I've finally picked myself up to start sourcing for SIP..
i called companies, and searched the net for good companies..

But at the back of my head,
i knew i was still sad from my previous.
all this time ive been surpressing and avoiding it..
and now the cut feels fresh.

to those who dont know,
i screwed my interview with saatchi & saatchi.
it hurts.
i don screw up! i hardly do!

and for all things, why must i screw up for the thing i want the most.
Saatchi & Saatchi is like THE ADVERTISING FIRM.
every student wants their internship there..
and i was short listed for an interview.
but i screwed up...

i cant really forgive myself because,
the stuff tt i screwed were all in my control.
i was late.
my portfolio was messy.
i didnt sell myself to the employer.
ARGH.
meichin you are so dumb.

it hurts...
i'll remember this for life.
i hope this mistake saves me from future job opportunities.. =/

i need to let go and forgive myself.
its not easy though..
i might need more time. =(