haha

Aspire to fly!

i look kinda dellusional and in my own world here. HAHA.

The bus we performed on... The hardest stage i've experienced so far.

Shawn and Roland, 2 other organsiers.. THEY ARE ALL MARKETERS! like meeee!

This is one of the happiest performance done so far..

with my loved ones all beside me.. =))

its fun just all because of you all. =)

Experience gained was pretty dope.

to dance on a bus. with only a space of 50 cm, height of 2m? i couldnt even stretch my hand up stright.

with poles to swing around and a distance of less than 7cm with the audience!

hahha.i could sense the excitement in the audience. i know you wanna scream and shout! but its okay.. your image is more impt! =D
I'm in dead neeed of a shopping trip!!!
my closet has not been upgraded since last semester.. =(
i'll porbabbly be hitting bugis later...
Today is the last day of the holidays...
i'm glad that for the past 2 week it has been fulfilling and i can say tt im ready for school!

the garden in my heart.messed.
1:15 AM

|Saturday, April 11, 2009

shit. i look like crap..

We had night cycling!
will post pictures and stuff soon=)
Went back to school for a talk...
we kinda knew it was coming already.
and i'm glad it has happened...
as we grow as dancers, gin grows as an instructor?
so we should be there for each other..

my goodness. the though of me becoming an alumni next year is.....
tear jerkingg!!
will i even get to be an alumni?
as most of you all may know, my parents wanna send me abroad.
i cant imagine if i have to leave all these things behind..
so much i've went through and i may have to completely let go.
and my friendS? my loves? oh dear.... =(

I had several goals for dance this yr.
of which one is TBG, and it cannot be attained..
i didnt make it last yr.. was hoping to redeem myself this yr.
oh wells.. i'm sure something better will come up.

I'm changing..
and as much as how we don like changes,
joey and i are learning to embrace it.
JOey: 'its right in my face already.. how to deny it?'
yep. i agree...

Past few days i've been going out pretty late and stuff.
and... i just realised, i'm really quite ok without sleep.
ahhaha. i was still quite ok until today 3pm!.
and on wed.i only had 3 hrs of sleep.
schoooool is starting sooooon.
WO DE FUO! i don wannnnnn =(
So many thoughts goin through my head.
feel like clubbin again.
wanna FA XIE!
hahhaa. but i cant.
my dog has been giving me so much trouble cos he cries wen i'm not home at nite.
the whole house cannot sleep. =/
smelly dog. if not i might just wanna go again tonight. =x

Let me sing you a random songggg
i wan nobody nobody but YOU YOU! ~
-peace out-

the garden in my heart.messed.
5:25 AM

|Thursday, April 09, 2009

i'm still feeling very lazy to blog or even do anythingggg..
last night's partying was.. partyful. haha.
yes. i'm brain dead.
zirca'z alcohol is soo strong my goodness!
3 cups and i was gone for the rest of the night.
i reached home at 6 plus. and woke up at 10 plus. had only3hrs of sleep?
my eyes feel sore.. but i cant sleep..
tummy feeling oozy and weirddddd.

And i think we dancers are damn good at opening circles..
heh. heh. its always us who opens the circles at the clubs!

why was i so shy?
i still don get it..
cos i usually am not...
maybe cos its like my first experience?
so weird rite?
cant help but keep asking myself questions.
so is this wat they call moving into a different phase of life?
fuunny and confusing all together...
someone telllll me wats going onnnnnn!

feeling lovey today..
the aftermath of partying..
ahha! wen you've had enough fun yourself, you'd wanna pass it on?
going for this easter play later..
with BEIBEI. she was kind enough to take joey's place..
hahaha. so funny how couples do their things.

i'm still very lazy to blog bout concert.
haven really sit down and reflect..
i actually waiting for my air freeze photo! =)
next up is invert, and by next concert, 2000.
waoh rite? watch me. i'll do it!

I miss dance oh so much.
and i cant help but admit i'm sooo keen to pass on wat ive learnt to the new batch.
hopefully i'll get the opportunity to do tuesday classes..
my motivation for improvement and strengthening basics.

a very funnily confused TAN MEI CHIN is gonna end here.
wish me good luck in finding the answers! =)

the garden in my heart.messed.
12:23 AM

|Tuesday, April 07, 2009

i'm soooo lazy to bloggggggggg.

gonna be a good girl and pack my room today..

party time tonight!


the garden in my heart.messed.
11:04 PM

|Sunday, April 05, 2009

Its done.
yesterday's performance totally blew the audience.
i knew... cos i felt it on stage.
its hard to explain..
and only wen you're there and then, you can understand...
i smiled. i cried so much. cos i knew it was a success...
i just knew.

Now that concert is done..
i'm not gonna say that i feel empty.
no way!
last 2 weeks of holiday..
and its gonna be full of fun fun FUN.
I have so many things to do on mind, so much enjoyment to redeem.
its only mine since i've accumulated all of it for the past 1 month.
and wat more the share it with frens and family.
i smiled once more.

Dad and Mom are out of town this weeeeek!
if only i could drive the car!
they hid the key la... -.- neh nehhh...

ive got so much to recap and review on for this concert..
but i tot it would be more meaning full and interesting with pictures.
so.. till then..! =D

the garden in my heart.messed.
3:34 AM