Hello all.
2008 may not be ending in a good way..
so many projects to complete so much to improve...
i don remember 2007 being so stressful =/

Anywaes, for me, 2008 is actually the worst year in my life so far..
but, i guess, it was also the year i learnt and changed so much..
i'm still in the process of changing and sorting out my identity..
so pardon me if i've done anything wrong to you in this years..

In 2008..
i was criticised of my leadership.
i was constantly chided for saying hurtful words.
i hurt a lot of my friends.
i lost my confidence.
i lost alot of money..
i often scrutinise ppl's bad points.
i couldnt do well for my GPA.
i didnt get TBG.
i didnt get JAM N HOP (march)
i had my walls surrounding my heart freeze still.
i did not love any guy (im serious)
i was scattered and pride-full
i was ego-istic
i made many ppl unhappy...
i probably cried more than i usually do in a year.

In 2008,
i had new friends i really cherish.
i was given good opportunities in dance.
i learnt so much about team work.
i pushed over my limits in dance.
i'm cleaner and have more character in dance.
i learnt from my dear friends things which i probably would nv have learnt on my own.
i understood that people have their differences.
i lowered my ego and pride.
i've become more flexible.
i learnt that working is not easy and treasure money more now.
i've opened my eyes to the world..

In 2009,
i will learn to foccus on people's positive points.
i will try to love.
i will sort out my identity.
i will love my friends more.
i will not stinch on sharing and giving.
i will continue to make ppl around me happy.
i will continue to work harder on dance and studies.
i will accept love.
i will be more forgiving and forgetting.
i will be a better person. =)


its been tough...
so it'll be better.. rite?


i hope so =)
2009 here i come.

christmas shopping in TIRING!!!
i've started way tooooo last minute anywae...

Shopped around with my cousins today..
from peninsular to dhouby..
and we were at dhouby for freakin long!!!
dunno why we take up so much time there..
anywae, i've mostly settled my aunts and lil couz's prezzie.
but the rest ar NOT DONE.
die die die die die die die...
tmr we're meeting up already!

anywae, there's still time for more shopping tmr?
bahh.. i bought presents for my close friends too..
sorry its cheap stuff.. =/ broke mann. =(

i've received some presents already! =)
one from AH LEE LEE!
two from my both aunts, and one super unexpected one from a fren.

my gooooood fren alvin met up with him yesterday.
its been EFFING 2 YEARS since we last met.
he's pretty much the same but he says i look more mature now. haha.
AND SLIMMMER. *beems*
he's like super nice la.. i just old him i got a new nano, and the next thing i know,
he got me a nano 'condom' blue some more. =))
we drove to pick up some other olddddd frens.. KENNETH and XIAO JUN.
awww.. miss them too..
then we went to this super nice place at tanah mera.
next to the beach. super romantic la..
but there were like 5 of us.
but HEY. we're not the worse. there we 2 man on the next table.
HAHAHAHA.
its was a fun night. full of joy and laughter.. hmmm
happy happy. he's so nice la..

i feeeeeeel the christmas mannnn
kinda remember how some time ago my groupies used brandon's bag to blast chrsitmas song in biz school!
well guys. its here already!! so fast huh?
i was walking in orchard just now. soooo BEEEE-E-A-UTIFUL.
awww. i love the feeeling of christmas.
the love, the joy and the sharing =)


YEANYWAES... i'm gonna start wrapping whatever present i can wrap now.
tmr i have no idea how i'm gonna be passing all the gifts around.
oh dear.. =/

Back from camp!
super tired..
drained and all..
but i can say camp was fulfilling.

we did many things we probably wont really have the chance to do!
so to those who didnt attend.. TOO BAD! hahahha..

Well, quite coincidentally, all the groups i was in won all the prizes that was available!
hahaha.. cool stuff!

we slept in the dance studio..
danced there, slept there. =))
but the floor seemed extremely cold hard and dirty.
i missed my bed and boster and bath robe. =(

i'll post up some pictures soon mann.

i love tpde!!! =D

ppsst! the theme for gems 4 is MTV!!!! watch out. we're coming on STRONG.

I met nelson yesterday to session! =)

so i learnt to float, tried to learn to do a freeze from 6 steps, cleaned my top rock, and salsa step and 6 step. quite a load within 2 hr plus.

We were goin home when that guy wanted to eat DONUTS. awesomely FATTENING food.. AND i got dragged into commiting the sin. hahaha.. but thanx to the donut and 2 cups of bubble tea, we had 3 hrs of quality talk.

basically talked about life, relationships and personal preferences. o0o! and some insights on guy issues.. haha.. kinda started with.. do you think guys should always initiate? i've asked around quite a few ppl la.. funny thing was.. most of them said depends.. and wen i asked, ' so which kinda things shulds girls be the ones inititating?" manyy of them kinda took a loooooonnng time to ans. oh well. men are from mars and women are from venus!

i had my driving today! and I FREAKIN DROVE ON THE ROADDD!! omg. so FUN! hahaha. but a lil scary though... and i had this subconscious thought of ppl cursing and swearing behind me.. my instructor damn funny tooalso.. he kept scolding those ppl who tried to overtake me, and make my life difficult. hah! so nice la.. i like being protected. =) he's married and may be having a baby soon! he said he's gonna name her odesse? i dunno how to spell tt. it sounds like a car. haha!

i got this picture from Wan ting's blog. haahha. funny eh?

yea. fuck you.

i wish i could say that whenever i feel so.. but as we alllllllll know, we cant. =/

i Used to think strongly bout that way. (say wat you feel) but ever since poly, you realise that ppl do not accept such behaviour, nor would they conform to it. and thus, we all say good bye to this.

