its alright, i suddenly feel i haven had a time for long thoughts in a long time.

life has been so hectice, i feel detached from my inner voice.

we were just talking about time for yourself the other day, and i said something which made so much sense..

if you don have enough time for yourself, eveything else may start to feel like a burden, and you'll start to push away all of them.

take for example an outing. somehow, you'll just have no feel to go.. it looks like JUST ANOTHER event, and you feel it'll be sian.. so you reject. but then, your other frens will be like having a shit load of fun.. just that you don see it happening to yourself. it applies to boyfrens too.. hahaha. too much of a boyfren makes you feel you don have time for your own, and you begin to find him irritating and you wanna push him away or not hang out with him... true? =)

talking about boyfrens... i really get turned off when couples live in their own world. its just unethical and not very gracious.. yea. i'll nv wanna lose my frens if i have a boyfren. afterall, they are the ones who you need if boyfren become jerkhole. hahaha.

to jump or not to jump?

i picture myself pacing up and down on the edge of a building.

below is just a depth of unknown, how long it goes?

maybe there's an enormous soft cotton candy at the pit,

but then wat if its a ground lined with curls of sharp thorns?

should i jump?

you shout from mid air, asking me to jump.

and i feel your stress.. but i cant decide. i ponder...

then again, wat if i don jump in time to catch up with you?...

wats gonna happen then?

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i shout back' hey! im still here! hang in there... ppleaseee? =('