[Verse 1]
Can you tell me
How can one miss what she's never had
How could I reminisce when there is no past
How could I have memories of being happy with you boy
Could someone tell me how can this be
How could my mind pull up incidents
Recall dates and times that never happened
How could we celebrate a love that's to late
And how could I really mean the words I'm bout to say

I missed the times that we almost shared
I miss the love that was almost there
I miss the times that we use to kiss
At least in my dreams
Just let me take the time and reminisce
I miss the times that we never had
What happened to us we were almost there
Whoever said it's impossible to miss when you never had
Never almost had you


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|Monday, March 31, 2008


WHere do i start?
hmmm. okok. from this song.
we went to sheila's intermediate class yesterday. Joey and i have decided we should up the level and start going for intermediate classes. if not we wont improve.
Anywae, about sheila's class. suprisingly, we could catch the steps! yea baby!. just the the choreo was damn fast. she fully utilise every single beat in the song. i ended up cutting short all her steps..haha. fun fun! very shiok. andreas was rite. we need to go for difficult classes then you'll feel the challenge and the motivation. =)
ALRIGHT. its set. wen i come back from hols. i'll be going for intermediate classes on mon and bboy on sat. =)

we went for night cycling. DOPE BABEH...
it was very chiong. our main motive was to go as far as possible. anddd..
we went all the way to clark quey. could actually go to china town. but we decided to go have macs.

There was a big HOOHAA at subway. wats fucking wrong with all their service attitude? Its a damn long story... but here's the summary.
the worker shouted at us, pointed her finger at us and stereotyped us. the manager defended her worker. said she's had a bad day. HELLO?! sSO WAT? you think we fucking care? itf they hadnt had the word subway above their heads. i tell you... the stall would have wrapped up ages ago! i'm gonna write into the straits times, today and storm! damn you. DIE DIE DIE! if only we took down the video! i'll send it to storm and maybe i'll win a trip for 2 to bali!

sentosa was hell lot of fun... i got a souvenier from them on my knee..
haha stupid dog and bone game. SO LAME! hahahaha.
it was really good. spend time purely on relaxing and playing...
it was worth well needed and worth while.


needa go pack my bag for aussie trip tmr! WEEEEEEEEEE. =)

the garden in my heart.messed.
11:37 PM

|Wednesday, March 26, 2008

today was chill day.
went to sch at 3 for main comm interview..
i have no idea whether i'll make it through or not. haha.
later kat and i went to find blink blinks.
in the end we shopped for other stuff.
haha. i'm gonna get this pencil case... its a bus. dmn cute =)

i got my pay today!

i decided to pamper myself a lil.
went to watsons to help my mum get her face mask,
then i bought this eye shadow from splash.

walked past face shop and i bought 2 nail polish.

then i went to get some nice snacks for granny or anyone at home to eat tmr morning. =)

i just finished editng a song..
i'm feeling kinda excited for tmr already...
hope it'll be good.

the garden in my heart.messed.
8:55 AM

|Tuesday, March 25, 2008


there's so many things in life i wanna do..
but time only limits me the that few.
we have to compromise...
but wat if the thing that you dont want to do most is not for you to make the decision to do anot.

i tried to talk to them. but they didnt try to listen to me.
i know and i respect that watever they say means something, or maybe something we have yet to know/ experience... afterall, they've lived much longer then me.
but still.... you should have at least tried to listen.

nobody knows.
i guess only the song knows me best...

i dont know whether to be happy or sad about this.
Melvin (latin instructor, the guy from the dancefloor) walked over to me and said" Mei Chin. i think you should really consider finding a partner and compete in dancesports.. represent TP. "

i was elated. overjoyed. could harldy supress my happiness.
but the next thing that struck me was, you think you have the time to do this?
you think mum and dad will allow? do you have the $$?

so tell me.
should i be happy or sad?

Today we went to regent hotel to rehearse for the TP d&d performance.
i was PISSED OFF by the managment...
wa lao.. nv give us time to mark stage. then we went on. confirm cock up one ma.. so we all very easy going about it. we laughed off our mistakes.
then you came and told us off.. say we should be more serious.
how can we laugh on stage..
i ask you.
use your brain can?
haha... even my mum run childcare one also know must mark stage first la...
damn funny...

tired. confused. anything but happy.

the garden in my heart.messed.
10:05 AM

|Saturday, March 22, 2008

exactly one week before this date we had our concert.

i miss you guys already... =(

how i wish we could do it again!!!

anywae. pictues not ready yet!

here's the video (for those who didnt attend maybe cos you were busy? 15 dollars to ex? tp dance no kick? no time? ahh.. POOR THING! you missed out on ALOT! too bad. haha =x)

Special thanx to jasmine who took the effort to film down the entire thing and post it on youtube.
thanx thanx!

the garden in my heart.messed.
9:40 AM

|Monday, March 17, 2008

concert's over..
So many emotions running through me now.
i feel weird, lost and empty cos there's no more training..
i feel happy, inspired and motivated cos we did well for concert.
and i feel sad, missing my dance babies and still SAD cos its over...
Oh wells.
so many things to share with you guys.
so many things i've learnt, seen and been made aware of.

i guess being a tpde member i know that technique wise, we arent tt good.
there are stll ppl who cant do the basics..
control technique is greatly lacking...
and most importantly, some ppl havent got the drive to self improve on their techniques and awareness.
all those, we've seriously gotta improve if we wanna be better then others.

good stuff. i feel we created a big impact, and heard we've inspired many young ones to take up dance. there are also those who enjoyed the energy level we were able to bring out and also the ability we have to potray diff characters. thats' wat which makes tpde special and diff from other dance crews.

