[Verse 1]
Can you tell me
How can one miss what she's never had
How could I reminisce when there is no past
How could I have memories of being happy with you boy
Could someone tell me how can this be
How could my mind pull up incidents
Recall dates and times that never happened
How could we celebrate a love that's to late
And how could I really mean the words I'm bout to say
[Chorus]
I missed the times that we almost shared
I miss the love that was almost there
I miss the times that we use to kiss
At least in my dreams
Just let me take the time and reminisce
I miss the times that we never had
What happened to us we were almost there
Whoever said it's impossible to miss when you never had
Never almost had you
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I've finally picked myself up to start sourcing for SIP.. i called companies, and searched the net for good companies..
But at the back of my head, i knew i was still sad from my previous. all this time ive been surpressing and avoiding it.. and now the cut feels fresh.
to those who dont know, i screwed my interview with saatchi & saatchi. it hurts. i don screw up! i hardly do!
and for all things, why must i screw up for the thing i want the most. Saatchi & Saatchi is like THE ADVERTISING FIRM. every student wants their internship there.. and i was short listed for an interview. but i screwed up...
i cant really forgive myself because, the stuff tt i screwed were all in my control. i was late. my portfolio was messy. i didnt sell myself to the employer. ARGH. meichin you are so dumb.
it hurts... i'll remember this for life. i hope this mistake saves me from future job opportunities.. =/
i need to let go and forgive myself. its not easy though.. i might need more time. =(
the garden in my heart.messed.
3:47 AM
|Tuesday, May 26, 2009
the garden in my heart.messed.
5:53 AM
|Sunday, May 24, 2009
Dont you ask yourself sometimes, 'why me?' i need answers...
the garden in my heart.messed.
2:00 AM
|Sunday, May 17, 2009
I DON WANNA GO SCHOOL MUMMYYYYYYYY! =((
i'm having a primary school fit.
school sucks and i just wanna stay at home and watch cartoon!
Im running away...
school is so distant for me. i dont know wat to do for project,
and i feel like a complete asshole for not doing my part.
if only i could just stay off and chill at sentosa everyday... =(
huurrrrrr=((( i don wanna go schoolllll..
mummy help me write letter to grpmates?
i have an interview later but i just called to cancel it.
someone approached me to do freelance modelling.
but after serene told me bout the paying 500 bucks to let them do your portfolio,
i guess im not going anymore.
i trust serene, and i also heard from my tutor's daughter before.
i'm not tt pretty, my body is like pui. they don wan me to model,
they want my portfolio making cash.
Yesterday was soooo nice.
i don wanna come back to reality,
i just really wish to stay like yesterday for as long as we want.
the garden in my heart.messed.
8:25 PM
|Tuesday, May 12, 2009
HEllo! i havent been blogging for sometime..
i dont really know why actually..
in fact, time is passing so quickly, i cant even keep track of the things ive been doing.
Emotions over the past week has been rather on the down side...
i guess it all started with my screwed up interview.
i was late. don ever be fucking late for an interview...
and you guys know hos much i value punctuality. so not only did i disappoint the interviewer, i totally feel like a shit hole loser till now. =/
I've been very much alone too..
i mean, not physically, but mentally.
havent really been sharing with my loves about stuff and all.
i really cant wait for sunday.
i need some private time off, and some good ass sun tanning.
Night-working Coffee Boy as called by cherie has got me into a hell lot of thinking.
i really dont know if i should continue the game.
half of me wants to pull back due to many many reasons.
while the other half feels that maybe there's more to come..
side track--
caught STAR TREK with my groupies.
im not a trekkie fan, but seriously, the show was AWESOME.
i tot the storyline was really good. and of cos the graphics are stunners.
catch it.
Anywae, it was fun wwatching with them..
afterall the stress we accumulate over the week, its also fun to have destressing time together.
thank god for my groupies. i'm so grateful.
LONG AND PROSPER. *do the hand sign* hahahahahha
Also on saturday, i called the girls out for drinks.
they were so on! =D thanks babes.
i really needed to get out of the house.
i had my very first cup of FLAMING LAMBOGINI!!!
so did sam. hahah who got a lambogini hang over the next day.
its niceeee. erm. the ending part especially. milky milky one. =)
then we camwhored alot.
and went to a LATIN CLUB. omg. so fun!
went to china one. and last stop was MG.
first time there. =) andddd the jaquzzi looks tempting but i wasnt appropriately dressed.
anywae, it a really nice place for couple.
sky view comfortable environment....
I like guys who are witty you know?
some times i just find it irritating that i read past their mind too quickly.
i'm not saying that i'm smart of wat,
its just that their words, and actions,
makes things too obvious.
i hate to thhhhiiiiiinnnnkkk so much!
argh.
someone!
occupy me with something!
i feel so gone with saatchi.
not replying my calls. there goes my sip...
and i have not motivation to source for more...
i was jus describing to ian the feeling is like..
you just got rejected by a girl..
and you don ever wanna fall in love again.
ha. good analogy he said.
okay. i'm ranting.
i'll stop. buhbye!
the garden in my heart.messed.
9:22 PM
|Sunday, May 03, 2009
xJ says: vitasoy is nice haha ya kids sometime dont think anyway baby i mean babe wahhaha i go slp already MEI CHINNNNNNN says: hahahaha! xJ says: gd nite MEI CHINNNNNNN says: gd nite BABY hahahahahahaha xJ says: the y is too near the e whahaha sweet dreams
hahahahaha. i cant stop laughing. SHOCK ME TO HELL. tt ons my fren HOR. don mistaken.. damn funny.
