4 more days to concert.
how are you guys feeling? =)

i'm fairly eggggggcited.
extremely anticipated..
and also kinda worried.

this year's one will be better than lasts'.
provided we can pull off the second half.
we know. to this point. audition items are all kinda crappy.
4 more days. Wat are you gonna make out of it?

I feel we as performers shouldnt be selfish.
if you cannot commit. its obvious, you wont be as good as the rest.
i mean. just compare the practice time..
for me,
i told Hazrul at the start of breaking..
if i cannot put up a freeze. i'll drop my solo.. get the bboys to replace me.
and wen gin didnt wan us to do bboy audition scene. i totally understood. so did kat steph and badd.
It all boils down to team work.. they work so hard!
and BECAUSE OF YOU. the whole fucking item will be pulled down.
why be so selfish?
if you can compare yourself to someone in the same position of you,
don forget to compare EVERYTHING with the person. EXAMPLE - TECHNIQUE.
well. you've only got yourself to prove now.
so don make us disappointed. and don pull your team down.
JIA YOU!

Its just a piece on my mind i have to say.
through so many performing experience,
we learn to compromise.
if ppl cannot do front roll, nvm. do side role. rite? =)

i'm gonna be changing my blog add..
its gonna be a diff name.. dozeoffnow. is so SEC SCH! hahahahhaa..
i've changed. =)

i changed my song! =D
its OOOOOOLLLLLDDDDDD SCHOOL OKAY!.
hahaha..

this isnt the real post i typedd.
i suddenly felt that it was kinda inapproriate for blog.
hahaha.

still in doubts.
i hope it'll clear.
tts all i can say here!

-peace out-

yes. my hand is like crap.
didnt expect for such a thing to happen..
but.. shit does happen i guess..
its okay... i'll heal by next week.. and i can start kissing the floors again.
as for now.. chill it. it'll heal..

I miss you.
we've not talked for like since last last sat.
i dunno wats goin on..
but i still want this friendship.
so tell me wat i should do..
cos i really dont know wats happening..
and i cant help but admit that i do think about us everytime i take the train home. =(
it hurts me..
this is all so crappy..
its bothering me..

i now it sounds silly thinking that i'm sad for being chucked at the back for almost the entire dance. cos we all know maybe its not.
but.. its not bout them.. but more bout me..
am i really tt lousy?
i cant help but doubt my dance.
wat have i got to do to prove myself?
i agree. i don shine on stage.
i feel like there's this invisible box around me.
why cant i get it off?
i need to break out of it.. yea?

i wanna take some fresh air..

i don get it.
how can you still not full out when instructions were given that its a run down?
so when do you want to wait until before you all start giving your all?

everytime you practice your step.
don just stupidly do it over and over again.
dance smart!
everytime you redo your steps..
aim on something to improve on..
there are so many things!
-extend you lines
-bigger movements
-sharper
-more precise
-more expression
-what feel?
-correct alignment?
-how much more can you push froma step etc etc.

The problem with everyone now is that..
for every step that we're doing..
its all passing steps.
what happen to the accent, control, sharpness? tightness?
so many things to do..
so so little timee.
one more week left dudes.
what are you gonna make out of it?

still wanna mark steps?
people have the luxury of 6 months.
but we. TPDE. DONT.
so wake up. we need to pull it together.

PUSH. BREAKOUT OF YOUR STUPID COMFORT ZONE.
STOP BEING LAZY.
STOP THINKING YOU'RE GOOD ENOUGH.
COS WE ALL KNOW. SO FAR..
NOT A SINGLE ITEM CAN BE PRESENTED ON STAGE.

its just me scolding me.
and sharing my point of view.
if it has impacted you. good.
if not. than walk it out.

-peace out-

my god. its friday again..
i cant believe how time is flying..

so im sitting in my chair now.. listening to my sis's complain.
its good at times like now.. i'm effing bored.

party night on wednesday was slightly different.
ok.. slightly was an understatement.
anyhow, hahaha. we had fun.
and thanks for the dare of having to get a guy buy us a drink.
steph and i were in such awkward situations! hahaha.
but fun la.. something new. =x
my popularity rate was also unusually high. weird.
and to think i was sticky and smelly and was in puma shoes.

Anywae. thursday was an off day from dance.
i basically spent as much time as i could with dad and mum.
i later accompanied mum to expo.
the Robinsons sale is going on..
its good stuff. cheap and nice!

2 weeks to concert.
sheesh. and i haven been able to fully absorb all the choreo i've learnt.
i'm also sure i'm not the only one..
ppl are constantly forgettin steps.
will gem4 be like gem 3 again?
you abit of mistake, i abit.. add together is a fucking hell load of SHIT.
so.. on my part. i'll clean up all my parts.
how bout you? =)

somehow things are changin..
erm.. it feels my world is rotating in a different direction..
sooo... i should go with it?
hmmm.. i dunno..

would you judge me i if told you wat happened?
is it right for you to judge?

CHECK THIS OUTTT
omgggggg

EVERYONE READ THIS.

thank god its peace making time..
and i know i'm not in this alone..

so yes.
my heart is finally willing to put down all the unhappiness accumulated..

it hs been tiring.
and i miss the fun times we've had.
so lets call it to an end.

i've let go..
and i will shut out all other bad gossips.
from today on. its only SPREADING THE LOVE.
good night

The world is a funny place.

Today as we were watching the juniors train,
raaz commented about them...then,

MC: hey. if you see your team mate doing something wrong what do you do?
R: just tell them ah!
MC: but you know some people they cannot take it right? and they might even gossip bout you after..
R: well. to accept or not is up to them. its their problem. but you should tell them..
Pris: i've changed. i don really do that anymore...
R: me also. cos some ppl dont know me wat...and they will think that i'm very rude wat.
MC: yea... its not appreciated by all.


I realised the 3 of us had something in common.
we were the frank ones in tpde.
i know pris and raaz... they'll just say things straight.
and yep. i do that too..
its not like we want to be the bad sometimes.
its just that we have more courage to tell...
and we've been losing since then...
so?

-

Breaking has been awful..
obviously gin does not need us anywhere...
and yes. i feel we're in the way..
its not fair sometimes to think that you want us to breakthrough in 1 month.
some things.. you need more than one month.

And in all this sadness,
you'll also find who are really there for you..
and who are you effing fair weather frens.

i need a hugg.
its been only the 3rd day of training...