|Saturday, March 17, 2007
I've been doing lots of thinking lately...
ANS: feeling empty. maybe a little lost too. At first i thought it was becos of the long lack of a love life, but then come to think of it, i kindof enjoy singlehood. Of cos, who wouldnt want a person to love and be loved in return. i do. its just not time yet. =) Okay, so other then a boyfren, a person needs frens. then only, I realised that its becos all my jc frens have moved on with their life, but mine is still stationery, stuck at the point of PAE. So now i see myself standing motionless at a cross junction while everyone else has turned into different directions.
Just last week i had dinner with my canoeing frens, and the seniors. it was sort of like a gathering...Frankly i was kindof disappointed. most ppl couldnt make it. they all had sch and stuff. and the seniors, they were very 'into' themselves... seriously, all they said was hi and bye. no joke... the only 2 seniors who really talked and joked with us were darryn and david. i went all the way to toa pah yoh just to get SUANed and irritated by them. thankfully jon came to my rescue. together, we beat them flat. WAHAHAHA. Amanda wanted to go there cos she wanted to relive the fun we had. see... i think both of us are kiindof similar in the sense that while we wait for poly to start we're just kindof stuck there. all we can do now i REcall and RElive. would that be considered a sad case?
NOw that its clear about the reason to my emptiness i kindof wan to find a solution but just haven got a clue yet. i cant wait for poly to start. the i can begin my new life. just cant wait!...
the garden in my heart.messed.
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