Ive never felt so screwed in my whole entire life before...
this is probably the first time in my life an illness has made me so tensed.

I fainted for the first time in my 19 yrs on Earth.
i was brushing my teeth and all of a suddenly i couldnt see anything and i was ramping into stuff i have no idea wat..
by the time my vision was regained, i was already on the floor, and in my head...
i just kept wishing ' daddy don come in, don come in, don come in...."

They have already suspected that im not okay, because of my long naps and deep sleeps.
but thankfully everytime they touched my forehead it wasnt hot..
If my parents knew i was running a fever i would be OUT of jim beam...
and everything else..

to be frank, im really afraid as of now,
if my fever doesnt go down by tmr, im SCREWED.
i'll be a suspect for HINI.
its kinda like the feeling im gonna be a rotten apple and ppl are gonna throw me in the dustbin.

i know its selfish for me to move around the place being sick and all,
its just really sad..
and i don want to pass it to my frens either..

the though of today'a fainting still kinda scares me..
maybe cos its my first.
please please please please let me get better by tmr!
i don wanna end up in the hospital!!!! =(

Im stronger than this!
COME ONNNNN!