I've unintentionally hurt ppl many times with my words, and in return got hurt harder when they blow it all back at me in one breath. but then again, i only got myself to blame. I can say that i talk much less now. i wanna reduce chances of spitting knifes from my mouth accidentally, and in a nutshell, yes. i do feel afraid to say what i feel. Probably only the closet people would understand me. If not, the others would probably just be scolding me back for hurting them. To some point, avoiding such issues do save alot of trouble.

on a lighter note.....

My cousins are returning home toooooooooomorrow!!

i'm super EGGGGGGGGGCITED!

its BBEEEEEEEEEE-AWESOME.

hahaa. (i miss bolt. i might wanna watch it again.anyone in for it? hhahahaa =])

and my cousin who just left for HK is now MSN-ing me asking if i wanna get anything for myself.

i told him sweat pants for dance. then he went to gave me this wikipedia link to see if he's getting the correct idea. HAHAHAHAAH! funny funny.. anywae, they call it trackies there.. he's a great guy. will make a good boyfriend. GIRLS. he's 17 and going to be in singapore for 2 yrs. TIME IS RUNNING OUT! =)

okok. i MUST MUST MUST do at least half my IMP1 ij by tonight.

tata! =)

poor janson probably would never wanna ride a bike for the next 5 yrs.. HAHA.

YAAAAAYYYYYYYYYYY
it overrrrr!=)

i'm so relieved now..
finally, i can catch my breath for say 2 days?
hahaha..

i'll start my ijs on monday=)
my projecting will begin soon.
well. lets not talk about those!
RECESS TIME!

Today after the paper, sam miao miao and i went to have lunch.
then we went to watch BOLT.
awesome show.
freaking funny.. especially the hamster!
hahahhaaa.. i think we laughed pretty laughed.
it was kinda random watching it with 3 other ppl i dont really know..
they are.. rachel, adriel and marcus.
but. i know them now! =)

Now thaat exams are over i have so many things i wanna do..
i was thinking, i probably need to think of 2009 new year resolutions.
truth is. i cant even remember wat this yr's was.. haha!
well that means i need to pen it down somewhere..
Also, i wanna organise my life..
i've already bought my 2009 notebook.
and.. i also wanna look back and read up on my 2008 posts..

frankly, i feel 2008 is the toughest year of my life so far..
i learnt quite a fair bit la..
and i think i've changed.. good? bad? i dunno.. but i know i'm different.
but there also goo stuff to smile about and to hold on for years to come.

i'll talk more bout that some other day..
as for now...
how bout 8 things that you guys probably dont know bout me?


1. I don like hamsters.. and they are probably the only fury thing i dislike.
2. I would love to do overseas SIP and is waiting for the opportunity.. anyone interested?
3. I super cannot stand eating the fats beneath the chicken skin.
4. I don eat chicken feet cos i think they look like baby fingers. =S
5. I talk much less now as compared to the me in secondary school. hahahah!
6. I think guys who can play the piano are super sexy. =DD
7. I get paranoid very easily with lao ah peks around me.. HAHA. =x so shameless rite?
8. I wanna do a broadway production at least one time. its my life dream. i'll become a ghost if i dont. hahaha.


YEP. thats about all.
oh. i also found a colour i'm really fond of.
its TURQUOISE! =))
its gonna be my new baby from now.

Latin is ending soon.
this sunday...
hai...
wat should i do?
=/

tmr is FBODZ concert.
its gonna be freakin nice!!

i was sooo planning on goin to club or do some late night activities today.
cos mum is in Malacca, dad went to work, and exams are OVERR!
but everyone not free. =(
oh wells..
next time..

i'm on a shopping mood lately!
sis and i bought some stuff from FOREVER21 yesterday..
and i got more make up from E.L.F =)
i cant wait for all of them to come! =))
cousin got me my NANO tooo!!!!!!!!!! BLUEEEE!=))

okok. i'm ranting alot of crap here.
i WANNA DANCEEEEEE!



Fuzzy feeling is back..
i dont quite like it.. the whole suspense feeling.. =/
reply my messages you assholeeeeeee! haha.

o00o0oo0o..

and i shouldnt forget Randy as well.

he was a sweet one. (:

yes. i'm bored of studying..

We can be superheros if our mind allows us to..
Past week has been hectic like hell.
and i think i can become very blur and stupid sometimes.
is that the way i crack under pressure?

i handed in my RM ij LATE.
cos i tot it was 5 pm. but submission was at 12..
-.-
so gay..
feeling kinda screwed.
ouh well.
i can only blame myself.

Mum came home with lots of name cards? and ribbons?
a 100 of them..
my sis and i did the deco till 5 plus.
haiz...

Suddenly so many things happened in the past week.
its not very nice.
i don really like chasing after the world you know?
and sometimes i wish i had 36hrs in a day.
or maybe just more discipline to sit down and do my work.

i had a nightmare the other day..
dreamt that our government was using things we built to bomb ourselves.
like... a satellite dish. and rocket ship.
lee kuan yew spoke over some loud PA system saying all the best good luck. -.-
he was unhappy with the way humans were becoming.. and thus the attacks..
its was scary..
i concluded that the dream was a mixture of events that was happening around us.
the ingredients are: bangkok political issues + india bombings + 9pm show little nonya + AnP climate change project.
did i mention in the dream we suddenly had super powers?
like we can run in air.
hahaa!..
evolution of mankind in times of troubles..
it may happen..

Been thinking of my new year resolutions..
truth is... is cant even remember wat i ahd in mind for 2008.
looks like i gotta pen in done somewhere.
one of them is to decide on a course i wanna do and in which uni.
more to come!

as for now..
its back to studying..
oh mann...
bring the holidays closer!

HELLO!