Personally, i'm happy with my performance. i made a break through! *weeee~ claps claps* i was able to potray the character in each dance. my face has now become another dance step in choreographies and routines... its like you play a computer game, and you have unlocked a tool you can use to empower your moves. YEA! lets see.. many of my dance babies praised me... joyce, joey, andreas, keith, tim, gen etc. RYAN pointed me out as those few with strong facial expressions. GIN said " i love your expression. kill them with beat it mei chin!" WWOOAAHHH. both ryan and gin leh!!!!!
On top of that i was able to enjoy while i perform. that i feel was most important of all. There's still room for improvement.

Through this performance i was able to learn the important stage ethics. like wen i forget my steps, within 0.03secs i'm able to snap myself out of the shock and move on. bringing in the confidence will definitely help. knowing wat the ppl beside you are doing and their movements will also save you alot of trouble. INITIATIVE. don need to wait for Gin to shift you to your formation, just follow the one you're mirroring. don wait for ppl to assign you jobs. go and do them. it makes things alot eaiser for the leaders.. AND (this i must say) you don need to be the best dancer to correct someone. but you AT LEAST NEED TO HAVE THE BASICS RIGHT! hahahah...
We went through much joy and pain. I really wanna thank my frens who have stood by me. thoguh i've nv really shown my feelings openly, somehow, you guys were just able to feel wat i'm feeling. the simple words like 'are you ok' really made me feel better everytime. thanks=) We all break down. i'm sure... but what i feel, is that after you break down, stand up and improve. DON ever stay back at the same position. you let down yourself and others..

today, i spent the entire day relaxing... just do wat i feel like doing.. =) edited some photos which i'll post later. the rest will come wen i collate all. =)

GOOD NEWS! i'll be performing my sweeet dreams at TP's dinner and dance. =D

anywae, PICTURE TIME!.

my loves. RHRDUNNO. who is tt unglam girl..

The best work of the day..

to be continuedd...

the garden in my heart.messed.
10:54 PM

|Thursday, March 06, 2008

you might get offended by this post.
so don read if you don like vulgarities.
and don come argue with me after tt cos i told you not to read.

tuition bad.
dance bad.

My tuition job has been a pain in the ass! They ( mother and daughter) keeps asking wen i'm going for tuition. Freak! i already told you i got dance concert rite. will call you!!! And Freak. ok i don care. my vulgarities come out already.. FUCK! you find a replacement just becos i not going for a few weeks. =( yep. i know they are not in the wrong. but mann... i feel my job is going going gone... dance makes it worse... the rehearsal timings keep changing... cant you fucking keep to your schedules time?! yes. you may argue tt we are suppose to give all our time to dance after exams. and yes i have. you all say 9-6, ok. i change my schedule for dance. then late late at nite comes the msg of changed schedule.. and THEN, less then an hr before training comes another changed time. i try so hard to accomodate to the timings. i have other things too you know. i have sooo many other things.
fucked up.

i look weird wen i dance. something is wrong.
i asked iris.. she said yea. something looks diff...
fuck. wth is it????

i guess tts why i'm not in HER head.
not as significant in HER mind.
it sux tt i have to rely on my 2 frens before she can remember tt mei chin exist.
and i nv NV like trying to get noticed by ppl.
its sad sometimes... to know i'm better than some of them.
leadership wise, thinking wise, maturity wise.
yet i don get wat i deserve.
i quietly screaming for attention.

and don take the HER as a girl tt i like.
i'm striaght..
rest assure bout tt.

6 more days to concert.
we are no where near.
good luck everyone.


the garden in my heart.messed.
8:14 AM

|Saturday, March 01, 2008


It was non-stop practice... i like it like tt sometimes =)
thurs was from 1-6
fri was from 11-7
today was from 9-3

woo. shiok shiok shiok. ( though my muscles are beginning to hurt!)

Yesterday, Gin talked to us.
yep she pointed out that my weakness is i tend to eat the music and fight against time with the music...
i totally agree...
i've actually known this prob esp in bryan's class..
i cant seem to execute on the beat sometimes, always need to see ppl once in a while if i have the correct timing.. yep.
its bad..
i couldnt seelp last night.. kept thinking about it mann..
we should let the music take over our souls and not we take over the music..
i came to realise tt..

12 more days to the concert.
i really hope by then, the music and i will be best friends... =D

Do you asks yourselves wat you want in life?

i've been asking myself for a long time...
wanted to be an event planner...
i still want to.
i wanna become a marketer..
i still want to..
i wanna become a dancer..
i still want to...
so which path should i take?

i'm confused. irritated. sad.
becos i know,
i have to work hard in the choice i make.
but i cant seem to make the choice.
its something like you are lost...

now i really have no idea. -.

god! touch me with your lights mann!
i need some enlightment here!!

the garden in my heart.messed.
1:36 AM