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Can you tell me
How can one miss what she's never had
How could I reminisce when there is no past
How could I have memories of being happy with you boy
Could someone tell me how can this be
How could my mind pull up incidents
Recall dates and times that never happened
How could we celebrate a love that's to late
And how could I really mean the words I'm bout to say

I missed the times that we almost shared
I miss the love that was almost there
I miss the times that we use to kiss
At least in my dreams
Just let me take the time and reminisce
I miss the times that we never had
What happened to us we were almost there
Whoever said it's impossible to miss when you never had
Never almost had you


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|Tuesday, February 19, 2008

Oh wells..
these few days are like study study eat eat study and slp.

Chinese New year is almost over now..
my uncle returned to canada the other day..
and my sis returned to aus today...

i went to see her off together with mum dad and granny...
granny kissed her like 3 times.
first time in my life i see my granny kiss someone.
plus. my granny is the super traditional one....
after my sis left...
i saw my granny cry.
i teared becos i saw her cry..
must think in her perspective..
it maybe the last time she'll be seeing her grandaughter.
plus.. something terrible happened yesterday,
my grand uncle passed away...
though he lived in china, granny and him are still in contact.
i could see that wen my uncle broke the news to her she was sad...
but she didnt cry..
she's strong...
but i know in my heart, when she goes to slp...
tts wen her tears will roll...
i ddint know how to comfort her=(
sux. i just want my cousin to faster give birth..
then at least granny has something new to look forward to everyday...

Granny is the one who aspires me to big strong and independent.
One does not need to be fragile and naive to be loved.
my granny is the best example.=)

learn from her.. you dependent girls who cry over small cuts!
hahaha... =x

the garden in my heart.messed.
6:23 AM

|Saturday, February 16, 2008

My eyes are tired..
i've been forcing them open from 7.30 this morning...

My classmates and i went to visit Mrs See at her place today. she inited us over =) guess wat! we took 1 hr just to find our way into her estate! wth!! loads of funny stuff happen on the way.. imagine 3 guys, 3 girls... guys trying to be the MAN, lead the way.. ( of cos brought us to the wrong place) then girls, we were all in heels.. its was a killer mann. haha. the FUNNIEST part of the whole journey is tt we decided to stop this car to ask for directions... the guys were walking way ahead... ( trying to be the MAN again) then we asked the laady for directions. she didnt know how to tell us so she told us to hop in. HAHAHAHAHAHAH! how dope is that.. we hoped in then she drove us along the way we passed the guys. IT WAS DAMN FUNNY! we were like 'HI!!! come follow us!" hahah.. wa lao i think of it i wanna laugh my ass off! =D then after more searching we found it. ( in the end it was the guys who found it la.. so.. GOOD JOB! ) hahha.
At her place we chit chat, gambled (DUH!) and watched loads of MTV and Sponge bob... overall it was a well spent afternoon. =) i enjoyed...

Dance wasnt as good though... =( we showed gin wat we've been training for the past few lessons... not only did she not praise us, she said we DEproved... ouch mann.. it hurt. i put in alot of effort. my muscles act everyday for the past week.. but she said DEprove. we danced without a soul.. Following that was loads of lecturing, talking and thrashing. It was meaningfull..( it had better be) The bottom line of the entrie thing basically boils down to one's self. wat is dance to you? how much are you willing to give in for dance. do you dance because you wanna show off? or because you have a passion for it??

You wanna be a good dancer, you've gotta put down your pride. don be afaird to make mistakes. ASK if you dont know. And being arrogant will only bring you down!


We all want to do a good musical at the end of the day.. We dont wan to lose face infront of 550 ppl for 2 days... and we want our efforts to be recognised. So if any dancers see the post. PLSSS. reflect on yourself as i'm doing now. don forget wat Gin said today and start puttin our hearts in for everyone's sake.

back to study.

the garden in my heart.messed.
6:31 AM

|Tuesday, February 12, 2008

i fell damn shitty today =(

its becuase of dance.
like DUH!!
haiz.. training was from 6-9. but becos the seniors felt tt our dance wasnt good so they wanted to extend it to 10. But they gave a choice.. those who need to leave can leave first.
i left first.. after thinking hard... i feel bad.
cos i know i dance super NOT WELL. but yet i couldnt commit time to polish up my steps...
sux sux sux!

sian. after this weekend, we would have exams and then only 2 weeks to practice for the whole musical. is that crazy or is that crazy? its CRAZY. freak mann... why didnt we start early. why did Gin keep cancelling lessons. why did we waste so much time in camp. why do we have to have musical near exams. WHO PLANNED IT TO BE LIKE THAT!!!! why why why why why why why. SO WHOSE FAULT IS THIS? who who who who who who. aarrgghhh. -.-

i don like this.... -.-

i realised that i don find anyone in my clique who has to same aspirations as me. which is be good in studies and dance. i find tt most ppl in dance aspire to be good in dance -fullstop- And hence even if they had some priority in studies it would be the pass the subject and not to get As.. So there goes... no one will understand.

Diff ppl got diff aspirations. that is definite... but i guess thats the way th world works rite... yea. ignore my post.. i'm just finding a plce to regergitate all my laments.

study time.
bye bye.

the garden in my heart.messed.
6:48 AM

|Wednesday, February 06, 2008



wishing everyone a prosperous new year ahead, be it in studies, dance or work! May happiness be closest to you at all times! =D

Wanted to blog about my cny shopping experience this afternoon, but by the tme i got home, we had to go to my uncles' place for reunion dinner already.. so. here goes!

After dance yesterday nite, i reached home at about 11.30? then bathed and all 12 plus. Then suddenly my parents said they going out. goin to the market.. i was like HUH? wth ? market at 12 plus?? I was curious, so i followed...

Yea. some stalls at the wet market were still open OK! then my dad wen to get roast duck, my mum went to buy more veggie. After tt they say they wanna go get the plants. it was like 1am already.. and YA. the plant flourists were still open.. i was damn bored la. so i had to entertain myself.

see already wanna eat rite. =p

this one too..

dont you wish you can shuff this into simon seah's ass =x

These orchids are really unique =)

i liked these few flowers. =)

This rose i absolutely love.
its super unique. =D

Reunion dinner was good tonight! same food yr after yr, but it still tastes good.

this yrs' new year is a little different.

cos granny feels she's too weak to go visiting. so most of the visiting will be done at our place. i dont know if she really walk much, or she's just being a kid ( like she always does)... We'll see how it goes.

steam boat tmr!!!! weeeee. =D

the garden in my heart.messed.
8:30 AM

|Monday, February 04, 2008

PHEW! finally can take a breath.
happy happy happy today. =)
my tutotrials was productive, and i also found out tt i didnt fail my biz stat test, which also meant the retest wasnt for me to pass my course work, it was just that mr foo wanted me to have extra practice. phew mann..

happy happy today.
we continued our choreo for jive.
though my koo koo partner wasnt here, i still had fun.
i made new frens =) cheryl, sabrina, si hua joyce, jasmine and ryan.
we laughed alot. espeically cos jive was fast. then many times we couldnt catch up.
i learnt the guy steps too.
so can teach andreas...
cant wait for next week. =D

finally, i'm feeling happy again.

shopping + dance tmr! weeeee!

the garden in my heart.messed.
7:07 AM