Im disappointed.
i know its tough, but somehow my heart told me you're strong enough...
i just so miss the you last time,
strong and optimistic..
come back please?

i feel its my fault as well,
i cant help but feel the blame..
probably its because i didnt spend enough time with you...
apologised to your mum that day..
and she said ' its ok dear..'
damn.
i felt so raw and cut.
they must be feeling much worse..

So now with so much strain in the family
im really finding it dificult differentiate wats right from wrong.
and wats appropriate and not for me to say..
i wanna help, but the words just cant seem to come.
so i just spend so much time pondering over you.

grow up boy?
please? =/