|Saturday, May 10, 2008
REFLECTION TIME =)today was tpde's orientation..i was a fake freshiee...haha. my name was MEI SOK.everytime i introduce myself ppl react with a split second of either shock, or laugh.wa lao..wat if someone's name is really mei sok?!anywae. pls refrain from calling me tt... i don like the name.haha.being the fake freshie..there are good and bad experiences...good would be i got to know the juniors at tt level. ( it was kinda my main objective.. i didnt wan my newly upgraded statues to cos a barrier)well. bad was quite alot. personally. not for them.its really suprising...i felt hurt. and suffocation...it kinda felt like a verbal constipation throughout....really tiring!! like cant breath...the other things were the responds from the freshies.they siad stuff like ' wa lao. i feel cheated' 'wa. very irritating eh. can the person just admit?'very xing ku lo...i tot i was the only one... till i asked bei bei.. then she said she already asked didi if can reveal us early cos she felt the same too... i was shocked. i really thought it was only me..i'm still kinda taken aback tt these emotions would arise...none of us expected it! haha..we tot it'll be fun...its so hard to be someone you're not..the freshie's are good. some DOPE.i see some with alot of potential...hopefully most of them will stay. =)hopefully....he said' you neeed to surpass yourself. your enemy now id yourself'yea...i have to get rid of my ego...even more scared now, since the freshies are in..i cannot be seen as arrogant again.i don wan tt to happen! =(haiz...i must change!i cleaned off my nail polish and realised i have a huge blood clot in my big toe.and my last toes' nail 'dropped off'. its hard to explain...EEEWWW.itS sick!=(TIRED!good nite =)
the garden in my heart.messed.
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