Oh wells..
these few days are like study study eat eat study and slp.

Chinese New year is almost over now..
my uncle returned to canada the other day..
and my sis returned to aus today...

i went to see her off together with mum dad and granny...
granny kissed her like 3 times.
first time in my life i see my granny kiss someone.
plus. my granny is the super traditional one....
after my sis left...
i saw my granny cry.
=(
i teared becos i saw her cry..
must think in her perspective..
it maybe the last time she'll be seeing her grandaughter.
plus.. something terrible happened yesterday,
my grand uncle passed away...
though he lived in china, granny and him are still in contact.
i could see that wen my uncle broke the news to her she was sad...
but she didnt cry..
she's strong...
but i know in my heart, when she goes to slp...
tts wen her tears will roll...
i ddint know how to comfort her=(
sux. i just want my cousin to faster give birth..
then at least granny has something new to look forward to everyday...

Granny is the one who aspires me to big strong and independent.
One does not need to be fragile and naive to be loved.
my granny is the best example.=)

learn from her.. you dependent girls who cry over small cuts!
hahaha... =x

My eyes are tired..
i've been forcing them open from 7.30 this morning...

My classmates and i went to visit Mrs See at her place today. she inited us over =) guess wat! we took 1 hr just to find our way into her estate! wth!! loads of funny stuff happen on the way.. imagine 3 guys, 3 girls... guys trying to be the MAN, lead the way.. ( of cos brought us to the wrong place) then girls, we were all in heels.. its was a killer mann. haha. the FUNNIEST part of the whole journey is tt we decided to stop this car to ask for directions... the guys were walking way ahead... ( trying to be the MAN again) then we asked the laady for directions. she didnt know how to tell us so she told us to hop in. HAHAHAHAHAHAH! how dope is that.. we hoped in then she drove us along the way we passed the guys. IT WAS DAMN FUNNY! we were like 'HI!!! come follow us!" hahah.. wa lao i think of it i wanna laugh my ass off! =D then after more searching we found it. ( in the end it was the guys who found it la.. so.. GOOD JOB! ) hahha.
At her place we chit chat, gambled (DUH!) and watched loads of MTV and Sponge bob... overall it was a well spent afternoon. =) i enjoyed...

Dance wasnt as good though... =( we showed gin wat we've been training for the past few lessons... not only did she not praise us, she said we DEproved... ouch mann.. it hurt. i put in alot of effort. my muscles act everyday for the past week.. but she said DEprove. we danced without a soul.. Following that was loads of lecturing, talking and thrashing. It was meaningfull..( it had better be) The bottom line of the entrie thing basically boils down to one's self. wat is dance to you? how much are you willing to give in for dance. do you dance because you wanna show off? or because you have a passion for it??

You wanna be a good dancer, you've gotta put down your pride. don be afaird to make mistakes. ASK if you dont know. And being arrogant will only bring you down!

REFLECT ON YOURSELF.

We all want to do a good musical at the end of the day.. We dont wan to lose face infront of 550 ppl for 2 days... and we want our efforts to be recognised. So if any dancers see the post. PLSSS. reflect on yourself as i'm doing now. don forget wat Gin said today and start puttin our hearts in for everyone's sake.

tired.
back to study.

i fell damn shitty today =(

its becuase of dance.
like DUH!!
haiz.. training was from 6-9. but becos the seniors felt tt our dance wasnt good so they wanted to extend it to 10. But they gave a choice.. those who need to leave can leave first.
i left first.. after thinking hard... i feel bad.
cos i know i dance super NOT WELL. but yet i couldnt commit time to polish up my steps...
sux sux sux!

sian. after this weekend, we would have exams and then only 2 weeks to practice for the whole musical. is that crazy or is that crazy? its CRAZY. freak mann... why didnt we start early. why did Gin keep cancelling lessons. why did we waste so much time in camp. why do we have to have musical near exams. WHO PLANNED IT TO BE LIKE THAT!!!! why why why why why why why. SO WHOSE FAULT IS THIS? who who who who who who. aarrgghhh. -.-

i don like this.... -.-

i realised that i don find anyone in my clique who has to same aspirations as me. which is be good in studies and dance. i find tt most ppl in dance aspire to be good in dance -fullstop- And hence even if they had some priority in studies it would be the pass the subject and not to get As.. So there goes... no one will understand.

Diff ppl got diff aspirations. that is definite... but i guess thats the way th world works rite... yea. ignore my post.. i'm just finding a plce to regergitate all my laments.

study time.
bye bye.

i liked these few flowers. =)

Reunion dinner was good tonight! same food yr after yr, but it still tastes good.

this yrs' new year is a little different.

cos granny feels she's too weak to go visiting. so most of the visiting will be done at our place. i dont know if she really walk much, or she's just being a kid ( like she always does)... We'll see how it goes.

steam boat tmr!!!! weeeee. =D

PHEW! finally can take a breath.
END OF TESTS!
happy happy happy today. =)
my tutotrials was productive, and i also found out tt i didnt fail my biz stat test, which also meant the retest wasnt for me to pass my course work, it was just that mr foo wanted me to have extra practice. phew mann..

happy happy today.
we continued our choreo for jive.
though my koo koo partner wasnt here, i still had fun.
i made new frens =) cheryl, sabrina, si hua joyce, jasmine and ryan.
we laughed alot. espeically cos jive was fast. then many times we couldnt catch up.
i learnt the guy steps too.
so can teach andreas...
ya,
cant wait for next week. =D


finally, i'm feeling happy again.

shopping + dance tmr! weeeee!
=)